my secret story

I really wish I had done this. Most of my preceding generations are gone. I heard a few from one grandmother, a little from another. Nothing from either grandfather directly, really. I actually think I have a tape recording of one grandmother telling some of her story once. Not sure now. I would have made the tape thirty years ago. My first husband's grandmother was in the Oklahoma land run as a child, in a covered wagon. By the time I met her she had had rides in a jet airplane to visit family. Big lifetime.

I would love to know the family history of my family and anscestors but have never had the occassion or time to find out a lot in detail. I do hope I can find more in the future...

Oh I agree with you, years ago I worked on my family tree and not one member of my family was interested, now my neices and nephew have grown up some with kids of their own they have it all there, so people should not be put off if no-one semms to care at the time, they will somewhere down the track, every one has a story to tell no matter how boring they think they are.

I think secret is a secret no need to reveal it if someone else being perish or feel hurt. Even do I have my own secret too, I don't need to reveal it to anyone because this should not be needed to say anything about me. I want to forget those bitterness that makes me pain and create another depression in my life...

It always fascinates me when other people especially the older generation share their life experiences. I love hearing stories from my Lolo (Grandfather) about the games he used to play when he was little and the stories about 'how it was like before' or my Lola's stories about her family.

For me, growing up everything seemed to be top secret. All the family things were kept under wraps. It's only now that I am learning things about my family on both sides. They only talked about superficial things. It is amazing how we learn more in our older age. My aunt is one that still seems to be secretive. But I have learned things about her through the time. That would be a big undertaking to try and get all that information. I should go to a genealogy site and start a search. Maybe sometime this year.

You should be able to trace your family members on rootsweb.com, Ancestry.com there you maybe ale to find out more about them. I to find myself wishing i had asked more questions of my parents and grand parents.

You are so right about that. I think it is the thing I miss most about not having family in these later years of my life. When me an my grandmother on my mom's side reunited for those 5 years, I sit and listened to her every word about the past on the edge of my seat. Talk about secrets and she so openly told me so much..I never asked..I think she wanted me to know things..to understand things. Now when my father passed, he was buried in a family grave yard and I saw family that I hadn't seen in years. I know it sounds crazy but he talked about a great great grandmother that was and Irish Shaman...huh???? Well..apparently my great great grandfather had been an Indian and she became highly respected in the tribe. It's funny because all the women on that side of the family have the dark Indian features while their brothers all have red hair, freckles and blue eyes.

It's amazing you can stay that long. I am sure there have been so many ups and downs you have been through. I guess you are succesful in life. My mom is also like you. She is now a great grand mother. I think the secret is the patience and trust. I hope I will be like her.

It's a shame that by the time we get old enough to care, most of the people we never asked for their stories are gone. Of course even fifty years ago we didn't have the recording media we have today. I have very old movies from some of these relatives of when they first came to California, but there's no one to explain them. No video cameras back then with sound. And no way to see these movies anymore unless I spend a lot of money to get them put on a DVD, and I have no children to pass them to. Maybe if I make enough writing I will be able to afford to do it someday so I can write about it. My brother may still have the original projector.