MAJOR DEPRESSIOn with SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

Knowing that's it's been 4 years now that you're struggling such dilemna of your life is a good thing that you still mentally capable reason things out. But I suggest too that you should go for a proper treatment only given by professionals. Depression is not a hopeless case. It needs a lot of time and patience to transform the mental state of a despondent person. But as your case, I see that you're still on your optimist mind that you permit your good thinking over your depression. That's good for you! Continue to be with friends that may influence you to do good,.. and feel good. I wish you to overcome your suffering soon! Have a nice MyLotting day Conrad!