Its so hard to believe these days
By bonnie
@bunnybon7 (50973)
Holiday, Florida
August 25, 2011 11:03pm CST
Sometimes i feel like im in a bad dream. Is it just me? or is the world going to hell? I mean here Iam missing the daughter I had trouble with when she came to visit. shes home now back in Ohio. I have my youngest here. but I feel bad because even though we made up before the other one left, now she doesnt seem to be talking to me, the one back in ohio. I still havent gotten a surgery time set and im between wanting to get it over with and scared i wont survive it. we are still having financial problems here. then my friend that is sometimes my enemy just called a while ago and scared me by crying and saying her grand daughter died. she was talking about her DIL was 5 mths pregnant and lost her today. but it scared me so bad because i thought at first she was talking about the 9yr old i know and love. anyway, she said her son was cursing God and all. I really wish he wouldnt although i kind of know how he feels. lately ive had doubts, but i just tell myself dont do that. Even when feeling like Job at times i remember i have to keep faith. its all we have sometimes. Dont you agree? have you ever felt like Job? especially lately when it seems the whole world is topsy turvy.
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@Christmas2006 (1661)
• United States
26 Aug 11
Job 1:6-12 has always been my favorite verses when something bad is happening. These verses are about an argument between God and Satan and God is bragging about Job to Satan. I always ask myself, 'could God brag about me?'... they also remind me that Satan is the one that does the bad things to us!
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
i really know that and my son says that every time. but i sometimes forget for a minute and ask why God would let it happen. you are so right and i do realise that most of the time. also my son has this thing where he says things happen for a reason, and im always saying, first thing i see God, im asking him why. hopefully i dont go to the other place.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
i know. but also he said whatsoever you ask in Jesus name you will be given if you have faith. trouble is, thats proven wrong to me at least once. only once, when John was dying, my hubby. so i still like to know why. but you know a lot i see.
@daeckardt (6237)
• United States
3 Oct 11
I know what you mean. I can say that I almost felt like that when my doctor told me last month that my numbers had doubled. It is hard to know that I may have to go back into treatment and it is so hard waiting for answers. I have the CT scan on Tuesday and will get the results on Wednesday. I hope it isn't too bad, but I have to be realistic. I also believe that if life gives you lemons you should make lemonade. I guess that is what keeps me going. I have many things I can do to help others and that gives me a purpose rather than getting depressed about the bad news. I hope all goes well for you! Have a great week!!!
@daeckardt (6237)
• United States
4 Oct 11
Thanks for the well wishes. I'm glad that both of you are doing better. I'm sure that whatever the results on Wednesday that I will be ok. I just need to keep positive and be productive.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
3 Oct 11
oh sweetie, im still holding you in my prayers. you are such a good person. i, myself, am doing pretty good so far with the surgery over and my daughter in ohio seems to be on the mend. this cancer is a dreadful thing. im so sick of it all. wishing you good news wednesday hugs, bon
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@suspenseful (40192)
• Canada
26 Aug 11
I have felt bad about things happening and wondered how I could do to change it or if it will ever get better. We do live in a broken world so as the book says Bad things happen to good people. And people also misunderstand, think people are talking about them, children die before they are born, people blame God, people worry about dying, etc. I really think that the devil comes and messes things up and we just have to live through it until the end.
@suspenseful (40192)
• Canada
27 Aug 11
I am usually at a loss to what to say when someone has a loss. I can usually just give them a hug. Sometimes that is all they need and then you avoid the "you do not understand as it never happened to you" that you usually get ==cpurse for me, it did happen but losing a baby at less then a month is a whole lot different from losing the baby at five months.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
just the point ive been speaking of here. i just wish i could talk to the one that lost the baby. wish i knew the right words cause my heart hurts for them.
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@celticeagle (168334)
• Boise, Idaho
26 Aug 11
Don't jump to conclusions. Maybe she is just trying to get things figures out there at home after being gone. I'm an agnostic so faith in God only makes me laugh. I feel sorry for people that have to rely on him for everything. I think you might be feeling alittle overly sensitive. Do you take a hormone?
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
26 Aug 11
I also feel my world is topsy turvy bunny.. but a bit luckier i guess i have my hubby with me and the kids..and i stopped complaining because i know there are people with a lot more worse situations than i am....
Anyway, i hope you are better my friend, it is sad that your daughter is not there iwth you and i hope they will speak to you and comfort you and be there at your worst.. it is the time that you need them. You need them too. They have to be there for your operation and i am praying you will get through this.I will include you in my prayers bunny.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
i do thank you so much. i do have my one great daughter thats always been a comfort to me here. the one back in ohio is the one ive never been able to see eye to eye with through any thing. maybe some day. but till then i have the one girl.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
29 Aug 11
glad you still have someone to comfort you bunny. time will come that one in ohio will see things and will be there for you.
@RitterSport (2451)
• Lippstadt, Germany
28 Aug 11
dear bunnybon, writing to you from the comfort of home sweet home. I havent walked in your shoes with such a surgery and then family problems on top of that. I recall about your daughter from Ohio how selfish she was when she visited you and that you talked before she left again.
