Pretending for their sake

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Ok, before I say anything, I want it to be known that I believe in God and in no way feel like the religion is false. I respect all religions, despite my own beliefs. Now, I'm curious as to what to do about my situation. I'm a deist. If you don't know what it is look it up. If you want to be lazy I'll tell you that deists basically believe that God made the world to run on its own and does not actively play a part in the lives of people other than through their belief in Him. Basically he made a watch to watch it run. Now, my grandparents roped my sisters and I into their church that they were attending. I mean this literally, we only went with them because they asked, and then my granddad forced my grandma and us to join the church with him. That's not the problem. My problem is that I'm not a christian. I don't believe that God answers prayers, I don't believe that a book that has been re-written several hundred times throughout history holds any real power in the world, and I don't believe that any God would let His people suffer on this earth the way we are now. But I digress, I'm curious as to what I should do about this problem, the problem being that I'm a deist in a family of Christians. It makes me feel awkward when they tell me to pray and read my bible when I don;t believe in it. I don't want to participate in any of these church events or even look at my bible let alone read it. It makes me feel like I'm disrespecting the religion by pretending to be a part of it, and though I have my own personal beliefs, I don't want to go around disrespecting others' religions, that's now how I am. I don't want to come out and tell my family and have them pray for me or look at me differently, but I don't want them to think I just plain don't give a damn about what they're telling me and wanting me to do. What should I do? just put up with it all or what? I'm not telling them, that's a given, but I'm sure there are other options I'm not thinking of here...