My Life, My Journey

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As a spiritual person, I believe we choose the life we want to live before we are born. This is knowledge I have learned also through my spirituality. Why I believe this is true; is by facts and experience. For this discussion, I am only too eager to write my life journey. However, this is only the basics of how my life evolved and changed for the better. It began one evening in 2006. A friend of mine had visited my home, she had been having a few drinks with her partner and decided to come to see me. We were outside having a cigarette and we began talking about relationships. I told her I was unhappy in my relationship for quite some time. The relationship I was in was based on selfishness on both sides which we didn't care to acknowledge. We were both stubborn in our ways and we refused to talk things over because of fear. With that on our agenda, there were times when I felt unloved and unappreciated, I felt happy but helpless. I began looking at other guys and there was one in particular who caught my eye. Although, it was just an attraction, I told my friend about this. She knew everything about our relationship and she was very intuitive. She already knew in her mind where this relationship was headed. She decided it was time I removed myself from the relationship and her first step was to text this person and let him know what was going on and if he was attracted to me. It didn't take long, the moment she texted, he was very keen and she could not only see this in his texts, she also sensed it. I was shocked, I never expected someone as good as he was would ever be interested. So I ended my night smiling. It was like an angel had washed over me, and a miracle had happened. Which, now, I could say it really did. From that moment on my life had changed. I became a new person. But it wasn't easy, it was very hard! But I endured and overcame many obstacles I had kept well hidden within me. I had lost my father earlier and for most girls, father's are always very protective with their girls. Which is how my father was toward me. He wouldn't let anyone hurt me, let alone run me down. So I felt very protected. However, when my father passed away, things also began to change. I was alone. I had only realized this through my current partner and the one whom I was attracted to. You see, my partner had found out about this other person and was immediately disappointed. In fact he became angry, unfair, jealous, possesive, and much more. But I'd already knew this about him for a longtime it was only then the real side of him came out. He began telling his friends and family about it, and encouraged them to turn on me. It worked too and without my father's protection I had to fight this alone. It was my father's passin, that memories of him began to subside with me genetically. The truth became known only by strength of will. I had strength, and I allowed this to rain over me. I kept this in my heart and I knew if I could get through this, I would get through anything. Which is what happened. Through all the terrible incidents, and nasty comments, and all the negatives that had been thrown at me had all paid off. My strength was the power that had gained me the life I have today. One example is that of my confidence and abilities I now have. I was a very shy, quiet,and loving person. I only gave, gave, gave, and never expected anything in return. I was hardly ever angry, nor did I get upset quite so easily. Many times, this gave people the chance to walk all over me and I wouldn't argue or say anything to stop this. Many thought this was unusual, they began to judge me, mock me, and it would give them self-satisfaction. I knew this by my intuitive ability, but I ignored it, moved on with my life. However, as I became aware of my surroundings and all the negatives I had endured, my confidence became stronger. I had stopped being so shy and quiet, I began to stand my ground. Many were shocked and couldn't believe this new person I'd become. I'd changed in so many ways I saw the light shine brighter everyday. And if my friend hadn't sent that message to this person I may have still remained where I was before. He was the one who had opened my heart, mind, my soul. He was someone to look forward too and because of this recognition I became a 'whole' person. You may read this up in the soulmate section of interests. In which I will be writing very soon. What do you make of this discussion? Does it sound corny? Do you hav questions? Whatever your response you are free to comment.