Finding my passion, my path my way...
By abmacasinag
@abmacasinag (518)
Philippines
March 9, 2012 3:22am CST
For 5 years I have been working on high-stress job that paid the bills but did not feed my spirit. I used to fantasize about changing jobs. Whenever my job would get particularly stressful, but I know that changing job or bosses or one set of organization headaches will not be solution.
Then I look a little deeper and learned that what I really wanted was simplicity and balance, to experience right livelihood and desire to be my own boss. I didn't need a new job I needed a new life, a life with more balance. A life that included time to spend with the people I love, where I work at something I feel a passionate about, one the allows me and not an employer to decide what time I will wake up in the morning and how many vacation days I need.
I was waiting for a sign and finally God gave me that sign to finally quit my job. When he bless us with this baby I know that It's the sign that I have been waiting for.
I decided to put my money angst on hold for the time being and instead focus on on this pregnancy, on finding my passion, my path, my way.
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5 responses
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
9 Mar 12
Auds, was this decision brought about by your newly hired assistant?
Actually, i kinda expected it , because i know how difficult it is for you the past pregnancies. But not at this time, when someone is trying to steal the position from you. Maybe you can tender the resignation, once we see her go already. 
And when that happens, i hope you have finally come to terms with what could really make you truly happy. 
And when that happens, i hope you have finally come to terms with what could really make you truly happy.
@abmacasinag (518)
• Philippines
9 Mar 12
That and a lot of factors Tita D. Even before she came into the picture I have been meaning to quit my job. I don't think I can still take the pressure and stress at work with my current condition. Even If I keep on telling myself that I will not get affected and not stress myself, it's not happening I'm still stressed out and I don't want to take the risk of losing this baby again for the the third time. I don't care anymore if she will succeed in stealing my position, I just want to have a peace of mind and stress free. I just hope that someday our management will try to listen to their staff, when hiring individuals. They should've taken into consideration the point of view of each staff whether or not they like that particular staff to be a part of their team or not. "Once is enough twice is too much". It's like dejavu with my previous leasing assistant, you know him.
To be honest i think the incidents that have been happening just trigger my decision to quit my job. And my decision is final, I will do everything to survive this pregnancy and keep my baby even if it means quitting my job. I've never been happier in making this decision, it's like I'm a total different person again.
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
12 Mar 12
When we do decisions in life we always take into consideration what is truly important to us. In your case, having this baby is the most important now.
So go for it AUds. 
@Aja103654 (5644)
• Philippines
10 Mar 12
That's good. Just bare with the high stress job for awhile until you are stable enough to start a more balanced life.
Many of us probably would rather have that kind of life than being stuck with a job they clearly don't adore.
Good luck!
Good luck! @abmacasinag (518)
• Philippines
11 Mar 12
Thanks! Will be filing my resignation this week and It'll be a one month notice..
have a great day ahead!
@airasheila (5454)
• Philippines
9 Mar 12
Good day Abmacasinag,
Your decision is indeed admirable. That, you were able to identify what you want to happen in your life. That, you able to gain the courage to set aside your worry for money. And able to know and identify your priority. You are truly a good model for that you have done.
How I wish, I can also identify the things that I really want to happen. That, someday, I can say to myself, this is the life that I want and thank God, I am now here. I am really looking forward as well, to go and hit that aim of mine.
And with the post that you have shared, you have just help me to open up my mind to more possibilities, to more positive energy that I can still do.
Wishing you the best and may God bless and be with you as you take your path on your next journey.
Cheers.
@abmacasinag (518)
• Philippines
9 Mar 12
Hi airsheila,
it's not an easy decision to make. I'm just happy that finally I got the courage to do it.
Thank you and I hope that you too can find yours.
Have a great day ahead!
@shylade (3132)
• Philippines
10 Mar 12
like you, i want to quit my job and have another that i=my heart really wants. and that is to take care of my son. my heart really wants to be a stay at home mom for my son. i know it is not easy with all the daily expenses now. but God is good for letting me see other opportunities and way to my dream. i want to be the boss of my life, i want to own my time and i know i can do it.
i am still a working mom now. but i already open the door to the possibility of being a stay at home and work at home. i am into blogging and i am earning little from it already. i am also doing article writing. i have signed up with different online job websites and will push through once i have my own connections and netbook at home. i know in God's time i can make it. you are bless now and take care of your self. God is really good right?
@abmacasinag (518)
• Philippines
11 Mar 12
Indeed God is really good. Just like you I do have online jobs but It's not yet enough to pay my bills, but I'm ok with it. I know that I can survive, what important is I can get enough rest and peace of mind especially now that I'am having a baby. Money will just come around I know it. With God's guidance.
Have a great day ahead!
@inertia4 (27960)
• United States
12 Mar 12
Most people feel that way these days. I know I do. I was working like crazy and I found myself on auto pilot. I was just becoming a machine going from day to day. I was slowly burning out. Then my marriage fell apart. That was the bottom that fell out. I was spinning out of control. I still have not recovered form everything yet. I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. And well as high anxiety. I also get panic attacks now. Something I have never experienced. They feel like I am having a heart attack. Its not nice, believe me. But I want to congratulate you on your pregnancy. We all need a break sometimes. I think that is a good thing for you before you burn out and spin out of control. This is what you need right now.
