I swear this is not a soap but let me know what you think of my mom..

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I swear this is not a soap on tv or anything like that, but true unfortunately. My mother was abused horribly growing up in ways only Wes Craven can come up with or saw. As a result she suffers from it AND she has medical issues too. For as long as I can remember she has had horrible migrains that sent her to the hospital until about 5 years ago and they were "healed" NO more headaches at least not like the ones she used to have. She has sever panic issues and even more sever pain from ra and lyme disease she says. I feel AWFULL that she feels this way and has to take so many medication to keep the pain at bay. I mean she take methadone and adderal to keep herself awake from the pain medication. She can be eating and then fall RIGHT TO SLEEP. She just had her birthday on the 3rd and she is now 55 not not nearly old enough for this to happen to her. She is always falling asleep from the medication but if she does not have it she has to be in the hospital for the pain. Very bad situation. Oh and she does not have insurance and they are in bankruptsy. I was supposed to pay 1000 a month to them to keep their bankruptsy going I had to sign a legally binding document. I told this to my lawyer and that if my ex (who know about this and told me he would ruin my family if I did not go back and he makes 6 figures) took this money my parents are going to not make it. He said it's not his problem and not mine. I should be trying to get my son. Welll That is what I am doing and that is what my parents were doing to. My lawyer is a %%% is all I can say. I fired him 2 x and I did not sign the final document for child custody due to me not agreeing with it though I am still bound to it. I digress. My mother is always asleep and when she does wake up she has my little siblings 12 and 15 to get her her food and water just like she did to the older ones. She uses sleep as a way to get away from the world. Now she won't answer the phone or talk on it for fear of bad news. She cries all the time and is messed up all the time. She is supposed to be homschooling my brother and sister but I don't see it. Every one tells me it's not my problem and yet I feel like it IS my problem since my dad who turns 60 does EVERYTHING he can just to make it. He works a radiator shop so he is out in this horrible tx heat right now. It kills me. My siblings need me, and they wish I was their mother or was able to take care of them but they know what would happen to mom if they did she would pass on. She is so afraid of her kids being taken away since my ex DID seperate the family on purpose so that I would be forced to come back. I did not come back but now my brother who was 12 at the time was accused of molesting my son AFTER I took my son to his doctor and he told our doctor his DAD did it to him. So I called cps to get this taken care of. Well blunt hit the roof and all was changed due to money and my husband and his family lying and acting WAY too calm about it while I passed out when I found out about the allegations. In the end my son told me no it was his dad not his uncle (12) that did it while I was at one of my SUPEVISED VISITS. So my mom is very scared my ex will do something else. Well I am scared for my mom as she just drifts farther away. I spoke to her drs and they said it is just a side effect of the pain medication and nothing can be done. She is bed ridden pretty much. I am crying because I feel helpless in a very bad situaion and don't know WHAT to do to make it better for all since I caused it by marrying my ex in the first place. The whole family is in need. My dad makes 980 a week but only brings home no more than 300. That does NOT cover everthing. My dad is diabetic and has not gone to a doctor in 3 years due to the insureance being 1000 a month too. They can not get food stamps since he makes too much even though his takehome is way less. I can go on and on about this. I need prayers and Maybe some advise. It's just killing me and making me crazy to see what has happened and I don't feel like there is anything I can do. I almost can't see my mom because she want my son to come back and that is all she talks about then she cries forever. Then since I have gotten married she wants us to all be in the same house and live happily every after. I don't have the heart to changer her mind I let dad do this. It pains me to see them like this