To be or Not To Be? (Daily Musings)

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I had finally begun to understand. I don't stand a chance for even the smallest measure of happiness with you. I had only admitted that I am also selfish. That I can also close my mind in understanding your situation. So, what are we to do? Do we go on or go our separate ways? I leave the decision to you. Now that you know that I am also a selfish creature; that I also get insecure and afraid. Can we still go on as we are or put an end to what we have? But what do we have? How are we to survive the topsy turvy ride of a relationship if we really don't know each other? How do we end something that should have not begun in the first place? Do we dare tempt fate and continue? Or do we wake up to reality and say our goodbyes while we still can? I do not know. Do you really love me? Enough to accept my every flaw and imperfections? And am I ready to accept yours? Can I take on the world for loving you? Can I go against my every principle and beliefs? Will I turn a blind eye and ignore what's lacking and missing in our relationship? Am i ready to lose myself and become another person? Or am I ready to cry a river for losing you? To feel an unbearable hurt that is constantly constricting my heart and making breathing so very difficult and painful? Which do I choose? A short period of bliss in your arms or an eternity of regret? My heart says to be with you but my mind asks me, "are you ready to get hurt?"