I'm sad about my former Supervisor...

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I'm new in this company that I'm working at right now. I've stayed in my previous company for two (2) years. It was a Business Process Outsourcing in nature and we do have quality analysts who check agent's calls every now and then. Checking for how good the agent give the solution during the call. Checking for how rude the agent was to the customer. Checking for bloopers that the agent made during the call; most likely grammar lapses and such. Things like that. We have this QA (or Quality Analyst) that is so lively; you never get bored. He's not a straight guy; and given they're are vulnerable. They're prank and spontanous. I may not able to chat with him like the rest of the gang in the office but I can sense that he's trying to reach out for me. Given that I have a slight introvert personality; i choose which time will I greet him and which time I won't. But whenever we passed by in that big production floor he never failed to smile. That was the most sweetest thing he's doing so far. If he was a guy; any girl will fall for her. But I don't know how to approached him to have a small talk or what. It's not my kind or usual thing to do. And he's just smiling. Around two weeks; one of the supervisors here in the present work told me a sad news. Working with the QA before; my supervisor friend told me that he's in the hospital; crucial and in agony. I did felt remorsed. And so everone else in my previous company and close friends who's also working with me who knows the QA. But I was so busy that even they asked me to atleast visit him; I never did. I still don't know how to approach him. I still don't even know how to approach him. Time flies fast after one week of not knowing what happened and no news about him; one of my former agents message me in chat and told me about the bad news. He did passed away; forty minutes before as we spean during that time. Don't tell me you're serious. And darn; he did send me the message two times. Am I bad for not being there when they asked me to visit? I'm really feeling sad about it. I didn't manage to put up enough courage to at least talk to him and be thankful about those days he's exchanging smiles despite of pressures at work. And there goes me; crying now. The least that I could do now is to post my thoughts about this. Sharing how time valuable is. But I want to know more about yours.