i was suddenly afraid . . . .
@SIMPLYD (90722)
Philippines
September 28, 2011 8:20pm CST
Last Sunday, I was in the hospital to visit my mother, who was confined for her very high BP. Father was also there since she was admitted Saturday night. I saw the concern on my father’s face towards my mother. I was their errand girl for the whole day.
For the first time, I felt afraid thinking that she can die if ever worse comes to worst. I also felt the anxiety of my father.
I know, we have to accept that our parents will someday die, but still, just thinking of it makes me feel so afraid and sad.
Thank God, my mother is okay now and is already home. But still , can’t help thinking of that day when they will finally leave us. I hope I will be emotionally strong when that time comes.
Are you?
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9 responses
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
i could not find words to comfort you because i know how it feels, though mine was a different case my mom tried taking her own life. anyways, it is a feeling a still cannot forget till now.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
yes she didn't thank God..me and my aunt had to do a lot talking with her and explaining. It was tough but we got through it.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Actually, it was a mixture of feelings. Afraid because it was the first time that my mother was hospitalized for a sickness and happy because i was able to show how much i care for them.
I am sorry to hear that about your mom too. But it didn't pursue , right?
@shanemae (1025)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
that would too bother me if i were in your position.
sorry to know that. but it's good that she has recovered fast.
we Filipinos are used to that, our parents are with us all the time.
the thought that might leave us one day would be painful for us.
sometimes we may compare that feeling to "the end of our world"
but we can't escape that fact because we all would go through that.
well, as for now.. we should take care of them.
let them feel how they mean to us and share with them good memories they could cherish even to the last breath.
oh.. this discussion makes me sad.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
True. We have to make them feel how much we love them. Merely being obedient to what they tell us and some small help in chores will let them feel how much we care for them.
It's never too late for us to do that.
@gloryacam (5540)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
Oh my. I hope your mom will be alright soon. I know how you feel. Last year, my dad became very sick, and it was really very emotional for us. For me, especially, because at first, the doctor suspected cancer. And then, it hit me that I might lose him anytime. And I felt the world spinning. I was crying when I talked to mom that he needs further tests because the doctor does not feel good about it. Thankfully, it was not as suspected. There was a very big gallstone that had to be removed, and timely so, because a day longer would have led to the gallbladder bursting. He is now okay and he's taking doctors' orders well. When he was stronger, he would just not stop working even when he wasn't feeling okay. Now he does. I guess he realizes, too, that it's time he relaxed a bit. I cannot really imagine when that day will come, when I finally say goodbye to them, and to other people that I love. Thinking about it just makes me cry. I made a discussion here before saying that I wish I could start mourning now so that by that time, I'd be exhausted there'll be no more tears to shed. But, I realize that that cannot happen. No matter what, I know that when that day comes, my world will stand still and it will hurt like nothing else would. The only thing I can hope for is that I be given a longer time with them, and that I would be able to make good of that time with them. So, as our mylotter friends had told me, let us enjoy our life, spend time - quality time, with the ones we love. We never know just until when we can do that.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
That's very true. Seeing my parents now old and weak, makes me so sad. If i can only spend most of my time with them i will do. But , because i have to work so i can help husband in our family expenses, i can only do so on some weekends.
What is is comforting though, is that 2 of my sisters , one widowed and one separated from her husband are living with them together with their now working kids. AT least, they are there to take care of their every need.
@atprudente6 (673)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
I know the feeling of loosing someone. I myself have already lose both my parents. Thank goodness that nothing happened to your mother. Hope for her to get well soon.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Yes, she's very well again. Thank God for that.
I am sorry to hear that you already lost both of your parents. Sometimes, we really have to be ready for it. But no matter what, when the time comes for them to go, we will still feel so sad.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Yes, it was scary indeed because it's the first time to happen that she be hospitalized. I keep praying and hoping that it won't happen to her again.
I keep reminding her and my father to stick to a healthy diet and mild exercise.
@ennjo1990 (26)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
Honestly, I am not also emotionally strong but what I can do to my parents is to be a good girl for them. Being respectful and obedient will definitely make them happy.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
I guess no one is emotionally strong yet, when it comes to our parents finally leaving us. Even those with lingering illness, when they finally leave , the children are still left devastated.
So, that's good that as early as now, you make them happy by being obedient and respectful. They are proud of you, i bet.
@arnoldream (1332)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
i would like to express my sympathy and i know what you have felt ..i've been through this situation and we lost my father,,so do give them more of your time , love and affection while they still live..time will surely come when they will say goodbye ..by then be strong my friend and remember were always by your sides
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Actually my friend , she's very much okay now.
I have really reminded them to be strict on those prohibited foods and that they exercise and be mobile always.
I felt happy that last Sunday, i was able to show my love and care for my parents by being their errand girl for that day at the hospital.
@kingparker (9673)
• United States
29 Sep 11
Not sure what to say, but sorry to hear that your mother was in hospital, we all hope that she will be okay, and get well soon! Oh well, someday I have to face the truth, and our parents will leave us. We have to learn to be independent and stronger. That is how we gonna survive.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Like i said, she's okay now and i thank God for it.
That's true, as early as now we should accept the fact that someday they will gonna leave us. It's sad to think but we really should be strong about it.
@fabsprecious (1565)
• United States
29 Sep 11
I know it is frightening to even think about our parents no longer being with us. I saw my mom go through this when my grandmother passed away. She felt hopeless because it seemed everyday her health deteriorated more and more. I remember her telling that she felt hopeless just seeing her mom drift further and further away and there was nothing she could do to help or save her. That day she passed was the hardest day of my life, besides my mom she was the one who practically raised me and took care of me everyday of her life.
It is a difficult thought, I think about sometimes and go into tears, just thinking of the day, I won't be able to come home and tell her everything that happened to me. But luckily I know that won't come for a long time, I know I will have the opportunity to enjoy her for as well as my children for many more years to come.
Emotionally I am not a strong person, I hope I am strong, but I know deep down inside it will probably break me into pieces.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
I think the most difficult feeling to combat is seeing your love one slowly drifting away or dying. Specially if you see them so much in pain, you feel like swapping your place with them, so they will be free of the pain.