I felt I couldn't do anything
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
Philippines
February 22, 2012 6:57am CST
It's hard to believe, but after all these years i didn't realize that how low I've become. I usually gets to have task but i never complained before. at some point i felt a part of me is changing, I complain most of the time, i didn't like to work on this and that. it's like something is ripping me apart.
But probably is a lot better than blaming some one for what I've become because it was my choice to begin, the choice which has not made me feel not free on my age. ..
I am single but sometimes I am not as free as a bird as it used to be. I wanted to talk to old friends, but sometimes I felt not talking about it most of the time.
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12 responses
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
22 Feb 12
Hi LK
Unfortunately this is what life is all about as I have understood it. When you are not growing (as in you are single or even dont have anything much to do on the weekends) your partners (the friends who used to be with you earlier) today have either migrated to other places in search of livelihood or opportunities or even have got married and have been busy attending to their own responsibilities and you are left all alone.
I realized this during the days between 1996-2006 the long 10 years when I wasnt married or even bothered to get married and believed that all the fun was being single. Lately I felt that yup, it might be fun doing what you want to without anyone nagging you to do this or that or even be burdened with responsibilities, still, there is something that is missing... something which I wasnt sure of. When I got to meet her, and before the days we fell in love, I started to feel that "missing" thing missing.
I dont say that finding a girl is the solution but it has been good for me. Maybe it is time to think and re-construct your life again... again this is life- you keep on fighting and finding learning new ways to handle the similar situations again and again.
Btw, it is great to see you back. Though I havent been too active still I have a small list of Missing Friends and You are Second on that one. Hope that in the coming days, you leave this "Missing Friends List" of mine
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
22 Feb 12
We have visitors at home and some projects that my mom wanted me to do.
@IntrovertShy (2780)
• Marikina, Philippines
5 Mar 12
As for me, if you want to be free as a bird, choose what makes you happy. If you are not free at all, you can choose other ways to make you happy as long as it is legal. You choose to make you happy to be free like a bird. Do not let yourself burden with sacrifice.
Example if a person is always complaining about the low salary and it is like ripping his heart into two, that person can find other work to make him happy and to be free like a bird. No more burden with sacrifice as long as it is legal and it is still in the right way or else, you are the only one who is going to suffer. We must have physical, mental and spiritual healthy.
I sometimes feel that way but I have to fight for it. I always think for the future and I do not know of what would happen to me if I would just give up the fight because if I would give up the fight, I know I am not going to be free like a bird. I really want to reach that goal, my happiness and desire to be free like a bird.
@IntrovertShy (2780)
• Marikina, Philippines
5 Mar 12
"Happiness is not a destine. Happiness is a choice."
@bing28 (3795)
• Philippines
27 Feb 12
Find new friends Letran, from them you may discover things that would interest you or yes it's right for you to talk to your old friends and rekindle old times. Don't hesistate in talking to them, maybe they're just waiting for you.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello bing28, I wish it was that easy for me to begin with. i don't know maybe they got tired of waiting after my long absence, i would chat with some of them probably starting here because i got my friends here too at first. thank you bing and have a nice day.
@starsailover (7829)
• Mexico
26 Feb 12
Hi man how are you doing? I feel that you really have to worried for you because you have been in this same mood for a while. You need more discipline from you. Maybe you don't want to do things right now but this will never be the best decision. Remember that you don't get older in spirit until you start acting like a tired old man. So please try to move on, do things for yourself and you will find your way.
ALVARO
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Starsailover, I have been disciplined for a very long while though, but i guess what's missing in me, it's kinda tearing me apart. probably i need to start sleeping or at least early than late because if i don't it gives me tendencies to be an old person. for now am doing my best to make sure i get to satisfy into other things. have a nice day.
@nurseclare (2209)
• Philippines
23 Feb 12
Hi Lk, i miss you...
All of us feel that way and you'll get through in this. There are times that life is boring and we feel like irritated on how we act. That's normal LK..
Just try to keep yourself busy and more enjoyment..i wish you the best in life..
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Nurseclare, I hate feeling this way sometimes but i don't know and can't just avoid it. I think it has something to do with sleeping late, in this case i really couldn't help had this feeling. right now, the only thing i wanted to be busy with mylot and other earning site. have a nice day.
