How do I tell the man that I love that I can no longer be with him?

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I love him very much and he loves me too. There are alot of things that I cant seem to forgive him for and its eating away at me. Im 42 weeks pregnant and my doctors are going to enduce me today. I will be seeing my boyfriend for the first time in over 3 months and then after the baby is born I will not see him again until the end of April. I have had a very stressful pregnancy and I've been completely alone since June 13th when he checked into rehab. If that wasnt a big enough shock for me, the program he picked does not let us contact eachother because we are not married. I talked to the program about a month ago and they agreed that he could be there for the birth so I would not have to go threw labor by myself. I am thankful and very greatful that they are going to let him be there, I miss him so much. I was told that I have prenatal depression. My doctor has had me seeing a...well shrink I guess you would call her. She thinks that this would be a good time to tell my boyfriend how Ive been feeling over the last few months. She also does not think it is a good idea for me to continue this relationship until he is no longer in the program. Im really starting to think shes right since its been over 2 months since Ive been able to sleep threw the night. She says I need to consentrate on the baby and not be worrying about him so much. I do love him very much but I really think she may be right. How am I supposed to care for my child when Im worried about a grow man. After-all he is the one who chose to do this. Hes the one who lied to me for so long. I think I need to take the next 7 months to work on myself and being a great mother. I just can see me doing that while worrying everyday about him. In April I figured we could meet back up together and see how we are. If hes the man he promised he will be then I will be more than willing to try our relationship again but until then I need to say good-bye. I just dont know how to do that. Today is supposed to be a happy day and Im getting more and more axiety and I wont have another chance to talk to him. What would you do if you were in this situation?