Being the step-daughter in the family

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Sure we had very tough times even horrible your could say. Others being jelious for no good reason's because I did come from another family. Either I was always being favored too much or too little at different times that seemed a bit too convenient for my half little brother and sister who both knew full well they held our Dad's favor no matter what. Any opportunity to show me this too was taken well enough at times throughout the years. My Dad bought my sister a big porslin doll collection one for every Birthday of her growing up years so there are allot. Not sure if he bought me much of anything at all to collect every year of my growing up at all. This was also an old family tradition on his side so he must have figured I would want nothing to do with it either. I still feel this is his nasty little way of getting even with me for not taking his sir name and staying with what I knew best. That and a few other things my Brother and Sister caught on as they got older, but my Sister was too used to this to say or do anything besides she liked it too in an equally nasty way as Dad's was. My Brother found it his place to stand up for me his Sister who he loves many times with them too. It seemed that Dad's old problems with me would just never go away. He has gotten much better with time seeing this is how things will be and just excepting me now a bit more too. My Sister now has stuck too her nasty ways though and she learned form him and won;t grow like he has and let it go and move forward now. Our Brother remains the only more logical one in these matters so if he and his awesome wife are around we usually do alright too. Mom has had to bow down to my Sister being the favorite even more then me on many of times now too, I think my Sister now sees this at least and feels sorry about it too a great deal she is coming around now too to be much more compassionate and caring as well. I hope for one day we will care for each other in these ways again too more I do miss it allot. She seems more close to others than to me most of the time though, I just don't know why either really. My Sister was shown how to look for money for cars and other things in life she needed like computers and such from other close family members who never once offered any of these things to me at all. Like I said very hard being from the other family, somehow they always thought this other family of mine had some secret hidden money to offer me things that I would be needing in life so they never should worry about me at all. Well, they didn't and wouldn't dot this since they figured the same thing too. That my family was caring well enough for me in all of these ways already but little did they know. I had lack of education no support for college or much of anything else at all, food,clothes,and a roof over my head and I was very lucky to have gotten these at times too. They could tell i wanted much more and this bothered them somehow. Like they were not enough or were not good enough for me somehow. This wasn't it at all though I just felt mad and trapped seeing others do better and well and I was always stuck behind from those of my own age and peer group always. Finally at my mid thirties they realized what it was that had been bothering me so much it did seem to little too late but that was alright with me as long as it had come. In some relationships true patients is the key. Thanks,A.B.