Dear God,
By bluespygirl
@bluespygirl (2112)
Philippines
April 11, 2012 7:06am CST
Dear God,
I am not here to question you. I am "talking" to you now as I was talking. I hope you could help me straighten and strenghten all things in my thought and life now. I am not whining nor complaining too.
First of all, I would like to ask, what do you think of what went wrong in my life? Everything seems to be wrong. Yes I know the blessings that I should count like having beautiful kids, good health, etc. What bothers me is our way of life now. We are full of debt. :( Because of these, me and my husband always quarell. We two have business but business has its ups and downs. Downtimes means we can't pay our bills. Sometimes, even our food and kids school money is sacrificing. What are your plans? Most farmers/people that we help don't know how to pay their debts to us which they use in their farms.
My husband can't work because we have a motorcycle business. We still have more than 20 motorcycles stocks now. I admire him in a way that he don't force me to find a job. Finding a job means I'll be away from my kids who still need me in preparing food and their things. Having a job means money in our house but it means broken home for us.
I do not think of my parents and siblings now yet. I love them much ofcourse. I understand them that though they can't help financially, I hope that atleast they could help me be inspired or enlighten
What is your plan for us? Please guide and direct us to the RIGHT things that we could do. I am so confuse now. My eldest child still have a year in highschool. I wish I could send him to college as it is so important.
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12 responses
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
11 Apr 12
I am sorry that you are going through a rough time. I am a single parent and I sure can relate to the struggles you face at the thought of being away from your children while you work and also not being able to provide them all that we think they need. Having raised all 4 of mine and only having one left at home who will graduate in a few short months, I can only offer you up encouragement...It ALL works out. I remember so well struggling with these feelings and guilts. I HAD to work and I so so often felt guilty in leaving. For me, I compromised on sleep and personal life to pull it off. At times it felt like it was never ending and unappreciated. I did not have time or energy to question it or think much on it...just plowed forward in hopes of just getting through each day with everyone getting what they need and with any luck some extras. All of a sudden...it's over. We did it ...we made it and we are all just fine. My girls are all good people and on their own with the exception of the one still at home. I know she wants to further her education and I'm supportive of that. We'll just take it where it goes. I will find a way to help her make that happen...not even going to worry about it. I'm not an overly religious person but I've found that when I just do the best I can with what I have and keep my priorities in order then everything just falls into place good enough. It wasn't all as I wanted or expected it to be but it all worked out and it will with you too.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
11 Apr 12
Hi PQ,
Yes, my girls understand now that they are older too but I know how you feel and I know that they too wish that I could have had more time with them. Like you, I really didn't have much choice in the matter. It was survival. It did make me cherish every bit of time that I did have with them though.
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
11 Apr 12
I had to work too.. I worked days off and I worked overtime.. 16 hours a day sometimes. My daughter still says she wishes she had more time with me as a child. Many times we had planned to do something the next day when I was off, and then I would get called into work. My need for money overtook my need to be with my daughter. She would cry when I left her with her grandparents. Dad would say she would be okay when I left.. and I went to work. Thing is... she still remembers not having much time with me when she was little. I still feel bad for that. She understands why, but still.. I think of that 7 year old girl that wanted to play store or play house with mommy.
@jobfindonline (1744)
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11 Apr 12
sometimes it is more helpful if we compare ourlives to other people with worst living condition. We will learn to appreciate more what we have... It is nice that you are saying all things in prayer everything that bothers you. God will surely give you a clear mind to find a solution if you ask Him. God will not remove the trials that we have or do a miracle for us, He will help us to find the way out of it.
No matter how hard life it is for you please always thank God for all the blessings that we have.. our life itself is a gift...other people do not breath anymore.
Make your life more simple and be satisfied for whtever availble resources that you have.
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@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Prayer is always with me even though I feel that I am in my lowest point of my life. I have red somewhere that these trials are in preparation of something beautiful. I just hope that me and my family can survive all this. In some point, I am questioning myself why is He giving us so much trials and problems? Had I done something wrong.
Thank you for your response jobfindonline! :)
@secretbear (19448)
• Philippines
18 Apr 12
Hi blue.. You're really feeling blue, I bet? That's really sad to hear. I've been into down situations before and I've asked God why. But things always turn right in the end so I always have hope. I guess to question a higher Being is normal especially if things go out of hand and we can never control it even if we have done the best we could.
One thing I can say to you is, have hope. With all the things I've experienced, good things always happen in the end, things always turn alright in the end. If you're down now, always look into a good future because it will come to you. As they always say, we live in a wheel of life, sometimes we are up there, sometimes we're down there. 
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
21 Apr 12
Hello secretbear. I agree that we musn't lose hope in life and continue living. We pray for His guidance and work on ways to achieve what we are praying. I really hope for good thing in the end. Just like in a saying that in the end of every rainbow is a pot of gold. Thank you so much. :)
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
11 Apr 12
It’s a hard thing to deal with. I had to work all my daughter’s growing up life. I worked oftentimes 16 hours a day. I didn’t have my husband to help me either because we divorced. He would not keep a job and it was just terrible. I moved in with my parents and they pretty much watched her grow up while I worked. I would have loved to stay home with her and play house, and play store.. she loved playing store. She had a little cash register and she took all the stuff off the shelves and put price tags on them and would ‘sell’ them to me..lol. I miss those days.. they were far and few between. You are lucky to stay at home with your kids. I hope you get to stay at home with them, because they are only young once.
