Never forget to appreciate someone important to you.
By SinfulRose
@SinfulRose (3527)
Davao, Philippines
June 12, 2012 10:03am CST
Hello, MyLot users!
I've just experience another bout with my father regarding our new computer. You see, yesterday evening, two technicians came into our house to install it's OS. My only work for them was only that because I know that out printer--yes, that's the issue now--is phased out and those guys don't have the software/driver to make the hardware work. My only need from those guys is to install the computer's OS--it's Windows 7 Pro--and I'll just finish up installing the other necessary softwares or our computer will once again be full of crap.
My father had said that I should have let those technicians take care of it. I tried to reason out that they don't have the driver for it. Still he insisted that they have the device--in his own words--"the gadget" to do it. I would have loved to tell him that they are not magicians and that they're technicians and what they have up their sleeve is just limited but I didn't because it would be disrespectful of me.
Now, I am nursing another disappointment towards my father. No, it's not new anymore, it's just that my disappointment feels heavier compared to yesterday--as it was heavier compared the day before. And if you're asking, yeah, I am disappointed with how my father's brain works everyday. It's so hard-headed that it can be compared to a bull's.
He never really appreciates me and tells my siblings about how unreliable I am. According to my sister's words, seem like a very bad daughter to him. And I just tell her that I don't care anymore what he thinks of me. Yeah, I am hurt but I am surviving. I just pray that before I stop hurting, the guy would think twice about his actions...
So people who have some problem with your family member/s out there, try to appreciate them because someday, if they're like me, they'll stop hurting. And when they do, that means that they no longer care about you. Have a nice day and Happy MyLotting!
So people who have some problem with your family member/s out there, try to appreciate them because someday, if they're like me, they'll stop hurting. And when they do, that means that they no longer care about you. Have a nice day and Happy MyLotting!1 person likes this
4 responses
@topffer (42156)
• France
12 Jun 12
Sorry to read about the situation you are dealing with. Trying to help others is not always appreciated as it should be. You should stand back a little to not expose yourself to his reproaches. A father is a father and it is difficult to "not care anymore what he thinks of you".
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@purplealabaster (22091)
• United States
12 Jun 12
It is true that the ones that we are the closest to are the ones that can hurt us the most, because we do care so much about them and what they think and how they feel, especially about us.
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@SinfulRose (3527)
• Davao, Philippines
13 Jun 12
My father and I aren't so close as you might think. He's an OFW, you see. So we're almost a stranger to one another. The only reason that I am hurt is because I am his daughter and he does not believe in me--he can be my uncle for all I care but the trust that didn't exist would still hurt me. I could have understand it if he's really just a stranger on passing by but a family member is just another story.
I really don't care anymore whenever he reproaches me. I care less with how he thinks of me. I just hope no one else in my family gets to experience what I experience with him--but sadly that is a hope that will not be heard until I do something about it.
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@madonna2012 (62)
• Philippines
13 Jun 12
sinful rose i suggest that you talk to him heart to heart and you might a well take down notes all the grudges you have and re read it over and over again. also we have to talk aout that too. see me in person ok?
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@bellis716 (4799)
• United States
13 Jun 12
Your father is hardheaded because he is a man. 99% of them are that way. They can't admit that a young female might understand something he doesn't. It's too much of a blow to his ego.
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@SinfulRose (3527)
• Davao, Philippines
13 Jun 12
You really think so?
Well there's the gender discrimination anyway...lol
@nerein (283)
• United States
13 Jun 12
I know what it is like not to appreciated by family and some friends. Yes it does hurt, especially if the person is close to you. One thing that I have learned is that sometimes you just have to walk away from those people.
Now I am not saying never talk to him again, I am just saying that maybe you need time away from him. Sometimes to get people people to appreciate you stay away for awhile. When you haven't been around they may wake up. They may not wake up either.
@SinfulRose (3527)
• Davao, Philippines
13 Jun 12
That's just what I wanted to do so much. But sadly, we only live under one roof and one cannot NOT meet here under this small house I'm living in. I'll just pray that I'll be patient enough to endure his presence until he goes back to his work. Maybe then, I'll be able to have time to sort through my emotions and learn to let go of my disappointment towards him for the nth time.
@madonna2012 (62)
• Philippines
13 Jun 12
hello sinful rose,
someone out there cares for you very much and dont let your father's actions ruin you in anyway because in his own way he cares for you. the only thing he doesnt know is how his words and actions hurts you a lot. he was a product of a family that is very perfectionist and did not appreciate them.
i wish that you will be different from him
@SinfulRose (3527)
• Davao, Philippines
13 Jun 12
Hello, mama!
Sadly it seems that I am very much similar to pops. I just hope that changing some of my thinking and way of doing things--that is similar like him--will make me do better. I know pops has some positive traits, it's just difficult to see it now especially when I am deeply disappointed with him for almost everyday.
Thanks, ma, for the support! I will try my best to forget this one and I'll go ahead and focus on the job that I need to do--so that next year this house, where we're in, will be so clean and will have no more things that are junk for him--and will be lacking of people so that he can enjoy his house the more--privately.
