how would you deal with your "bad things" or make through a hard time?

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a high school friend just called, which brought me to the memory of my high school time. the three high school years are my lowest and worst in my life. i want to bring it up ,coz i want to sum up my all failures and how to deal with it when it comes again. in middle school ,i'm an positive and excellent girl. always get high score in tests ,good relationship with teachers and other classmates,and many boys often go for me coz i'm pretty enough that time,all things are in a good order,even though my father feel very proud when he introduced me to his firend,me and my parents are really in harmony.but when it comes to high school,things are different. first of all is my study problem.i can't catch up with the top 20 students.i really want to finish my everyday homework but seems i can't unless i stay up late.if i stay up that will have a bad effction on tomorrow's work.study to me seems harder than before,and with my waistline expanding i 'm no longer charming anymore which frustrated me too.then the next year i came to a new class but not good as the former ,i thought it was a new begining, but i couldn't have been more wrong.maybe it's the atmosphere or the inter-influence that makes the whole class worse and worse every day.seldom were willing to study in the class the teacers were feeling no confidence in us and seems didn't like to teach us .some classes, the teacher won't say one word unless we had questions to ask.i still had my own study plan i still want to succeed in "College Entrance Examination",but still i still can't finish my own plan.i know i had fall a lot behind from the good students,and everytime a started to do my work, i feel pain and can't concentrate on my study.then started thinking the bad things,,till the time to sleep.then i mad at myself.everytime i told myself it will be ok tomorrow ,i never mean it. everything had never turn it around.bad things stayed with you,they follow you.every morning i woke up i wanted to be someone new,someone alive,but it never happen.as the time spinning i had always been fall behind, sometimes i went home late coz i cried outside and my parents punished me for not hard working.i even had arguments with them for three times, i hurt inside and i felt disappointed by myself for not as excellent as i was that they had ever felt proud of.seems i was trapped by all things and never found a breakthrough, this ended when i entered college. though i haven't got good grades in"College Entrance Examination",i'm in an average college hingnow.but i feel much better now.and i love my major (E.E.).though i haven't seen much clear in my future jobs but at least i enjoy my now life,i 'm in good state and woking on for my study... talks a bit much,hun? what will you do if you meet the thing?