Calling All Wise Weight Loss Devotees!

I'm not really sure what it is you are looking for here...but.. I weighed 364 at my highest weight..when I saw that all of a sudden it registered in my mind... OMG that is almost 400 lbs. I have excuses galore...I was not "that" big until I got sick in 2000, I couldn't do anything, on and on. Well it dawned on me one day while feeling hopeless.... "FOOD IS NOT MY FRIEND" That became my personal mantra. I was refusing to have a gastric bypass as my doctor suggested. No, no way was I putting myself at risk with surgery after all I had been through..ie: Nov. 2000 Necrotizing Fasciitis to May 2001 (left rehab with temporary colostomy, catheter,and trach tube, 1 year of bandage changes and infections at home with a visiting nurse trach tube removed, colostomy reversed and catheter removed.)2004 back to work for 1 year and 4mos. My old job asked me to take a medical leave because I was getting cellulitis in my left leg due to my wounds still had not completely healed. I was being hospitalized for 2 weeks about every 3 to 4 weeks to have iv antibiotics.) Anyway...not having surgery that is not medically needed. So...after not working and sitting on my pity pot whining to myself. I had that notion..."Food Is NOT My Friend" Bottom line is FOOD IS NO ONE'S FRIEND... we need it but that's all. It really doesn't comfort us....as much as we think...now I try to eat sensibly and when I get depressed (who am I kidding..I suffer severe depression)... I just keep telling myself food is not my friend...I am down to 215 lb...it may sound like a lot to some but when you consider I was almost 400....well It works for me...and it's the only thing that gets me through....so no matter what demon is making you eat what and when you shouldn't remember... "FOOD IS NOT YOUR FRIEND"