Things like this happen and I hope you draw comfort from the fact there still is your youngest daughter with you who is very helpful and I also hope that we mylotters can somehow help you through the bad times you face right now.
Hugs
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
28 Aug 11
thank you so much. i appreciate it all and havent lost faith yet. this would be the worst time to do so.
@RitterSport (2451)
• Lippstadt, Germany
28 Aug 11
your faith seems to be real strong with all you must have been through.....so I hope you have a blessed week. Thinking of you
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
26 Aug 11
hi bunnybon oh dear I was so hoping they would not drag on and on withyour surgeryl oh yes although my case is not as serious health wise as your when we were evicted and the internet friend who was so buddy buddy with son led us on to think she really was going to stake us to three months rent on an apartment in Antioch california where her sister lived, this internet friend is in
England.
then my son going to the trouble of putting down a d eposit on the apt and her signing an agreement with the manager, at the very last moment she called long distance to that manager and told him to tear up the paper. so we were then homeless. that's when I begin to think God had turned his back on us but we have made it the best way we can for now, me here in Gold crest retirement ,i do not really like it but still its much better than floating homeless and living in shelters for one week .so here i am yet and my sons still six miles away in a gov sponsored apt with other men but he comes to see me each week and we have a good visit so what can we do till he gets a full time job.I have kept my faith but it was and still is hard. but its not the fight you have. I am sending more prayers you soon have the surgery and come through it beautifully and are finally cancer free. I hope all our mylot friends will join me in prayers as I do believe they do help. hugs
from hatley
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
thank you my dear sweet friend. i have been praying for you also and will remember now to pray your son gets a good job to help you back on your feet. im glad all my friends here have been praying because i believe its all thats kept me from being told i have no hope of recovery. its the only thing that helps.
@jdyrj777 (6528)
• United States
26 Aug 11
Even Job didnt blame God for the bad things that happen to him. So many are too quick to blame God when things go wrong. But think about this.
Satan is refered to as the ruler of this world.
"I shall not speak much with you anymore, for the ruler of the world is coming. And he has no hold on me."John14:30
"then concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world has been judged."John16:11
"Now there is a judging of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out."John12:31.
"Keep your senses, be watchful. Your adversary,the Devil, walks about like a roaring lion, seeking to devour someone."1Pe.5:8.
"Then Jahovah said to Satan:"Just where do you come from?" At that Satan answered Jahovah and said:"From roving about in the earth and from walking about in it."Job2:2.
"On this accound be glad, you heavens and you who reside in them! Woe for the earth and for the sea, because the Devil has come down to you, having great anger, knowing he has a short period of time."Rev.12:12.
I blame satan for bad things that happen as for Jahovah he doesnt want anyone to get hurt or suffer.
"Likewise it is not a desirable thing with my Father who is in heaven for one of these little ones to perish."Mt.18:14.
Jahovah's future plan for us is...Isa.65:17-25; Rev.21:4
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
oh i know you are right. and even sinners and devil people have said this world is hell. still theres reason to pray and ask for help. lots of times he gives it.
@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
26 Aug 11
HI BON, I'm sorry u are going through such a hard time.I hope things get better for u real soon. I will be glad when they get your surgery sceduled & u get that behind u & get on the mend.Waiting like that can drive u nuts.I hate the way doctors do about such as that. Bet if it was them they'd want it done as soon as possible & behind them.Talk to your daughter & both of u get your feelings out & behind u to.Sorry to hear about your friend's grandbaby. That would be very hard for me to deal with to.Hope your weekend is good. Count your blessings, lady. hard to do i know but i'm sure u have many. HUGS.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
you are right Jo. my main blessing being my daughter here. which i sure thank God for keeping her alive and with me. right now they, her and her fiance are in there fixing up a great meal. yes, at times God is good. hope you have a great weekend to girl.
@salonga (27775)
• Philippines
26 Aug 11
There are people who have the guts to curse God in times of trouble but come to think of it did they every praise God when they were in good times! Chances are they did not. Those who curse do not really know God. It is only through knowing God and what kind of God He is would one know why tribulations come in ever one's life and with this true knowledge comes faith so that even in the midst of tribulation he could still thank God
@salonga (27775)
• Philippines
26 Aug 11
There are people who have the guts to curse God in times of trouble but come to think of it did they ever praise God when they were in good times?
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
you are so right friend and i have often thought of that. i have often thanked him for so much. i just thanked him last night after she called because ive never had to face such a thing. i dont know what i would do. i know i would pray that Jesus enfold them in his arms, where everything would be all right.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
27 Aug 11
Over a dozen years ago my friends called me Mrs. Job as nothing was right in my life. Everything was awful as my husband was dying and I was in so much financial problems. But I got through it - not without pain - buy joy did come again. And also a deeper faith. Just hold on. God does know what you are going through. Keep the fsith. I will pray that your operation will go successfully. Many blessings
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
dear friend, you have no idea how much that means to me to have you praying for me. and what an inspiration your words are. makes me feel good things will happen again some day. makes me hang in there thanks.
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
27 Aug 11
Hi bon!
