Sometimes I scare myself...

I am glad someone like you responded to this discussion. I am more well versed in written communication than the oral. I know I am still young and is very prone to impulsiveness. I have my Christian faith to help me a bit. But they only hold me only to certain extent... I am also at awe at my own mind. At the same time it scares me too. Am I limiting myself by feeling scared of my own ability to think and comprehend?

I am also more well versed in written communication than oral. I know what you are saying...a highly powerful mind can be frightening; awesome. Such minds are as I see them touched with genius. It seems from what you've written that you have such a mind; it can be a wonderful gift. But it can also bring pain I feel: if you see too much, too deeply. I feel you are limiting yourself if you allow your awe to overwhelm you. I would say...try and realise more what a phenomenal gift you have. Try to use it to the very best of your ability; to work for you; and not against you. I would also ask God to help you to use your great ability to think and comprehend in His name. Your youth is on your side in this respect; there is still much time to do this. I would say...pray to God for help with your impulsiveness; and your very understandable awe, with regard to your mind; and for guidance for the future, as to how to harness the great power of your mind. I only speak as one who so much identifies with what you are saying; so I feel qualified to do so.

My many thanks! I'll try my best to understand myself further, understand how I think and know the reason why I am fearing certain things and pray that I may be given the wisdom to know what should be said and what should be left unsaid. I know it will be difficult, but all is lost when one gives up, right? So I'll do my best once again to do better than before in terms of giving advice, understanding people and to help them in their situation in the best possible way than I usually take. I really appreciate your advice. Have a nice day and Happy MyLotting!

hi wakeupkitty oh my wish I took years and years to get really angry I admire you,. me I blow up easily but am over it quickly to , I do not hold grudges, my mom was unique as she gave me and my sister the face oh my G we would rather be sp anked then see her face,it was angry and hurt and how could you do that to me,and it did work really. I mean she did not have to spank the face scared us silly, we loved her to pieces and we dreaded the face.I used that on my two and boy does it work maybe not on all kids but it did on mine too.I think I inherited my quick temper from my dad but then he was mean ornery son of a b,i.t.ch. I am not one though I do not anger so easily in my old age but when I do watch out.

Do you have asthma of the skin or allergies, wakeupkitty? I can understand that kind of situation as I do have it to. And I admire your endurance in getting angry. I wish I can have that too. It's a bit difficult to control one's emotions especially the strong ones for me because I don't want to just lock them inside me. I guess you could say I want to pass the good and bed emotions to others instead of being just stuck inside of me...

Thank you for sharing your own experience of communicating with people! I wish to share to you a problem, not only I but others face, in terms of an elderly person that I know of. I may need your advice on how to handle her... She lives just a few houses away from us. She's already at an age where she is fragile due to old age and frequent sickness. She lives with her husband and youngest son. But both men cannot be always be with her as the son is working and the husband needs to go back to his farm time and again. They have a young helper and I just found out that the helper is experiencing depression due to how the elder woman is treating her. The neighbors closest to the house would often complain that the words used by the elder woman in talking to the helper can't even be swallowed, much less eaten, by the dogs. It means that her words are too hurtful for one person to bear. And it also seems that the son and the husband are starting to sound hurtful in talking to the young helper too. The helper has her own faults, she admits. But being told off by three people may cause her to feel bitter later in her life. In a way, I pity her. I could not comprehend how she must be feeling right now. And if I think about this kind of situation deeply, the one that need to be talked to first is the elder woman. I wish I can help their situation. But the way to say it...I don't know how to tell them. I fear that my words may be too hurtful for her to take. I mean, the truth for her may cause more hurt than cure. The elder woman takes pride in her being an avid believer of God and very righteous that sadly, she turns hypocritical instead. What can I do to help them?

I envy your courage in terms of speaking your mind to everyone. I wish I can go back to how I was like that before I was made aware of the consequences of my own words. Because then, I can say everything in all honesty. Each of us are responsible for everything we do. The same goes for every word that comes out of our mouths or for every word that we write that others may read. This is a lesson that I learned in a hard way. So I wish this will be known by others and be made aware of. Happy MyLotting!

The saying is true, that states : The pen is mightier than the sword. Luckily if we follow the rules here on Mylot everyone knows that no ill is intentioned. Then we should never get the idea that someone is trying to make us feel bad.

Yeah, something like that. Our capacity to do things more than we know is something awe-inspiring but at the same time quite frightful. One can never know what lengths a person can take to get what he/she wants. And this goes for each and everyone of us, I think...

Can you rephrase this again. dilrajj? I can't seem to understand what you mean? Is this an encouragement for me to study this certain trait of mine and to move forward?