Am I becoming bad? Need some thoughts here. Thanks

Philippines
January 23, 2012 11:50pm CST
Right now, I feel I need a small chat with a shrink. Lately, I've been feeling down and felt everything's not right. First of, I feel guilty over being so envious about my friends' sudden lifestyle changes. Whenever I check their status on Facebook, I feel inferior because they have reached far greater heights than what I am right now. Second, I feel guilty on being envious that's why I feel I'm being bad. I've never felt this way before because I am the eldest amongst my siblings and being envy is a no no for me. I don't know if my immaturity is blooming late or it's me getting old. I don't know what to think. I'm not sure if I need to consult a psychiatrist on this. What do you think I'm experiencing? Have you experienced it before?
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9 responses
@CarlHalling (3617)
• United Kingdom
24 Jan 12
Your honesty is touching. But I feel you are being a little hard on yourself. We are all only human, and the fact is that not all our thoughts and feelings are positive; we are all like this. And sensitivity about social status is widespread. The way I see it...the fact that you are feeling guilty, and as I see it also disturbed, about your feelings in this respect is a good thing, not a bad one. This is conscience; and if it is in good working order, which I feel it is in your case, this is again a good thing, a very good thing. As for you being down, I'm sorry to hear that, and I can't say what the cause is, but if it's guilt...I would say...don't worry. Your reactions seem to me to be normal. If you can you can try and combat them, or put them to the back of your mind, and think positively, because when I think negatively, I do get very low. I force myself to fight negative thoughts and feelings. But we are all prone to them. I don't think you're experiencing anything out of the ordinary. I say stop worrying...:o)
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• United Kingdom
7 Feb 12
You're welcome, Bluangel...
• Philippines
7 Feb 12
Thanks. Your message made me teary eyed as well. I felt I'm somehow still a good person who just woke up at the wrong side of the bed and started feeling envious. It's good to read about how people, who does not know you, see you without bias and all that. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
24 Jan 12
I think you are over dueing it. It's normal to feel bad or sad or tired out or old or immature or even jealous if you find out others seem to make more out of their life as you did. The question is: is this really the truth and the ways they took, the "carreer" they made will this make them happy (in the end)? Remember.. time goes fast.. there will be a day the job is gone. If so what is left over of them? Did they still develop themselves or is nothing left over of them because they were one with that job/carreer? There is way more as a good job and there are many ways to be succesful and... beloved. You should better think over what is important to you (and not society), what you are willing to work for and give up for it on long term. I think it's normal to evaluate your life every few years. I do exactly the same and I don't always feel great if I look back (as it seems nothing has changed in all these years I left school). But now I do remember what my father ment (who always forced us to be the best one at school/study and even beat us up for that if we were not): there are more important things in life as being the best/being number one, it's being a good humand being. And I add to this: being happy, satisfied, at the end of your life. Not having the feeling you missed something because you were only busy with working.
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
Contentment is always and will be the key to happiness. Being contented on things you have would prevent us from looking at other's achievements. I think that's what I understand on what you said. Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. Thanks you for responding. Happy mylotting!
@alberello (4752)
• Italy
24 Jan 12
Well, I must say that talking about me, on these topics, I feel a little envious to my friends, maybe just because they have already settled in their lives. I specifically better, maybe they work, have families, children, etc.. While I am still unemployed at the age of almost 37 years. But this I do not want to do a drama, I would rather just try to take off my envy towards them. Instill that everyone is just living his life according to his potential.
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
I like that, everyone is just living his life according to his potential. And if I may add, with a touch of luck. Everyone has their own time. Probably mine is just coming up. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
@enelym001 (8322)
• Philippines
24 Jan 12
Hi bluangel, I think it's normal for people to sometimes feel envious about the achievements of others. Sometimes we say that we are happy but inside we have this tiny feeling of inferiority and jealousy towards them. I think all you have to do now is to stop being on facebook for some time. Concentrate here on myLot. I have felt a bit of jealousy before too especially when I was so down before. Good thing I was able to discover myLot, I was so enjoying my time in here that I even forget to log on at Facebook sometimes. Now, I am not much updated on their achievements, or seeing their new phones, shoes and whatever What we should do is try to make ourselves better now, who knows we'll reach that dream you were dreaming
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
Self-improvement really is a good thing! Yeah, you're right. I should spend more time here at mylot, I would have gained a lot of tips and insights on things plus earnings by answering discussions. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
@mavil85 (348)
• Philippines
24 Jan 12
hello! you should have read the article about the research that facebook makes people sad. when we see pictures of happy people in facebook we tend to think that they are happier than us which is not true! so dont be sad, even if their status say so, they might be more expressive than you are.. if you feel like consulting why not? there is nothing wrong with consulting it makes you understand yourself
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
Thanks for that information. Probably you're right. I'm not that expressive. I'm a low profile kind of person who wants her life simple. And it seemed my simplicity had its toll. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
• United States
24 Jan 12
I think that maybe it's not that you're envious of your friends. We all want our friends to succeed but sometimes we all get a little down about our own situation. I've definitely felt this way myself. You have to look at all the great things that you have done and see them for how great they really are. No need to envy your friends because I'm sure there are things that your friends envy you for.
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
I will keep that in mind! It may just be material things that I see. Thanks for making me see this through. Thank you for responding and happy mylotting!
@prinzcy (32305)
• Malaysia
25 Jan 12
I also feel envious of my friend and family. They already started their family life and have good career. They don't have rocky life like I did and they were never sick as I was. But I didn't want that to affect me much. I live my life the way I want to, despite being told otherwise by my parents. I do have a good life, although it's not too awesome compared to some. Some of my friends have better job than me but I don't feel inferior as I love my job. You shouldn't be hard on yourself as well.
• Philippines
7 Feb 12
I think I won't be hard on myself anymore. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
• India
24 Jan 12
Feeling envy about others is not a bad thing. There is not even a single person on the earth who doesn't feel envy about others. The bad thing is if you do something wrong to the person whom you are envying. When you start comparing your life with others that is the point where jealousy begins. Stop comparing yourself with others. Every one's life is different. You have your own life to lead and there are many people who look at you and envy you. That is how the world is. Even people who are very wise also feel envious sometimes. Stop comparing your lifestyle with your friends and everything gets solved.
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• Philippines
7 Feb 12
I'll give that one a try! You're right about being each of us different in some ways. Thanks for the enlightenment. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!
@tatzkie23 (770)
• Philippines
25 Jan 12
If being envious to your friends will make you feel bad then don't get envy. They have their own life. Don't feel inferior about them, why don't you try to feel more happy for them. You may not get what you have wanted in life, but being envious and feeling bad is not right. If you want, make them as your inspiration to get what you want in life. As for my experience, i feel envious sometimes with my former classmates before. But i told myself, why would i envy them, if i know that i can achieve what they've achieved and i can have what they have. It's like a motivation for me to keep my aspiration high.
• Philippines
7 Feb 12
You have a point there! I'll make my envy feeling into my advantage. I'll grind more to achieve more. And will stop looking at their success but to my own achievements. Thanks for responding and happy mylotting!