Can't eat or sleep :(
By courtknee525
@courtknee525 (3742)
United States
May 16, 2012 10:13am CST
My boyfriend left for the army yesterday and since then I feel as if my whole body has been out of whack. All day yesterday I had a constant stomachache and I hardly ate anything. I couldn't even sleep even though I was so tired after the emotional day.
Then, at midnight I heard my phone go off with the text message ringtone I have set for when my boyfriend texts. It was just a simple text saying I love you but it still made my heart pound in my chest. So of course I couldn't get back to sleep. Luckily, about ten minutes later he calls me! I was so excited I almost cried.
I just feel that I can't really sleep and when I do, it's only for a few hours and then I wake up and can't get back to sleep. I can't wait until all of this is over and he's back home again. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and it's killing me to not have him here since he is the one who helps me get through my problems.
I just have to stay strong and keep looking forward to July when I get to go to Oklahoma and watch him graduate from his basic training.
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11 responses
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
16 May 12
Thank you so much :) It's very hard right now and I'm doing my best to stay strong but sometimes everything is just too much for me to handle. I'm hoping things get easier
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
30 May 12
I am feeling a little better. Sleep has gotten easier because in my dreams is the one place I'm able to see him for right now and so I'm actually happy to get sleep. Eating is still kind of blah, I only eat because I have to and I don't really enjoy it because it ends up upsetting my stomach.
I'm trying to keep myself as busy as possible so July can get here quicker :) I'm getting excited and already trying to make arrangements and get my outfit for his graduation. I think I'll be even better once I get a letter from him :)
@MoonGypsy (4606)
• United States
17 May 12
i was in the military. so, i know. its a very hard thing for your loved ones. this is only the beginning. he will have to do some more traveling and sometimes you will not be able to be with him. you should be very proud of him, but love him support him and stay with him. are you sure you can be in this for the long haul?
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
17 May 12
Yes, I've already tried to prepare myself for the fact that he'll be stationed in other states and eventually overseas at some point. But even while he's in another state he can still come back home to visit or I could go visit him. I know it's going to be hard, but I know that once he's out and we're together, all of it will be totally worth it.
And he calls you daily right?@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
17 May 12
He's my best friend and I'm lost without him here with me. I think until next Thursday he'll be able to call me just about every night. But after that he'll have to send me letters and maybe get an occasional phone call.
Last night I was at work when I got his call and I answered it right then and there even though we're not supposed to even have our phones out. Luckily, the girls I work with all have each others' backs and they made sure the managers stayed away from me while I was on the phone.
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
17 May 12
Hope it will get better. My son in law's sister is the wife of an army officer. He has been all over the world. Sometimes she can't go with him. He was in Afghanistan and she had to manage without him. They had facebook and sometimes phone calls. It had to be hard.
It's new, but hopefully you will get accustomed to it that he has a job to do. Hang in there. Look forward to the times when you can talk to each other and finally when you can be together again.
My son in law's sister's husband is now stationed in Washington DC. He and his family will be together.
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
17 May 12
I dread when he'll have to be stationed overseas. Now I'm only upset because I can't talk to him or see him at all but when he's deployed, I'll be a nervous wreck because on top of hardly talking to him, I'll be worried about his safety. Luckily, I've researched his job and looked on forums and one of his recruiters even had the same job and was in Turkey, Iraq, and pretty much all over the middle east.
We have a long road ahead but I think that we'll be fine. I just can't wait for the day until he's home for good
@Merpie_314 (19)
• Philippines
17 May 12
sorry to hear that. I'm sure it will get better over time. In the mean time you should really try to take care of yourself better. after all he wouldn't want you to get sick or something. i wish you the best
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
17 May 12
I'm slowly trying. It's getting a little easier to sleep but it's still hard to eat since my stomach always seems to be upset. I was able to talk to him last night and it made me feel so much better. I'll probably be able to talk to him today and that's what keeps my spirits up. I'm just worried about next week when I won't be able to talk to him again until I get some letters or when he's allowed to make a phone call.
@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
2 Jun 12
Hiya CK.,
Oh that is hard on the both of you I was separated from mine for two whole years and then there was no mobile phones or anything like that just ordinary letters you see.
So I spent most of the time before going to work every Day waiting for the Postman to come and see what he would bring.
But I knew I had to be strong so I got over that bit and started eating properly again and sleeping also.
We are very close and he had to do military service and we were thousands of miles away from each other.
Lack of money stopped me being able to go and see him graduate but that is all in the past now but I know you do have a very hard time yes you do.xxx
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
16 May 12
Awe, I know this type of thing is hard on a person, and him being your boyfriend and leaving for awhile is stressful on it's own little own it being in the army. I hope the times goes fast for you til July, keep your chin up! I will keep you in my prayers too for a terrific graduation and awesome visit with him. Its a natural reaction for you to be sick with worry but for your own sake please try not to worry so much, better said than done but it will be for both of your benefit in the long run.
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
16 May 12
I'm not too worried right now because I know he'll be safe. It's when he gets deployed overseas that worries me. But I think that he'll have enough training and the army will work together to keep each other safe.
Right now my biggest thing is not being able to talk to him. It's only the second day and I'm still sick over the fact that he's gone. I'm trying to keep busy with school and work, but at the end of the day is when everything hits me at once.
Thank you :) I'm definitely looking forward to seeing him in July. I think right now, that's what keeps me going.
@itsmamanen (423)
• Philippines
16 May 12
my boyfriend works abroad so i can totally relate to that. he would be gone for a year, and then be home for only a month. he was also my bestfriend so it really felt like i lost a big part me. but he has to work and that's the way it is.
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
16 May 12
Oh wow, that must be really tough. I feel the exact same way..like a huge part of me is just gone
@amy77824 (147)
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16 May 12
Sounds like you two have a very strong bond. Things like this happen and we all have our way of dealing with it. I recommend that you two text each other everyday so you both know the other is ok. During that time you will have to try and eat and sleep because you need it. Hope this helps
Blessed you be
@courtknee525 (3742)
• United States
16 May 12
The both of us are very close and that's why it's so hard for me not to have any communication with him. Hopefully, he'll be able to send me some letters soon. I'm looking forward to hearing from him as well as seeing him graduate in July
@512771751 (1096)
• China
15 Jul 12
Oh, it is really too sad to seperate from your bf. Long distance love really needs strength and couragement. Maybe you could do some other things while waiting the days when you get to go to Oklahoma.
