I just want to Die.

You really should take a break payout. Maybe treat yourself with anything you like. Or else, have a day spent for yourself alone. Maybe when you`re all alone and there`s no one that will bother you, you will have a more peaceful mind and you can think more clearly. Maybe at this time you can think of possible ways to address your problems. Having too much is too hard to handle but when you know where and how to start, then everything will follow. From your car`s problem, then to your dad, to the dogs and to the buses you will be taking for work. Every problem has a solution. Don`t just give up and say that you want to die because while you are alive there is always hope.

Hello my dear friend. I too have been going through emotional difficulty lately. That's why i wasn't here on mylot as often as i used to. And if you noticed i haven't posted any discussions for over a week now, well except the one i made today and it's only about my new hair. Wish i could do something for you, but i'm stuck here, miles away from where you are. Don't die on me young friend.. you have so much to look forward to in life but you can't see it now as your sight is being blocked. Wait for it to clear up and hope to hear some good news from you soon.

Okay, relax, take a deep breath. The car situation and the buses is a pain, but it is only temporary. Your dad will fix his car, and go with you to tag yours. If the car is in your father's name then I guess the tags will have to be at his convenience. Tickets if it expires will be in his name as well. It will be over in no time, though. Not something to stress too much about. So, the way I read it, you have all three dogs at your apartment, or just the chihuahua? Did you get your dog after you rented the place, even though you knew the rules? Usually, when a landlord finds that you are breaking the rules of the lease they give you time to either get rid of the pet or get a new place. If "no pets" was the rule when you moved in, you must accept the consequences of your action. Your stress will be less if you make a point to think about good things, and take care of your body the right way. Eat a little bit of easy to digest food, some chicken or something. Take a deep breath. Drink some fruit juice or eat a banana or two for the muscle spasms. Think about relaxing each muscle. Take a walk. I am sorry you are so upset, but there are some things you can do to make it better. Number one is to choose to relax and not hurt yourself.

Hi, payout. I want to tell you that God knows all of your troubles and tension. Let me give you some insight into my life. I am a stay at home mother. My husband pays all of the bills in this house. Sometimes, my husband is unable to work because his shoulder gives him great pain. He can hardly move around normally. A day before my Birthday, I had to call the ambulance to come and pick him up because he was in so much of pain. He could not even move. He was laying stoned cold to the bed. He was crying. I was so scared! Our kids were too. I have an Herniated Disc in my back and sometimes I can hardly get out of the bed. Me and my husband both have applied for SSI throughout the years, but we have always been denied. My husband had Scoliosis when he was a teenager. He had surgery performed on his back and leg. Life has been really tough for us. My husband and I need a car to get around in. For the past year, we have been catching rides from here to there. Mostly his dad would pick us up, or my husband would drive his father's car to take me and our kids where we would have to go. I don't have my driver's license yet, and I really want it so badly. I can drive. I just need to practice and brush up for at least a month so that I can receive my license. I don't have anyone that is nice enough to just let me use their car so that I can try for my driver's license in. So, from all of this, you are not the only person that is experiencing stress and turmoil. I have so much of weight on my shoulders, and not to mention me being a full-time mother to three children. Two of them are in school full-time as well. So, you already know what comes along with this... Not to mention the fact that I have to keep my home clean and in immaculate condition. This can be so much when everything is combined together. I am only 33 years old, and I work hard everyday of my blessed life that I am living! Payout, God will not put anymore on you that you can bare. I have felt like you have felt many of times before. But, I had a woman just smile and tell me that God loves me. He is going to bless me so that I won't have to struggle. I thought that God did not love me and that was his reason for placing so much of stress on me. But this was not the case, here. Please pray and never faint. God will make this rocky mountain smooth for you. It is only a test! A test that you can win because you are victorious in Christ Jesus. We all are. You are looking at a woman that has endured pain, disappointment and many tremendous heart breaks. I am still here, and you will be too. Look to God for your strength, he will make it better for you, if only you just believe in him and trust him. Don't let Satan steal your joy, you can win this battle. You are a conqueror! I pray for your well being right now with tears I my eyes as I write this message to you. You are blessed beyond reason, just know this. Please God, ease payout's pain, in the name of Jesus! Amen!!!