@Jerrylin1230 (1)
• China
23 Feb 12
Hi,guy!!!I'm new here in mylot.Sometimes I also feel down,and always think of life like "Waiting for Godat" all of the woods empty,the future ?Just come on,guy!!!
Although we get worse today,tomorrow will always be new!!!It's never too late to realize what's important in your life and fight for it.Happy lotting :)
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Jerrylin, I have also been thinking of that for quite a while too. I know what is important and right i actually think that commitment to the family is important, but something that doesn't make me happy all the time. I don't want ever in my life of thinking any thing worse, i prefer a better tomorrow. of course, nobody knows that. Have a nice day.
@savypat (20216)
• United States
22 Feb 12
Sounds like you are dealing with depression. Depending on how bad this is you may need medication. As we get older our bodies change, hormone changes for both men and women are very difficult. Try to get yourself going again, find a place that you can give to others, this is the easiest way to take your mind off your problems. You can make new friends and stay busy at the same time. When you first start something new you may feel you just don't have the energy but if you can just keep with it, pretty soon you will find yourself looking forward to your new
endeaver. But also consider touching base with your Doctor and make sure nothing
that needs attention is getting ahead of you. Blessings, with a prayer or two thrown in.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello savypat, I don't want medication simply because of this so called depression, am not that old any more. I should go forth with looking for a new hobby and that would probably help me in terms of having positive results for me. obviously i do't want a hormone that has something to do with me asking for more in life. maybe i haven't really found the "thing" that makes me happy or permanent. have a nie day.
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
22 Feb 12
dear LK,
What troubling with my dear brother lately?
Hmnn....maybe you need someone to talk with.
Someone who will always stay by your side
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Jai-sis, maybe I do need some one to talk with but of course am the kind of person who doesn't really talk that much. Yeah it would have been nice to have some one to talked with. I wish i could find a way to my life but to the next level. well, the freedom is something I should be enjoying..well, have a nice day and miss you too.
@bluemoonpavilion (4658)
• Singapore
23 Feb 12
Hello LK,
We have ups and downs always, but keep looking on the bright side, when we are down there, the next direction to take would be up. We all made our choices, be they good, be they bad, they are our own.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Bluemoonpavilion, Indeed and this is one of the downs that am experiencing right now i wish it doesn't have to be this depressing. It is our own choices, maybe one day i will make a choice that will make me happy and not depend too much on happiness of others. Have a nice day. '
@bhabycatch013 (9150)
• Philippines
22 Feb 12
hi LK,
I understand the feelings but sometimes if you are committed with your family you can't have the so called FREEDOM even you are single.
But time will come you will find your own way to enjoy your life in a way you want it you just need to fight for your own happiness.
miss yah
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Bhaby-catch, I can still do some stuff though, but you're right being committed to a family is kinda being hard on my commitment now a days. recently, I've been thinking and looking for ways to enjoy life, probably i will start next week or tomorrow as long as i have gotten rid of these troubled sleeping late habits. have a nice day.
@lishun (6)
• China
23 Feb 12
I'am down in spirit now just like the cloudy sky.These days i'm puzzled about my future .I don't know which road to choice. What's worse i lose my confidence now .I don't believe myself now. It's very stange that sometimes i believe i can get anything i want,but sometims just like today i realise i can not do anything well. So now i want to do nothing including saying any words to my friends .I want to go home. i miss my mom badly but i know escape can do anything useful so i turn to music hiding myself in the rates.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello lishun, Yes cloudy skies do reflect being unclear because of the dark void from the sun. so sad that people like me had to experience the cloudness of doubt or uncertain reason for existence. I wish i could awaken my hidden potential, what ever it maybe. Have a nice day.
@froiline (1)
• Philippines
23 Feb 12
your not alone feeling that way sometimes or frequently i myself think of that way too..like now that i resigned from my job sometimes i just think of something that i didn't do to make myself be more worthy of all things my family gave me specially all the materials things they allowed me to have.i sometimes thought that i am a useless person because i don't have anything to be proud of myself as an individual and as a person because i always thought that i don't have any achievement to tell.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
28 Feb 12
Hello Froiline, It's not good either leaving your job, you never know when you're going to get the opportunity again. a lot of people are looking for job and letting go is really a hard decision. well, we really don't have to brag that much when it comes to achievements as long as you get to be happy on what you do. have a nice day.