Love and Hate
By TinkerKitty
@TinkerKitty (52)
United States
March 10, 2012 9:57pm CST
This isn't a relationship in the love sense, but it's not friendship catagory either. Anyways, so. I'm very private about my body. I'll wear a bikini in the summer, but only when I think I look good in it. Three people have seen me without a shirt, one has seen me naked. Until now. This guy on Facebook shows up, we make small talk for two days, he asks for a naked picture, and I gave him one.
I can't figure out why. There are other guys just as good-looking and willing to do and say the same things he does. Some did. We don't know much about each other, and there is nothing particulalry special about him. Why don't I have a problem showing him my body, aside from some embarressment? Why do I accept compliments from others, but love them from him? Why am I so willing to give him so much? (Nothing physical, he lives hours away.) I don't get it, and give myself a headache when I try to figure it out. I just know that others make me feel modestly embarressed, but he makes me feel special. I love this feeling, but I hate that I don't know why I'm feeling it.
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@sherrybelle (707)
• United States
11 Mar 12
It sounds like what you have with this guy is the POTENTIAL to become a love relationship. You're definitely willing to give him what he wants when he asks for the photo of you and you give it to him.
I also do my best to please and accommodate someone if I think he could be a potential boyfriend.
Allow yourself to love the feeling for now and give it time to see how it all unfolds.
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@TinkerKitty (52)
• United States
11 Mar 12
I was afraid of that. ( hours and 23 minutes (if my phone is to be believed) is really far, and I can't drive.
@Emmanuel_II (47)
• Philippines
12 Mar 12
Remember, man is created naked.
Now you're confused about your feeling, it's because you trust that guy. You also sensed that no harm will come in your way by giving him that.
And also, nobody should feel embarrassed by showing your you-know-what, because we're created that way.
And remember this, the world will not be a wonderful place without female.
@TinkerKitty (52)
• United States
12 Mar 12
That doesn't change the fact that I don't know WHY I trust him. Oh well, I may as well just go with it.
@obe212003 (2299)
• Philippines
11 Mar 12
The part of which making you feel especial is something within you. Have you ever had someone you just met and felt like you knew him/her all your life? It is some sort of "vibes" a natural instinct of feeling "good", lol! Sooner or later, you would realize the chances of "falling" for this someone would be great as this is making you feel good, assured without any inhibitions of just being yourself.
@TinkerKitty (52)
• United States
11 Mar 12
I generally leave that stuff to the romance movies I hate watching. As for falling for him, I don't think I'd mind too much if we were closer. As it is, anything can be happening 9 hours away right now. Technically, even if we were closer I still couldn't keep tabs on him 24/7, but I'd feel better about it.
