Have You Ever Fight With Low Self-Esteem?

I used to believe that being a consistent honor student and my achievements are what makes my confidence during grade schools. I also did not have problems in my secondary and tertiary education. But with the outbreak of acne during my early adulthood, (this is when I started working), my self-esteem seemed to reach freezing point. I seek professional help, dermatologists, but the acne will just clear at the start of the treatment, then exacerbate. Due to this, I resigned on my job. I could not afford facing the public with these big pimples on my face. I would not dare go out if not needed because once I'm in public places, I feel like people are looking at me. I am very much keen on watching myself not to hit depression state. I am glad that my friends would visit me and we would go to places where no one knows me. Right not, I am taking oral medications for acne. There are visible results already. I feel quite pressured to restore my old skin so that my old acquaintances would forget how ugly my skin has become during the outbreak of acne. Acne really made me hit zero on my self esteem.

Yes. I was also someone who was a little different and got bullied quite a bit. But, I was always lucky in that people were there for me, so I try to be there for other people, in any capacity, whether they know me or not, rich or poor, etc. It's important to at least make a stand to stop it, even if you can't, you have to try. That being said, I wish I did not walk within the shadow of low self esteem every day, but I do. I know I am a good and competent artist, but it is hard to feel it. I 'know' because there is evidence for it, but yet, it's hard to produce, because I have this nagging feeling that I am just useless and terrible. I think there are many people like that. The successful ones actually know how to deal with this better than I do. I'm very poor at managing myself in that respect, every day is a battle with low self esteem. You can look confident, but feel crippled inside. That is how it is with me, anyway. So I try to be as compassionate as I can with others. No matter how confident they seem, they might be battling the same dysfunction. It is a dysfunction, because it is a chain that almost holds you back from creating. I noticed that some creative people who are successful have people around them that encourage them. It is as if they build a circle of friends composed of people who believe in them, no toxic people within that circle. That is extremely important. We seem to internalize bullies. I hope you surround yourself with amazing people, they can help you learn your true worth. In all truth, it is good and amazing people that are the real wealth in this world. We need money to eat and for a roof, other than that, I firmly believe in cultivating and caring for good people. At least, that is how I intend to run the rest of my life: Be concerned about money for food and lodging, that is it's only purpose, really. Next, concentrate on caring for good people. protecting good people from the same 'bullying', as it never goes away.