No Workout Rush- What's Wrong With ME????

I am with you on that Lakota.

thanks Gerty

That is where the counselor came in. She was helping me to realize things and I was so close. Then the whole things changed. Grrr!! I have the pills for the panic attacks and they help the depression a bit. I am taking all I can of it(it is just one that is for the depression but helps with the panic attack. Is actually a anti-depressant) and it isn't helping the depression much now. Doctor wants to put me on Lithium. I am thinking about it. It is supposed to help the anti-depressant do its job. I told the doc I didn't want to back in March I think it was cause my prescription/Part D was screwed up at the time and I couldn't afford it. Now I can but just havent gotten back in to talk to the doc.(I am the ROYAL procrastinator) Your daughter, Lakota, and I should get together. I worry about not having anything to worry about.lmao You guys are great! Thank you.

That is just like my sister. It does not matter how much her daughter earns, her money gets spent up every month. You need to reclaim some of that somehow. For me, I would love to stay home all the time, but I know it is not good for me. I take these small jobs, like merchandising, or product sampling because that makes me have to leave my comfort zone. There are some days I get up and just want to scream because I feel so anxious about them. I rationalize myself into going and once I am "out there" and come back home I feel so much better. I think I get a bit of a rush just by making myself do something I do not want to.

You probably do. I just need to work on the step where I get the gumption to go. The times usually come on me so fast I just say no from sudden stress of the thought of it. I am finding that I make excuses more and more too.

I really would be in trouble. I have been staying in for three years now. All my money goes to keep us going. One change soounds good. That what my counselor was working on with me.

Its not in there and I need help finding it. Motivation to get up and move. I am on my bed now and I usually don't leave it all day. Fun huh? I don't even go outside for days at a time. Life is beautiful and I get a whif of it now and then.

I used to. Just don't care anymore. Just feel like I am marking time. I need a freind like you described to get me going.

awwww if i am there i would go over at your room, will really make you get up to your feet. Go for a walk, for your health's sake.. watch a movie that will motivate you. There are a lot of people right now with much worse problems my friend. there are a lot with even NOTHING yet they wake up every morning to continue life.

Well, good for you girl! How much is 2 and 3 kg anyway? If I dieted I would try to be very good during the week and then splurge alittle on the week ends. Have to do that alittle. You are right. Have to be our own best friend.

Oh, thanks.

one kilo is a little more than two pounds in your measurements.

Having people who need you, and also having something to give to lift people up is really a good feeling. In many ways you are the glue for your family, but you also must respect yourself. And as I try to point other people in the right direction I am often ministering to myself and my own needs as well.

It is difficult. It has been three years. I am an agnostic. I have some of Wayne Dyer's books. I am here to help my daughter. Thank you for your kind words.

You are welcome and I hope you get a chance to see that video. It may be his best work yet. I am glad you have a daughter who needs you. That helps you to push on. I see GG is encouraging one small step. Small steps, a little bit everyday can lead you to tremendous strides. I hope you begin to start small and be consistent. I am rooting for you!

I used to jog. Back in the mid 80's I was 110 pounds and used to trade clothes with my daughter who was in junior high at the time. You have a time crunch to be sure. Ugh!

I have accepted my being overweight too. I have tried too. SOme other problems raised their nasty heads and so I have given up.

LOL there were only about three times in my life where I was not overweight that was my early childhood up to 5 years old, then a short period with 19 years old and with 25 years old that was it. I am glad I have come to accept my overweight and consequently me as is and that helps. Its not that I havent tried to shed pounds but obviously it wont come off with the methods most people use.....

Very true. And as I grow older the negative gets more instauled and hardest to change.

Just leave it huh? Good advise. Thanks.

Well that is easy for some but when you have severe depression with panic attacks it is hard to excel. I took an early retirement in 2006 and am living on SSD now.

Thank you for your comments. What you say is so true. I have checked every avenue in my community for counseling. I was getting free counseling from a methodist church. Had gone to the catholic one before that. If you go to an intern who just needs so many hours to get their licensing then it is free. But, as of January they stopped doing it for free. I am in a position financially right now where I am trying to get some bills payed so I get going on some others. So I have no money to put forth for counseling even at $10 a session and that is at sliding scale. It adds up too quickly. Even if I only go once or twic a month or whatever. When I get stressed I need to go once a week. When I am feeling okay every week or even less would probably be enough. I was beginning to get my personal issues under control with the counselors help and had taken a couple of months off just to get on track and see how I would do without her. I decided to start back in March I think it was and that is when I found out that the churches weren't doing for free anymore. I am pretty good about getting on the phone and finding out what is available in my community. My final thought was to call my doctor's office and check with them since the doctor said they had some counselors there. Nope. They aren't free either or less than most sliding fees. So I am without until I can get some bills payed. Thanks though.

And also never give in to the fact that you are not able to do anything. Anyone can do anything if they put their effort into it. Put everything to your fullest.

I have ALREADY given in to the fact that I am not able to do anything. I am so stove up I can't. It is so easy to say all that. I have severe depression and there are days and days and days that go by that I don't leave my room.