I believe God hears your cries to HIM. It will all work out to the good. It has to… it’s God’s word that says all things work together for those that love the Lord. I don’t know the exact wording, but it’s like that. So things will probably continue to be hard, but you will make it. Try to just stand in your faith and believe that things will work out.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Hello again PQ! :) Can I ask if you divorced your husband JUST because he wouldn't keep a job? I hope I ain't asking too personal, I am just curious. You are one strong woman. I mean, you had decided to have divorce and is now carrying on. I wish I have enough courage on all decsions that I will have to make. Lucky you have parents who "accepted" you when you moved in. That is one thing with me. Most friends and family is against me and my husband marrying. I fight for this and because of it, most relatives isn't supportive. They tell that I am into this situation because its like a curse and blah blah. I am not asking for help but I just need a listening individual who can give encouragements. I keep on hearing negative so I just pray and share here. :)
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@else22 (4317)
• India
14 Apr 12
I can understand the trouble you have been undergoing.You both are doing your businesses.Business everywhere has its ups and downs.If you business is running well,you will rake in profits.Otherwise you would have to incur loss that may sometimes be too heavy to bear.Prices are souring high.We all have been suffering from financial problems that are taking their toll in our mutual relations.I have been in the same situation as you and looking for a solution.Earning money enough to run your family and get children educated is a problem.
@roshigo58 (4859)
• Pune, India
15 Nov 12
Hi,
You and your husband are going through very hard and difficult situations. You should not lose your hope. Something good will happen and your business will improve. I will pray God for your progress in business and you will have happy life. I wish your family a happy and prosperous life.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
15 Nov 12
Thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers. . I really appreciate it.
. I really appreciate it.
@flowerchilde (12529)
• United States
17 Oct 12
I hope things have improved for you! I have sometimes thanked God I was not wealthy while raising our kids, because I would have totally spoiled them, as it was, there was no chance of that! I could not send our two kids to college or any sort of schooling, but I did babysit while my daughter had two years of school complimentary when her factory job got shipped out of the country.. and babysit for her now while she is back in factory work.. And she and her two daughters still live here with us, even though she is turning 30. Our son lived with us until age 31. So I guess I do and did what I could and can. I hope financial matters are better for you now..
@savypat (20216)
• United States
11 Apr 12
Most people's lives are full of hills and valleys, the hills are the difficult part and often we just can't see how we are going to climb them. Asking for God's help is always good, but also looking back and seeing other times when you just didn't think you'd get by. If you look at those you will see that our leesons in life are learned during the bad times, and when we can see that we can say to ourselves God, that's why you let me go it through that time. Now is one of those times, not just for you but for many of us, we need to accept this, don't fight it, pay close attention to the little things and you will see your path, it may not be anything like you thought would or should happpen, but it will be one of life's lessons. Blessings and be thankful there are many gifts given each day.
For one you might look at gas prices, surly this will create more of a motorcycle
market, see what you can do to bring this to people's attention.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Hello savypat! Thank you for your response. Blessings and lessons learned. :)
@shylade (3132)
• Philippines
12 Apr 12
hello there! just hang in there and leave it to God. nothing is impossible with Him so fear not and have no doubt. remember that He will not give you any burden that you can't handle. people have their ups and downs like there is always dark and light. just remember that each day when the sun goes down, another brand new day will start and seeing it is always a blessing. be positive because you are still lucky compared to other people who don't even a family to call. i hope you can get over this and my prayers are with you.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Thanks for everything you had said here shylade! Especially the prayers. :) I am positive I can get over this with God's help.
@marie2052 (3691)
• United States
11 Apr 12
Blessings to you my little sister.
I have not forgotten you or your family.
Life always gets in the way when we are long distance from someone we actually care about.
I will light a candle today to pray to ease your burden.
there is one in the US that loves you dearly and always thinks about you.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Hello there sis!
I know that I have a good friend from the other side of the world -- that is YOU. :)I really need lots of prayers and encouragement now.
@dazzledlady (1618)
• Philippines
12 Apr 12
Don't ask the why's and the how's, simply believe in Him. Always be thankful of God's grace and blessings. You are blessed to have a source of income compare to others who have to worry everyday where to get food and where to sleep. I do understand that it is every parent's dream to see their children finish school. And with the high and lows in your business, you are doubting your capability as a parent. Lay your burdens and worries to God and He will give you rest. Take it easy and save every little money you can for their future. Life isn't always a smooth road, there will always be bumps along the way. Just don't let them stop you.
@bluespygirl (2112)
• Philippines
13 Apr 12
Hello dazzledlady! Thanks for dropping by. I like what you said that we must simply believe in HIM. I must write what you and the others had said in here to inspire my more. I really like it. Thank you. :)
@honest_efforts100 (1607)
• India
23 Jul 12
As much as of you call to God for help, I think you should also help yourself. You cannot continue winning over things that are not right and yet you are not working. You need to go out and look for a job and help your husband in financial matters. The kids will always be with you, they should not be an excuse to stay at home.
