Jaiho's Farewell

By Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
Philippines
August 19, 2011 6:43am CST
When You Leave Me I swallowed my pride and forget humiliation when I begged you to stay. I never knew the feeling of insult when I kneeled down and you turned away. My mind denied accepting any truth that your love faded and you want me out of your way. Where love has gone, if you knew please tell me and I will chase with the wind to bring it back with me. I wonder where did I gone wrong, I wonder where I belong. Have you ever given me a room in your heart, or you just took me for granted to fill your emptiness. Did you ever given me a place in your life or you just took me for a while, to fill your desires. Having me like a possession, like a display that can be thrown when there is no value anymore. The moment you closed the door, I saw my world crashed before my very eyes. When your shadow faded, my life fell into an unending pitch of darkness. You shut my heart like closing a book, leaving it unread, left unpublished. You left me with shattered dreams, broken heart unjustified and a life meaningless. [b]Promises in vain,when love is not real but in disguise. I don’t know to stop feeling this way! [/b] Maybe my "farewell" for the meantime dear mylotters- not sure, thu it breaks my heart. I am not sure...really not sure. I guess I need some break- or a change- whatever. Have a great weekend everyone jaiho® 8/19/2011 7:42pm PT (Friday)
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15 responses
myfb2009
@myfb2009 (8296)
• Malaysia
19 Aug 11
Hi Sis Jai, i am back again...Why you so sad over there? Is it someone is hurting you a lot over there? Let me help you out, if there is anything i can help...I think you deserve a much better person to love, if that particular person didn't love you. Don't make yourself so sad, otherwise all your hair gone white...
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hello sis, No, no one hurt me. And it's my fault I did not clarify that, I am not leaving mylot. I will only take a break from writing poem/s, or maybe I will write poem/s with other subject I guess. Thanks for your concern and have a great weekend jaiho®
myfb2009
@myfb2009 (8296)
• Malaysia
20 Aug 11
It is good to hear that you are fine over there, sister. Ohh, no problem if you want to take a break from writing poem. But, never take a break from Mylot, yay... It is wonderful to have you here, sis.
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
21 Aug 11
hello sis, yes, I will be here and have a good day
theSids
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
19 Aug 11
Hi di I wished I could write a response to each and every line you wrote here... But that would make the response boring as I am not that great in expressing (recently) So here is just one line that I response - I wonder where did I gone wrong, I wonder where I belong My dear di cannot go wrong and she does belong to MyLot and Me (of course me after the others so very special to you). You can have a break - what happened to that kitKat that I sent you a few discussions back? Did you finish all of that big pack? Unfair... you should have some more left for this day... Tell me, I will be sending you more of those and yes, please stay calm and take a break... I can also arrange for your elephant ride here.
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
dear sids Oh, the big pack is over, (hehehe) You know your di is too fond of eating chocs these days that I can't resist I like that elephant idea...i really love that I won't be leaving mylot my dear, but I will take a break from writing poem. Maybe I need to change my subject then that will be fine (*_*) have a great weekend dear (^_^) di, jaiho®
saphrina
@saphrina (31551)
• South Africa
19 Aug 11
Don't do this sweetie. It's not worth it.
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
dear saphy, I am here sweetheart...how can I leave you
Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
saphrina
@saphrina (31551)
• South Africa
20 Aug 11
You better not.
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CTHanum
@CTHanum (8234)
• Malaysia
19 Aug 11
If its hurt you then take a little break for yourself but make sure you come back soon~
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
21 Aug 11
yes, my fault sis..(hehehe) i will stay, don't worry and will write poem....soon
Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
I am back dear sis...can't leave you and other mylotters I forgot to write that I am not leaving mylot, but will only take a break from writing and posting poem. I will come back with other subject soon... have a great weekend jaiho®
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CTHanum
@CTHanum (8234)
• Malaysia
21 Aug 11
Fuhh~ Take a break from writing and posting poem...You should mentioned about it the first place~(^^) I missed you post about your life and other subject since you always come up with poems.. I am fine with it your poems too...Will wait your other posts!!(^^)
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bhabycatch013
@bhabycatch013 (9150)
• Philippines
23 Aug 11
hi jaiho, Its sad to know that you are breaking this habit of yours Your poem is a good one really I admire you for having such talent If you want a change I hope it will be a good decision and it is your decision and not someone else You must go for what makes you happy and not for what others say so i miss you
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
23 Aug 11
no comment sweetheart
Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
24 Aug 11
ok..you don't like it? honey? then I can keep this address to saphy sweetheart
bhabycatch013
@bhabycatch013 (9150)
• Philippines
23 Aug 11
sweetheart? you called me sweetheart?
