I sometimes feel I am not happy with my life anymore...
By chiyochan
@chiyosan (30183)
Philippines
October 18, 2011 1:38am CST
I really do!
I feel I am not happy with my life anymore - I feel no matter what I do, I will no longer be happy. Maybe because I felt betrayed, I felt not important, I was fooled... or something like that. I feel I am about to lose hope that my life will be better and I am not so sure what I should do so that I would feel happy and ready to fight for life again.
I kind of lost the will to live... Im just coming to work for the sake of it... Im meeting with friends to be "normal"... but really I do not find purpose in going any further... =(
12 responses
@zebem17 (4)
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18 Oct 11
Chiyosan,I know you could be in a bad situation but in life you bound to face things that could make you happy and those that could make you sad but try and be positive about life because and have a believe that you can make it again in as much as you are still leaving there is hope. This just like someone who broke his leg and cannot walk and he is in pain, the period of his pain could be compared to the situation you are in now but after a while the pain will surely go and the person can be able to walk a gain. All this is done through perseverance and dedication. So please forget the past and fight for the future and it will be well with you. Thank you.
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@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
oh, thank you zebem. i am really close to tears reading about your response. Thank you so much... i am really trying but sometimes i feel i am just living an empty life.
waking up each day with hope only to realize that at the back of that hope lies the troubles that would bother me and would try to break my spirit.
I have really fought hard for this, if you only knew how much i have been through and i am slowly burned down... like a candle losing wax =(
But i will try, i will be better, I willcrave for God's guidance... I needed to cling to something, someone right now and there is no hope in finding comfort in friends as they are not around all thetime... maybe that is why i feel so lonely. I haven't got someone who is there all the time...
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
Don't let that incident put you down my friend. Instead, pull yourself up and show to the betrayer that you still can live without that person. Love yourself and never let anyone put you down.
Let that betrayal be your motivation to live and succeed! Pray for guidance and strength, my friend. In no time, you will be so well again.
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
thank you simplyD.
I am trying my best, Everyday I try to unload the negative things i feel, everyday i get up and not think about it anymore.. sometimes though in between my day i would remember and i would feel alone, lonely, sad, and i would feel heavy burdened.
thank you for the hug. i do needed that...
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
Thank you.. I am trying. I am always trying to do something so i won't have some space or time to think unhappy thoughts. I am trying to tell the things to my friends, but they know me and thought that i am really strong... and that i would overcome this. I am still not, i am still trying to overcome but i am just slowly being eaten up inside. I don't want them to think i just want attention or something like pity... i don't want that.. i want this out of my system... =(
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
When the feeling of sadness creeps up on you, fight it, chiyosan. Be with happy company. And besides have someone to share the story with. That way, you get to let it out of your chest and feel light afterward.
@obe212003 (2299)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
signs of depression, and i think you need to reinvigorate and start initiating your interest in life again. DITTO, same here, but i got over it as i have realized life is such a precious gift and we really need to 'appreciate' the essence of life itself, although sometimes the feeling of emptiness or hopelessness or the feeling being alone tend to creative negative thoughts and we end up being depressed and troubled. there is SOMEONE up there who can provide you with wisdom and understanding and i hope you would see the beauty of life with HIM..
@ardoy0731 (7308)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
You have to move on in anything happen in your past.Acceptance is needed i think.Take a break and relax.Empty you mind and take away all the hatred and pain in your heart,so you can enjoy.We all suffered from pain,aches and failures.What important is that we don't give up, we know how to accept it,move on and go on in life.Pray to God and He will lead you to the right way.
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
thank you ardoy, appreciate your help, response to the discussion.
Maybe the truth is that i am not able to accept the things that has happened. I feel that it is haunting me, i feel i should watch my back, i feel i am not happy because i do not feel that there is someting being done about it...
why does the "bad" feeling not going away. I am feeling very insecure, to be honest. =(
I will hold on, i am trying to, really i wish i can just forget and forget it quick... but im not so sure why it is so hard to just not think about the situation.
@ardoy0731 (7308)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
Try to learn accepting what happened no matter how painful it is.Maybe you can start on that.Let go all the pain and hold on to the good one and to all the people who loves you.God bless you always.
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
15 Jan 13
yes, i did try to understand it back then... i sure was hoping what else should i consider .. perhaps its all for the best really. =) thanks for taking time to respond in the discussion, that is appreciated. Best Regards! See you Around! Happy mylotting.
@dpk262006 (58678)
• Delhi, India
18 Oct 11
Hi chi!
May be you are thinking rightly.
If you talk to people around you, you would found that no one is happy with his/her own life. You will find people complaining about one thing or the other.
You need to find the happiness within yourself, no outside thing or person could bring happiness in you life till you want to be happy.
Life is full of joys and sorrows and I think if you count your blessings in life, it will help you to regain your lost confidence and attitude towards life.
All the best.
@junmae (1586)
• Philippines
27 Oct 11
I was also betrayed and fooled by a friend which I trusted and protected with. This situation outs me in the darkest time of my life. I am still struggling to end this up but nobody wants to help me as this situation is really confidential and no one wants to involve in this mess. I beg my friend to show up and clean all the mess she created. Every night I'm thinking to end my life as I can not take to live with it anymore. I'm always depress and alone. It came to the point that I think I ca no longer be happy again. My will now is a total mess and I don't want to live anymore. But I have a child, she's the only reason why I still stand and fight.
@hestylim (1210)
• Indonesia
19 Oct 11
Whatever you are thinking about you are not happy about your life, I suggest you to stop it immediately. I am not here to tell you what to do but to share with you, who knows this will help open your mind and you start happy about your life again. :)
Life is always full of problems and there is nothing you can do about it. If you are said, you are fooled, betrayed or some kind of those stuffs come against you, what you have to do is being sad for a moment, then move on. Moving on is not easy. But, however, it is something that you must do.
One important thing that you must always put in mind, "above the clouds, there are always other clouds; under the earth, there are always other layers of earth"
Which means, if you are happy and on top now, however there is always someone higher and happier than you are; if you are sad and feel miserable, there is always someone who experiences worse thing than you are experiencing.
The most important point is, just be happy that you are still living, that's all. Just be grateful. Try to see things from other perspectives. Be happy!
@couchPotato100 (94)
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19 Oct 11
Chiyosan, Like alot of people out there, sometime you'll go through a rough patch in your life and that'll make you feel helpless, vulnerable and alone. It probably will make you feel like surrendering, and just give up everything.
But when you're feeling like this you should be strong, think of all the good things, and all the people who need you. When you overcome an obstacle it will only make you stronger as a person. If you need to talk to a friend or write down all your problems on a piece of paper.
@sexyice (873)
• Latvia
18 Oct 11
You do not have depression?
You in all see bad. You need come to and then we can go to party. I show you beautiful places and sweet items. I think you need just relax. Come to me!!
It is so sad, that you every day be sad. I like happy people.
You maybe need something change in your life - job, home, city (just for time), maybe it help feel you better, but maybe youhave autumn depression, and you just miss for summer
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
18 Oct 11
Hi there! thank you for the invitation. I can feel your energy and joy from here! :D and well I feel so much better reading about the responses here.. makes me feel a bit better and that i should really know how to fight this feeling.
I need to know just how to do it, i want to and i do not want to have that bad feeling creeping to me. its not at all what i should be thinking all the time.. but it happens and sometimes i cannot help it.