I need to change my feelings - feeling discouraged and resentful

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I know what I am feeling can be considered somewhat normal but I wish that I didn't feel this way. Here is the situation - I just found out that people are putting on a benefit in town for our neighbor who has been sick in the hospital and has had surgery. I will go to the benefit because I really do feel for him and his wife but I am feeling resentful that someone is putting on a benefit for him and not for my family. My son (age 22) has had a disease for the past 7 years which resulted in 2 surgeries this past year and my daughter (age 17) has had TWO diseases for the past 4 years. One of her diseases costs us about $20,000 a year for treatment the other costs us more in groceries for special food purchases. Then in December I fell down and broke both of my wrists, my thumb, & my elbow and will now be having surgery in November on the elbow because it did not heal correctly. So I just can't help wonder why no one feels that we need a benefit put on for us to help us with medical costs. Oh & my neighbor had surgery similar to my son so it isn't like he has something more serious than my son. My son is still healing from his last surgery and can't work full time either so a benefit would be really helpful to us. I know that I should be feeling more giving and not resentful but it is difficult when we have had such a bad year. But as I said I will go to the benefit and give with a glad heart as that is a good thing to do. Do any of you have any resentful feelings?