D E S I R E S - make a person confused..

At present the only desire have is to make enough money in order to survive and a little more.My finances are in terrible shape and i am living on the money sent to me by my brother and a couple of friends.Since i haven`t had any income since the last 13 years having retired quite early i now feel the pinch with the cost of living going through the roof.My sever handicap prevents me from taking up a job and also from being on the computer for a long time.My desire is to become self sufficient and not depend on anybody.I wonder when it will be fulfilled.