Dear Payout! I have read the full discussion/responses and comments and find that many have given you some wonderful advice. I am sorry you are feeling this way and know that life is just not easy my dear friend. There are a lot of things we all get depressed and sorrow over but what we need to remember is that life is so worth living for. Do take care of you and take one day at a time, though I am guilty too at times of feeling as you, we must remember that life is quite short. Think of all those who do love and care for you, not being around means they will be hurt. I hope you are resting today and not overdoing yourself and just pray dear payout for a better day tomorrow. Remember tomorrow is not promised and we must be thankful for today.

Take a deep breath payout! Now it's time you think about yourself first. If other knock on your door you tell them you have no time and you are in big trouble yourself and you expect them to help you out now. If nobody knocks on your door you tell them you need their help. Don't just say you need help but tell them what kind of help you need. So sit down, make a specific list about the kind of help you need and at what term. If your dad has a house he can have the dogs now for some time. Tell him to fix your car in ... days or let it fix. Is it possible to get it on your name? See if you can borrow someones car for some time and give yourself the time to find an other job or other place to stay. Nothing has to be forever. This is the first day of a new start. Ask yourself what you like for yourself in future and who is able to help you to reach that.

life is meant to live read the life story of Abraham Lincoln one of President of US he kept failing for his entire life more badly than all of us here on Mylot in my view and at age of 54 approx he got elected as US president so we must not give up at any cost .......... Hare Krishna Ganesh

i had been to a big problem last year. and i guess you still remember my son who had sleep apnea and was in deep financial trouble when we needed big money for his operation. gladly, there are so many people who prayed with us and had the operation for free. just like they said, there is always an end with a dark tunnel. and soon i pray, you will get to the end of your tunnel.

My, I remember being in such a situation but I forced myself to look at the positive side of things, that everything is temporary, that what is doesn't need to be true at all time, that we need to do something to pull us out of that bad situation. Doing sacrifices like waking up early for a noble purpose can be gleaned as a step towards solving your dilemma. Even if you have to wake up early, never mind, taking three different buses will be okay, you can ask for directions. Anyway, everything will be temporary, I am sure of that. Just make a little sacrifice now.

I hope things get better for you. I know you have a lot on your plate. I've experienced the same issues. I've helped people in the past and now I would like them to do something that would get them out of debt and then they would not need to borrow from me anymore. However they refuse. I told them I wouldn't be lending money out anymore and now they are all mad. It's not a whole lot of fun having everyone mad at you. Best Wishes!

Only the good people will suffer like you. The arrogant people are always happy. Every thing depends upon our mind. Auto suggession - [positive thinging ] will alone help you in this regard. Heros are entering the arena[ the battle field] knowing pretty well that they will die instently, yet they face it breavly and they are not losing their heart. You are not able to face the people arround you. Be hnest and sincere and hard working and you should never listen to what others say about you. Human beings are idiots and they will try to slander and they will try to tarnish your image. Never mind about these idiots. It is your life and you have got every right to live on this earth. As long as you are well with in the law of your land you must be couragious and face thesr idiots breavly. Don't expect any gratitude from any people and if you expect you will be disappointed. You must be good to God alone and not to the people [that is the idiots] Be brave my friend payout.

Relax and take a deep breath. Everything will be okey.

are you crazy, don't think in that way the life is so beautiful and just god is the only one who's can't take out you from this planet, go to the church, get new friends and be happy

are you crazy or what,don't think n tha way.

Hello! A common saying is knew in China is that good dieth is not better than bad living.I sympathize with encounter that you suffered .Everyday many people have unhappy things happened,but we are not to live for ourselves,and we must be responsible for people who concerned about us.We should be strong ,ang live excellently.