Labeled by your own kin
@grazmaniandevil (379)
September 30, 2011 10:16am CST
My Mother just labeled me "depressed". Guess the number of hours I sleep was her basis as my due escape towards reality. But really mom? DEPRESSED? ME?
I admit bagging the RN license was no big but the real feat was landing on a job as a Nurse. It's been my 10-month long battle in search for employment but I have constantly failed myself. I never gave up and still looking. Yes, I might be more edgy and impatient now a days but please I just hope you didn't have to judge me that easily as if you know what's going through my head and speak to me like you sound so self-righteous for being the one person who knows everything about me. But you don't know me ma.
Once I get a kick head start on my life and learn to stand up on myself. I can't wait to live this hell you call home. Since the day you judged me, I felt betrayed and disappointed because all along you never did know your own daughter.
2 responses
@frontvisions101 (16043)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Maybe your mother thought you wouldn't take it seriously that's why she said it. You can always talk to her about it so that you can clear things up.
@grazmaniandevil (379)
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1 Oct 11
I think she knows I'm the serious-type. She raised me a life with no mediocrity so she should know better than that. We did talk and I always air my feelings but in the end, she takes it the wrong way. Thank You for your comment
@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
30 Sep 11
You are depressed?
Well let me tell you that a depressed person stays in bed, no eating no drinking, not going out, not talking to anyone, just crying and if you are lucky the person falls a sleep.
Not getting a job is no fun but it doesn't mean you are depressed.
Also.. a depressed person is not impatient at all. These kinds of feelings are not there anymore. Also.. a depressed person will seldom find the courage to drag him/herself out of bad.
I don't know what your mom calls depressed but I do know that many people say way too easy they are depressed.
I don't know why you feel betrayed or disappointed. It's not important what your mom thinks or says about you. Seems to me you are an adult so behave like that.
Be positive, go out, meet people, tell around you are looking for a job (to friends, family, relatives, strangers). It's up to you what you make out of your life, no matter if you have a job or not, will be a nurse or not or have a mother who calls you depressed and disappoints you (at least you two have that in commons since she seems to be disappointed in you too).
It's your own decision if you want to be happy or unhappy.
@grazmaniandevil (379)
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30 Sep 11
Awwwww! :)) It's like you just said the Exact COMFORTING words I need. To that, I mark you best response.. Thank you so much! You don't know how your words left a huge raise on my self-esteem..
If you are curious, why I suddenly feel so sensitive when my mother judged me is because she doesn't know that I am drawing all of my efforts for her. This is the only way I can show to her I love her no matter what. and it just drains my energy when she says stuff that hurt me. Normally, I'm an insensitive person unless that person is special to me.
Once again, Thnk you so much for your uplifting message! Godbless you and More power to myLot! :)
