No Etta
By vwilliams55
@vwilliams55 (117)
United States
August 15, 2011 8:58pm CST
Finally after a long not so happy life, I am finally going to die old and alone. It is a terrible feeling. Good guys do finish last sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if I had went through life trying to hurt people any way I can , if things would have been different. My kids use to make fun of me people I was always the one trying to help family and strangers and sometimes I got played and most times I got no thanks. I still felt good because I helped. I am not perfect by far but I always tried to do the right thing. My life is just about over and if I could do it over again, I would try to be meaner and the whole works. I won't change now because its too late for me now. Gosh I was a loser. How can you tell a person to be the best they could be when there is a chance the outcome can be this bad?
2 responses
@choybel (5042)
• Philippines
16 Aug 11
I think you should talk to an old friend, one that has been with you through the good and bad. Just tell him exactly what your state is and how you are feeling about it. Sometimes, it is better to let it all out. I wish I could be of better help. I hope you will be able to get through this fine. Good luck!
@vwilliams55 (117)
• United States
16 Aug 11
Hey. Thank you for your comment. Talking to a old friend is not bad. Just thinking about old and alone is. Talking to a old friend does sound funny too.
@peavey (16936)
• United States
16 Aug 11
You sound depressed. We all go through things in this life and often feel unappreciated, but there are good things even then. If we just look at the negative, it will get worse, but if we make an effort to look at the positive things in our lives, things do get better.
I don't know your situation other than what you've posted here, but how bad is it? You don't give us much to go on, but from what you wrote, there are positive things in your life.
@vwilliams55 (117)
• United States
16 Aug 11
It just that I will be half a century in no time and I am constantly hearing people say "you don't want to be old and alone". Now that is exactly how I am and I can't understand how it happend. Seems like a nightmare where you can't wake up.
