Depression from lack of work
By gazinglady30
@gazinglady30 (75)
United States
April 22, 2012 4:05pm CST
I had been feeling soo sad lately. Can't really point out why..what.It's just this crazy feeling inside me, slowly eating me. I wanted to recover, to heal myself. But how in the world will I do it when I do not know what exactly my problem is? First of all, let me give you an idea of my situation. I got here in Vegas December of 2010. With me is my son. Don't ask me where the father is, got tired of explaining to everybody why I have a child but no father or husband. As a legal immigrant from Philippines, finding a job is just soo damn hard with all the competitions plus the fact that Nevada has the highest unemployment rate in the whole of US. After few months of just staying at home doing nothing I got depressed. But that was last year now is a different thing. Ok. Going back to the topic, I only managed to get babysitting jobs but I quit my job recently. Now, I am back to being depressed, with no friends to listen to me, no way to get around. I can't even get another babysitting job now! For 3 days in a row, I have been thinking of suicide, putting up my kid for adoption and even just finding a husband to save me from my misery. But I guess, solving a problem with another problem will not help me. Suggestions anyone? I just need a listening ear. Okay. I need a lot of ears. Thanks.
5 responses
@Cherish14 (2693)
• Philippines
23 Apr 12
oh no no no don't even think about it. i have been in the same place as you lately. i even had anxiety attack and i brought myself to the ER. i felt like i had no one. i was so alone. but i realized that it is not the end of the world. time will come we will just laugh at this in the future... please seek help, i am not sure how you can in your country but as one responder, you can dial the numbers and please don't think about doing things like that. i am jobless too right now but it is not the end of the world okay? please take a moment of silence and pray. He will give you the strength to face all the challenges that come your way. you have your child and he/she needs you to be strong for him/her. anyway is your kid a boy or a girl?
please stay strong and we will be here for you. i come here to mylot because i need to let it all out and i consider it as one of my outlets. and also, my friends are so far away from me right now, they are abroad now and i feel like we are all scattered now. you can ask for help and i am sure they can also help you find a job.
take care 
@gazinglady30 (75)
• United States
23 Apr 12
I know. This site is one of a kind. You can share your thoughts and others can advise you. Its like making Mylot your outlet to express your emotional build up inside you. Like a stress reliever by just reading messages and replying to them. Sometimes the best listener are the ones you do not know at all. My kid is a boy. Yes, difficult to be isolated from the rest of the world with no social life.Boring. Hope to find a job.somewhere. anywhere.
@Cherish14 (2693)
• Philippines
23 Apr 12
yes and you can come here anytime. and you can talk to a lot of people here
i just got home from applying for a job but i am not sure yet about it. the man said they will just contact me on May 2nd. i have been jobless too but i am now pulling myself up and still look for a job..
just be strong, you'll get through this too okay?
i just got home from applying for a job but i am not sure yet about it. the man said they will just contact me on May 2nd. i have been jobless too but i am now pulling myself up and still look for a job..
just be strong, you'll get through this too okay? @gazinglady30 (75)
• United States
24 Apr 12
yup. im just making my son an inspiration. Good luck to us.
@malasrivastava (33)
• India
23 Apr 12
I am also in search of a job for the past 4 years but failed to get one. Sometimes, I used to get depressed but now I am trying hard to get a job that interests me. Similarly, you should not lose hope. Try and try. There is no harm in trying. Who knows you might be able to get a very good job. Believe in yourself and above all believe in god. Ofcourse, the decision is entirely yours. You should be financially stable to support your child. You have to think about his future also. Before making any decision, make your sincere efforts and try your level best to get what you want. All the best.
@gazinglady30 (75)
• United States
24 Apr 12
You are right. Everything is given at the right moment and at the right place. As long as we still have something to eat and a place to stay, that would be enough for now. Lucky that we are far better off than others. But I guess I wont accept 4 years to look for a job. Hehe..
@wongchoiyee (7413)
• Malaysia
23 Apr 12
I can feel you, don't worry, depression nowadays is common problem already, I also have it, call the number at the first respondent write 1800....You can talk to them and see how they can help, you can msg me about your problem, I can help you.
@Shellyann36 (11384)
• United States
23 Apr 12
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. You really need to reach out to support groups and churches in your area. No one has to be totally alone. You must also think of your baby too. Start thinking of positive things. MyLot is a way to earn money. There are several other things that you can do online to earn money as well. They are not going to offer you a full time job but every little dime counts. I use to work with several Filipino nurses several years ago and they were always a very tight knit group. Do you not have anyone close to you from the Philippines? I would think that this would help to keep you from being homesick and to also give you friendship. I will pray for you and your son. God Bless and Good Luck!
@gazinglady30 (75)
• United States
23 Apr 12
I am with my adoptive family but of course, I have no voice in the house as I am not important and "they" have established their lives here already. I had even been told by my bro in law the other when he complained that there is no more rice and that we consume 1 sack a week. He said he will need to buy one again. And that I come with him to the social services to apply for foodstamps and etc. It was an insult to me. Why can he just directly say that me and my son are a burden to them and that I should contribute something instead of saying those words over and over again for oever a year now. But we havent even laid foot on the office ever. I've been here for just a year and 4 months and havent contributed to taxes etc. how in the world will i get benefits. its hard. but i will manage. Thanks.
@bing28 (3795)
• Philippines
23 Apr 12
Pray, go to the nearest church and attend mass ask God to give you job. Be patient just go on praying before going to bed and as you wake up in the morning. Have faith in God and believe you'll be answered. I'll be praying for you as well. Should the situation there is no longer good for you why not go back to the Phils. here you'll earn may not so big but you can support your child. For sure you have relatives here for you to stay temporarily, you can apply here as sales agent of beauty products, of real estate of herbal medicines or food supplements so many jobs waiting for you here but of course earnings not as big as baby sitting there but good enough for you to survive. That's your last option of course going back here, pray for a job first there, remember knock and you'll be answered. I wish you good luck and God's blessings...
@gazinglady30 (75)
• United States
23 Apr 12
Thank you BIng. Maybe you have a point there. I have not really talked with God lately. I was never a religious person and my family do not forget to invite me to attend church. Of course I have my doubts, my blames here and there. But the action has to start with me. The first step should come from me so in order to just get out of bed, I just look at my son, and what he can become. My family is here, we are fed,sheltered, but of course, its different when you are just under somebody's roof. WHen you can hardly vibe with them. I call them nega as they make me feel down, sadder, they dont help me go back to school, they want me to earn the money in my effort. So I questioned them, how will I find a work if here in US, employers seek those with lots of experience, trainings, educations. WHile a newcomer has nothing to brag about. Oh well, maybe its life. Its all chalenges to make me strong. A reminder to seek God to be in my life. TO heal me not superficially but deep down inside. May God bless us all.