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isloooboy
@isloooboy (1733)
• United Arab Emirates
20 Aug 11
The way you presented your feelings its inspiring and very touchy, I have nothing but to share this...: If I got on my knees and I pleaded with you Not to go but to stay in my heart Would you walk out the door? Like you did once before? But this time be different and please stay Don’t go please stay I f I call out your name like a prayer Would you leave me alone with my tears? Knowing I, I need you so Would you still turn and go? But this time be different in some way Don’t go please stay
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hello isloo, You wrote this one? Nice phrases Now,how can I leave when you ask me to stay? have a great weekend jaiho®
vkatrix
@vkatrix (78)
• India
20 Aug 11
Hi islooboy... That is a wonderfully expressive set of lines!! Did you write them yourself?
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secretbear
@secretbear (19448)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
Hi jaiho. That's a really sad poem. I remember one myLotter, Chiyosan just by reading this because she just broke up with her cheating boyfriend-now-ex. I guess you just need a break. Be sure to come back!
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hello secret, Thanks fro appreciating this one again my friend I read it from her topic and I responded there too, I hope she will be fine now. Have a great weekend jaiho®
Patsie Hatley
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
19 Aug 11
hi jaihoo oh stay and not say goodbye, just a rest break before you return .Lovely poem but why do we women really let ourselves in for men who are users, not losers, but users who fancy a woman for a short while but then he is bored, and pathetic. real love does not use people ,it ennobles them and their loved ones. they do not ever say goodbye, as they are on lifes long journey of partners for life.see yo made me turn poetic. lol
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
dear Hatley, I can see a poetess in you my dear. No, I won't leave you dear and other mylotter. I forgot to write that, I will only take a break with my poem/s. I will come back with other subject...and hope to published one soon have a great weekend dear ma'm jaiho®
akangirl
@akangirl (2436)
• India
20 Aug 11
Hey sis don't you dare leave from here, already occeanna has left and now you are thinking of leaving.Its not fair. Stay here and never ever think of leaving mylot my dear sis.Mylot won't be ever same for me without you.Goodbye is a very sad and i never wanna hear that from you.
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
21 Aug 11
dear sis No, I won't leave mylot. I forgot to write that I will only take a break for writing poem/s... But don't worry I will be staying here and will write poem soon Good to see you back sis and have a good day always sis, jaiho®
tigeraunt
@tigeraunt (6326)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hi jaiho, i hope it is just but a poem to you dear. but very touching indeed. i wonder why betrayal hurts the most? i wonder why girls have to cry so much that tears would soak a towel before realizing life is not all sadness like what you said in your poem. it is the reason why i say, when you love someone, do not give all.. leave something for yourself so that you can still move on. its another beautiful poem. thank you for sharing. ann
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
dear ann, Oh dear I am not leaving mylot (my fault) I did not clear that I will only have a break from writing poem/s and not leaving mylot. Don't worry dear...i am fine and will always be here have a great weekend jaiho®
maharlikah
@maharlikah (1045)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
Hello dear amiga, this poem is breaking my heart. But it breaks more when I couldn't see you around. But whatever is the deepest reason for leaving, may it helps you to become a stronger person than before. I know how strong you are. :- Stay happy and gay :-)
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
dear amiga, thanks for appreciating the poem dear. But no , I am not going anywhere. I forgot to write here that I will only take a break from writing poem...but not leaving mylot have a great weekend and good to see you once again my dear jaiho®
LetranKnight25
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
19 Aug 11
Hello sis, at least you had the courtesy of informing us, some of our mylot friends either disappear with out a trace or don't come back online. this is getting sadder every day, it seems that i didn't want to be left alone at all. i hope you come back when ever you feel like it. we will miss you though. have a nice day
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hello LK, Uh uh, I guess I need to keep posting that I am going to leave mylot then you will come and reply No dear, I am not leaving mylot, but I will take a break from writing poem/s. have a great weekend my dear brother jaiho®
edsss17
@edsss17 (4394)
• Philippines
21 Aug 11
I love your poems my lady. Either its sad or full of love, I love it! I will surely miss it.. The picture is so cute!
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
21 Aug 11
my lady, Thanks for loving my poem/s dear. I will write and post more poem/s soon...don't worry have a good day always jaiho®
vkatrix
@vkatrix (78)
• India
19 Aug 11
Hey jaiho! Why are you bidding us all farewell? :'( I love your poems and your discussions and your after-comments - Everything!! And myLot will be so bare without you! :( PS: This poem is really very well framed. The no-nonsense, concise layout relays the whole essence of the poem like nothing else can! And the emotions are near-perfect, painting a very vivid image. Your best up to date, I can say. Please always keep writing. It's like a connection to your heart and soul - it must not be severed. Awaiting your return...
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Jane
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
20 Aug 11
hello vkatrix, Sorry friend, I forgot to write that I am not leaving mylot. I will only take a break from writing and posting poem/s for the meantime. Thanks for your appreciation ...I will keep on writing poems/ but will be publishing at the other site. have a great weekend jaiho®
Professor2010
@Professor2010 (20162)
• India
26 Feb 12
Jane beti Today i am reading all your poems, they reflect the pain you are having for the cheat Mineesh Tears comes to my eyes while responding. This man will be punished by the Almighty, then only he will realize what he has done. Hugs from Dada