Living on a low fixed income; is there any light under the tunnel?

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At the moment I don't feel as depressed and unhappy as usual but I still feel pretty bummed out. Of all things to happen there is a mouse in the house or should I say the mobile home all because the landlord has my son help him bring this dirty, stinky hide-a-way bed inside yesterday. And last night is when we heard the first sounds of the mouse. I have very erratic sleep patterns. No matter how hard I try to fix my sleeping pattern I'm not able to do it. If I had to get to a job early in the morning or even at some other hour there's no way I'd ever make it. I guess it's a good thing I draw government help benefits for my health problems I have. But living on a low income - a fixed income ain't great. We struggle every month and this month I get $100 less and last month I got $200 less because of this other state I lived in last year quit paying medicare premiums. It takes some months for it all to get straightened out. So I couldn't pay my landlord all my co-pay of rent last month. The Sec 8 here is terrible and doesn't give a family much rental assistance due to a lower utility allowance. My total electric expense for this trailer for 4 months is over $700. My other landlord in the other state got mad at me for not paying him $42 of my rent and I only messed up 1 month. We are afraid to try to move since we will have a hard time finding a new place to rent with low income of $700 per month and no good references. Plus if we leave before Dec 1 we will lose our Sec 8 housing choice voucher. My son and I are so unhappy in this town not to mention this trailer is not a good place to live. We both have low self-esteem; we both feel like great big nobody's (losers). I feel like there's no light under the tunnel; I almost feel like life isn't worth living - was it ever?