Running Away

I think the only think keeping me from running away IS my son. My job lost my loyalty when they cut my hours AND my pay after my working there nearly 7 years now. My husband is part of my stress. My dad passed away in Feb, and the woman who was my mother figure passed away not quite a year ago. The only people who I might miss (other than my son) would be my brothers, but as much as I love them, I don't think they would be enough to hold me here. I've had a good cry. Several in fact. They help for a while, but since the stress is ongoing its a short lived remedy. As soon as I emerge from the bathroom (where I usually hide to cry) everything is RIGHT THERE.

Life is a challenge.. and you can never turn away from that!! it will make you strong and more mature.. having those kind of situation means that you have a life rather done dont have nothing on it!! it is a meaning that you are living the life. I know that there are some stressful moments, but that moments you got is something to live for! Fortunately i am like you, no ties that binds me no kids to be held responsible, but i got my own family that loves me and i love them in return! challenges in life must not be discourage, it works on the world and the way you handle it, it is how you run the world of your own! there may be ups and downs but it is how your world works in your life.. istead of giving up you have to embrace it. Yes, breaking down is not a sign of a weakness, it is a sign that you need to be up and awake and be more stronger than how you used to be. It is a sign that you need another tactics to cope up with it! but it doesnt mean that your life is not good! Life is good when you get to know how you live with it!! Have faith and go with the flow, you are wiser than the stress in life, you can handle life.do not let life handle over you!! Life is ours to handle.

When my job lost my loyalty, I began planning an escape from it. I started taking training to get me a career that would take me out of there. I did a lot of other things after that. Some that paid quite a bit more. I still miss that particular job, but not what it has become. I talk to people who were there longer than I was and it continued to get worse. I have also abandoned ship on two jobs in the last three years because they were more stress than they were worth. I allowed myself to be promoted beyond my comfort level and my sanity. That is running away too.

I think there is only one person left my family who would even care if I killed myself, but I couldn't do that to my son. I coudln't run away and leave him either, and I cant run away with him. Sometimes I just feel so stuck.... I can't even drive, most less ride a motorcycle.

we all survive for the one that we love, people that we love, our family, our friends, our beloved one, me for my family, you for your son, we all do, of course you can't leave him, he needs you the most, he would be so lost without you, so you have to survive, do the best for him and for yourself, not even that, sometimes, when we see people that we love so happy, smiling, and other things than that, it just can give us some strength to keep surviving in this cruel kind of world, i feel so thankful i didn't killed my self 6years ago, because now i realized, there's still so many people love me in this world, in this life, and i can be tough with them by my side, sometimes you might feel that you are alone in this world, no one you can trust, no one can help you, but trust me, outside you sight, out there, there's still so many people that are facing a lots of harder problems than we're facing now, and we actually so feel really lucky and blessed, because we survive, until this moment, and that indirectly tell us, that we're stronger than them who have 'give up' far before us, and if we can survive now, means we can survive again and again! you might never know how strength ourself have, but trust me, we are never alone, out there, someone we know or don't, love us, and care for us, really.. :)

oh i forgot to tell you something, it doesn't matter wether you can drive or not, you can ride bicycle or even just walk around the small path around the place you live, or even sitting in the side of the road to see people passing by and feel the environment, i can sit hours in the bus stop in front of my office just to watch people crossed by, cars, lamps, the rain, the cold, the environment, and thinking, about my problems, and any other things than that, the one that important is we enjoy the moment with ourself, we're free for some kind of hours, and after that, we realized that we still have to survive and face the other problems, but it's okay, because after having some quality time with ourself, we'll find some stronger spirit from inside of us, trust me, you will!! :D

Feeling unappreciated is one of the worst feelings in the world.

yes nonersays and when it comes from the own family you were born and raised in it hurts double as much. They really should know better and appreciate more.....

I think I would run away if I could. But I can't leave my son. And I can't take him if I run.

My heart is not a very warm and loving home, sadly. My home feels too, too, too far away since my dad passed.

My dad has passed several years ago. He's home. And we'll be going home..someday. Do the useful things when you can in life.

My child is the only think keeping me here right now. I can't get a mini-vacation. Not even a few hours to myself. My mother in law is more than willing to watch my son, but my husband is ALWAYS home.

Sadly my computer isn't as much of an escape as it used to be. Instead of relaxing and playing farmville I'm constantly online trying to earn a few extra dollars to make up for what I'm no longer making at work, and hoping ot have a little left over to spend on myself.