I've got it up to the hilt.

I stay up so that I can have a bit of quiet time myself, I am not sure if I have said that. Now I do know that money stresses me, but I don't believe it stresses me and my body like it has in the past. Atleast I don't feel it emotionally or physically like I had before. I need to go tomorrow or the next day to pay on the rest of the moped, but now that I just thought of it I won't have enough to get it delivered which is what I really need. That just caused me a bit more stress. I can't ask for the money to cover it as no one but a few know about it. I know how you feel about finding it hard to live with people. It's really not their fault, but I hate when I am conversed with early in the morning, right after work, or late at night. I also hate when I am on my way to do something and someone stops to chat. Of course, I don't leave any time open for me to be conversed with, but I'm a very quiet person. That being said, in this house usually when one converses with me it is to be nosey (and I will not bend and reveal what they want to know) or it is for a question I must repeat myself. Repeating myself annoys me. I feel as if you didn't hear me the first time you weren't listening to me and that offends me. I also hate when people come in the room when I am listening to music, or when people come up and sneak behind me. Truth be told I am probably an awful person to live with, but that is just more reason for me to save my money wisely and to open that CD so that I can be on my way to moving out.

I do stress BIG TIME over money. I have been homeless before and I don't want to be again. Plus I am responsible for us. It really scares me. Hope you get the moped thing figured out. When my granddaughter was staying here she would come talk to me sometimes... Tell me her plans and all. I hated to listen to it because it was just to apease me and probably none of it would happen anyway. Her lies just made it so that I didn't really want to hear from her at all. I hate it when people come in when I am listening to music too. I tend to concentrate on the music and what I am doing on here(connected by earbuds)and they startle me if they come in and get my attention. It irritates me because my granddaughter laughs and really gets a kick out of it. Yep. Those three months I lived alone in the little apartment my granddaughter and I rented when my daughter went super manic for a Summer was sure nice. It was in the back of an old house and so quiet. It was pure heaven. We should start a club of people who enjoy their alone time. hehe

I have been in and out of this house so many times. The last time I figured would be THE last time, but it wasn't. I need to make this time be the last time, so I need to be wise when I do move. I've never lived completely out on my own before, and that is my actual goal. I suppose it's odd as I would probably enjoy my own noise or the noise of my friends, but familial noise just irritates me.

I want you to succeed this time, too. Do lots of research on budgetting. That should help.Also plan on some type of garden, even if it's just a windowsill one. I had a rough time in the 80s trying to leave home, too. I really empathize on this one with you. The more you learn now, the better off you will be. Like do you know how to sew a button on? All kinds of stuff, good idea to learn as many things are you can this time. Each time you didn't make it, I'm sure you lreaned something. Most people need a roommate until they make lots of money. That can create problems, too. Do you do any arts or crafts?

Mylot is at it's old glitchyness again. I did write a bit of a response to you but I'll have to sum it up as if this glitch happens again I may very well scream. 1. there is a library but farther away 2. I've lived here before, and this time is a bit better then the others, but I still feel trapped here. 3. I know I just need to make it where I get out and stay out 4. I have to figure out where that is, I know abouts where but that's it. 5. I work for a grocery store and feel as if I am underpaid, but live with it until I can find a better paying job.

It seems family can be the worst when it comes to making assumptions and trying to force what they feel is the right decision on to people. They are also the world's best at being nosey. I live back with my grandparents and I told my grandmother about two years ago that if she insisted on being nosey, I would insist on always lying. This has caused her not to ask, that and my atittude towards her. I am a person who enjoys the peace and quiet of the country life and of solitude, and living here (with three other people) it's hard to achieve. I think that what you are doing is right, you should not quit school to get a job, nor should you hire a nurse to take care of your husband when you are very capable of doing it yourself. With nurses you just do not know the quality of care he would receive. That isn't to say nurses are bad, but well you know what I mean. I've gotten to a point with being so annoyed with life here in the past that I'd gotten myself kicked out. I try to stay more reserved now, and bide my time.

I am just a person who enjoys the quiet solitude a lot more. Even noise from a t.v. can bother me. I feel like at a certain hour the house should be quiet, but it never is. No matter what, if ti's 3 am (as I am often up that late to be on here) it is still very noisy. I have no kids, but I imagine once I have them I will have to get used to the noise, or surely go to a mad house. It's not just inside the house for me, it's also outside. The noise from the neighbors, it's just way too great. Even noise from traffic, we live in the suburbs and while it could be worse I wish it would be better.

I won't take medicine for stress or anything like it because it does have adverse effects and most of the time we have to go through so many just to see which one will work. I'd rather find other ways to manage it.

Well I'm done with my taxes, have no kids but the niece and nephew have both been here this weekend, and well ear plugs aren't a bad idea except for the fact that if someone were to come in the room they could sneak up behind me (which one would LOVE to do as she knows it bothers me) and scare me. My mind is in the "work, money work money WORK" gear and relax later. I just need to remember to shift into neutral and have some relaxation time as well.