Oh gosh so sorry that still to date life just really shucks right now for so many of us. I too have been going through quite a bit but have been very reserved for a while. I do feel like giving up quite a bit, though I do realize that my issues in no way can be compared to yours. I as you may know have been unemployed for 17 months. Struggling to no end and uncertain as to what it is I deserve to be in this predicament. I then come here and read so many issues many of you are experiencing and can't help but then think that I am sadly mistaken about my run of bad luck.
I have you in my constant prayers and do hope that all of us someday can perk up with great faith and continue to carry on with happier times.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
i know what you mean hardworking, because my son often says he wish he didnt have to work so hard and struggle so to keep us all going. but then i tell him, i wish i could still work and help him. when i was working, i was like him and just wished i could take some breaks now and then and still have money. now i wish to god i could work again. so i know how you feel. its more struggle, bordom, and tiring not to have a job.
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
26 Aug 11
I got scared like that not that long ago because a friend said for everyone to pray for her daughter because she has just had a surprise loss of and her mom said the name and said that he was a good daddy and a good man.I thought at first she was talking about her daughters husband since I didn't know his name because they just had a baby not that long ago together. She was talking about her daughters dad which was her ex husband. I was freaking out until I figured that out. It was still sad but not as bad as I was thinking.
I've known lots of people that dealt with the loss of losing a loved one that was into religion real heavy until something like that happened and then they went the total opposite.It is real sad.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
its very sad. i had to stop myself from saying things i was thinking like, "you should be grateful it wasnt the one you already know and love" but that would have been wrong i know. since i have no idea of the difference having never lost a child before i knew it well or thank God any child!! im just glad i had the presence of mind not to say it. although i never know what to say to comfort someone just as im sure others didnt me when i lost my dear hubby. like i told everyone, its ok, i know you want to help but there nothing to be done except time.
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
27 Aug 11
It would have been a lot harder loss for them if it would've been the son that you knew. They would have so much memories and longer attachments to him but it would still be real hard on the other loss.It is hard to know how to comfort someone when they lose someone. Thank you for replying back to me. Have a good weekend!
@beenice2 (2967)
• Sackville, New Brunswick
17 Jan 12
I think that you have to keep holding on to God, yes the world is going down very low because they forgot about our creator and harvest the fruits of their actions. I always find comfort in praying and reading everyday the BIBLE,it calms the soul, bring peace of mind so we can go through the day,God didn't promise us a garden of roses everyday of our lives, and we know very well that we always going to have our enemy "Satan" I'm calling him a pest. We have to hold on to our creator to keep our enemy at bay, never give up.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
17 Jan 12
i know. in the lowest times its very hard to have faith, but what else is there? it may be coming the end after all. people have to much turned away. i still want to make sure im not left behind.
@AmbiePam (93973)
• United States
26 Aug 11
Definitely I've felt like that. It's so easy to trust God in the good times. But I keep reminding myself we are never abandoned. And that everything passes. And that someday there will be no pain. And I definitely want to end up in the land of no pain, no heartache, and nothing but love and peace. If we can just make it through this 'ol imperfect world.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
absolutely. you said a mouth full friend. i keep telling my kids that. not to be sad when im gone because im in a better place.
@ravalarun (337)
• India
26 Aug 11
I excuse dear but, i have to explain you that, read your post & think about it, you all written which you dont like to do like, all are minus side you are posted. i advise you try to be a hopefull and possitive.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
i know i should. im always doing that. posting something sad. wish i could think more happy these days. so much is going wrong in my life. here i have support and im afraid i do take a bit of advantage of that.
@nezavisima (7408)
• Bulgaria
26 Aug 11
Indeed nowadays it is very difficult to believe in many things.
is sometimes difficult to keep the faith.
but most importantly it seems our faith and our will power and struggle for life.
If we do not pass everything will be normal and can not believe ene of these things.
nice day!
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
26 Aug 11
it sure is hard to keep faith these days. you try so hard to be upbeat and yet everything comes down on you. you know. thanks for response
@Jessi_T (379)
• United States
26 Aug 11
Keep telling yourself you can't have doubts. I have been fighting that battle for over a year and I keep telling myself the same thing. We can't forget God's love or his power. Without that we would truly be lost.
I am sorry your friend that is sometimes your enemy (and trust me I have one of those too, so I understand what you mean) lost her unborn grandchild because that is a horrible loss, and I am sorry her son is taking his anger and no doubt grief out on God, I can't count the number of times this past year alone I have wanted to do that, and found the strength to not. God be with them and their entire family.
I am still praying for you and your surgery outcome. I might not be on here as often as FB but you are in my thoughts and I pray everything goes okay.
Ohio is not a fun place tonight it's hot humid and nasty, or at least where I am setting at it is. =)
Keep the faith. Life does get better when we least expect it too.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
27 Aug 11
yes you are so right and i so feel close to him (Jesus) at times and i guess i just have to go along with something i heard once, id rather believe in God and find out later if hes not there, then not believe and find out he was always there after all. i also have times when im so happy and full of it that i cant enjoy myself entirely because of sorrow for those still lost. yes im that silly.