It's been a year and I am still crying
By mrswahl
@mrswahl (10)
United States
November 30, 2011 5:00pm CST
I have endometriosis and was told that I have most likely had this for 23 years. I found in 2001 that I had it for sure and then was told 2 years later that my chances to have kids were slim to none..that was hard. Well on Nov. 5th 2010 I had to have a total hysterectomy and never had kids (even harder). It has been a year and I still sob uncontrollably sometimes, hate seeing pregnant women( but never told them that of course )I just feel sad and empty. I feel such a great loss. Has anyone ever gone through this? And if so does the emptiness, the tears, and the heartache ever go away?
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4 responses
@Mashnn (4501)
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1 Dec 11
I understand your feelings. Having told that you will never have children is the worst thing that can happen to a woman but at the same time, they are many women outside there despite having not done any surgery cannot have children on their own. Try not to feel guilty of what happened to you, we don't choose diseases but diseases choose who they want. It is better that you are healthy because in future you can still adopt a child and be there to look after him or her.
@mrswahl (10)
• United States
1 Dec 11
Thank you so much for your comment...I knew I couldn't have children before the hysterectomy but having the surgery just made it official, which kills my heart...We are beginning the adoption process and it is a long one...but will be worth everything. Take care and thanks again :)
@leon923940426 (480)
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1 Dec 11
I think you are under pressure too much and try to release youself .
And the first thing I thought is to find a doctor and let them tell you waht you really should do .
Do not be afraid and you will get waht you want .
@red_amethyst (3518)
• Philippines
2 Dec 11
Hello mrswahl,
I am sorry to hear about your situation. I know it would be hard for a woman not to conceive her very own child. I know you can move on and be stronger. yes we can always be sad and depressed about what happened but you can just learn from it. Maybe, you can look on the brighter side, you can have an adoption and you have help a kid and might even save him/her from being brought to a home who will not love him/her. I do hope you will be able to adopt a kid so you can find someone to put in your love and care. I hope you will feel better in the future.
@squallming (1775)
• Malaysia
2 Dec 11
First of all, I'm not a woman and I wouldn't have it. But, I believe anything, no matter how bad it is, you will one day get over with it. You need some time and your husband's love. Surely, you will get better. I'm sure your husband wouldn't want you to be this upset.
