In my next life, I just wish to be with her....
By mr_pearl
@mr_pearl (5018)
India
July 28, 2012 10:34am CST
Hello :-)...
I just discovered that I still miss my first love. I mean, I've been seeing her face all the time, maybe hallucinating... I am kind of searching for her, I guess.. Few girls came in my life even after that, but I miss none of 'em. And after she left me, it all became a mess, the whole life... I now live alone, wishing she was still with me.
I made mistakes, I admit. But the punishment was too brutal for me. I never cheated, I guarantee; but I made mistakes.. I probably did not tell her how much madly I was in love with her.. My job was horrible too, with nice income but it was horrible... All she wanted was a stable life. I couldn't give her that. She never asked for it, but I know now why she left me. Oh, I was so foolish not to understand her....
I pray for another chance, another birth, where I won't make such mistakes.... And I'll be able to be with her all my life, without losing her... Pray, Heavens give me one chance.... Pray for me, please...
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16 responses
@louievill (28851)
• Philippines
28 Jul 12
Wow! you will get over it my friend believe me, I believe in destiny so if you are meant for each other then be it, although I would not say that I totally believe in reincarnation to pray to be with anybody in the next life, I think the time is now, or "now or never" sort of thing, if it's not for you then just go on and find somebody you will really be happy with.
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
30 Jul 12
Hi.. It's been 5 years my friend. I have not been able to find anyone. Girls came, but none stayed. And I miss none of 'em either. This girl was different... We both are Leos! And we'd a good chemistry, when she was there. I don't hope to see her in this life. She might even be married by now... :-(
@louievill (28851)
• Philippines
30 Jul 12
the reason why you cannot find any body is because you do not want to detach from the past, If you say "she is different", then you are shutting yourself from millions of prospects, people in a way is always different from one another and their are lots of other "Leos" out there too. If we were only neighbors, I would treat you to a few drinks so we could discuss this better and further, always thinking that she is married now, so what would that do to you? You can't change a thing and pondering on that thought always might not be very good for you.
@meumeu25 (917)
• United Arab Emirates
28 Jul 12
Wow, that sounds nice from a man. Is your ex already taken? If she's not then why don't you tell her what you feel?You don't have to ask her to go back to you just tell her how you feel and let her think about it. You might find it scary because she might reject you but atleast you told her. Who knows she will reconsider. Don't waste your time you might lose your chance tomorrow. :)
If she's already taken then sorry but too bad for you. You never know what you've go til you lost them. Might as well try to be happy with someone else.
Goodluck.
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
30 Jul 12
Oh that so sad, Mr.Pearl. How long ago did the two of you break up? You really can't blame yourself 100% for the relationship not working out. It always takes two. My guess is that the two of you were very young and still had some growing up to do?? Regardless, it is never too late even in this lifetime. Is there any way that you could contact her and tell her how you feel?
@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
28 Jul 12
Really, you should forget your first love. You must break free from her shadow. Your life is now and maybe tomorrow. Face it! Find a girl who can understand you, as you learn to understand about her, what was there. I pray for you. amen
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
30 Jul 12
Hi... Thank you for wishing me well... Forgetting her is the toughest task by far. I have not been able to forget her in 5 years... And these days, I see her face. I mistook many girls at different occassions to be her. Once it got real embarrassing.. Its like I'm searchin' for her..
Practically, this is a disaster! I am aware of the consequences of such behaviour. I also agree with what you say about 'moving on'... Hope God'll help me! Thank you once again my friend.
@violann (436)
• United States
28 Jul 12
If you two are meant to be together then it will happen, if not it won't. You need to quit dwelling on the fact that you are not together at this time otherwise your life will become stagnated, you will wallow in self pity and no one likes to be around someone like that. So go rinse your face off with cold water and get on with the life God gave you.
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
28 Jul 12
your advice, my friend, is logically true... That is the most practical way of life. I tried to do it, but could not! I couldn't be on any side of the road. Got stuck with my confusions, in the middle of it. And when I recognized I was nowhere, I understood that I'd already been trampled by the inhuman container of life... I'm crushed... Won't ever gonna be able to see her again, not in this life. Just hope to get to love her when God gives me another life.
@samar54 (2454)
• Egypt
28 Jul 12
it seem that you loved her big love .. man does not find like this love so much in his life .. I pray that God gives you love another like this or to return her to you if possible ,where you will give her what she want from the stability , marry her and have children .
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
28 Jul 12
Hi.. Thank you for your good wishes... Getting her back in this life, is impossible... Even getting someone like her is improbable.. As far as this life's concerned, I fear, its over... Now I live, coz I'm breathing... Please pray for me that in the next life, I'll get her... For all my life... Please!
@wongchoiyee (7413)
• Malaysia
29 Jul 12
I think you are a loyal and decent guy, you never meant to make mistakes in your past relationships, however mistakes do happen, why don't you forgive yourself and move on, if she really loves you, she will understand your mistakes and forgive you, and if you two were meant to be, it will come someday, just move on and get on with your life. Blessings
@sanjay91422 (2725)
• India
29 Jul 12
I understand the lines you wrote above. I think it happens when you think much about it much. One can never forget their loved ones and when somebody becomes your first love then it will be hard for you to come over it, just like I can not come over the paruresis.
If we learn to move on in the life and understand/find the reason that why someone whom you loved so much is not with you? then you will come to know that there are people in this world who you will love more than your first love.
It is just a matter of time and your understanding.
I respect all the girls whom I fell in love with and I think they all will remain the same for me but that do not make me stop to love others. I hope the same with you.
@phoenix35 (384)
• Philippines
29 Jul 12
You are so in love with this girl. I pray that you have your second chance. But, do you think it's impossible now that you can't be with her anymore? Can you still reach her to say your heart's intention? If you still can then you have that chance my friend.
@sjvg1976 (41281)
• Delhi, India
29 Jul 12
Hello Pearl,
Its true sometimes we don't understand what people want to say but when we understand it,it becomes too late.In your case too it happened you may ask her to come and sit with you and discuss what she wants.May be she come back to your life if she loves you truly.
@else22 (4317)
• India
29 Jul 12
Sounds as if you loved her too much,and certainly it was a true love at that.Still being a human,you committed 'mistakes',as you dub it.But what could you do?Your job did not permit you to give her time that she deservedly wished for.Thus you were left with two options;first,continue with your work ignoring her wish,and,second,give up your work,give her sufficient time and look out for another job.But,I think,you had a third option as well.You could have taken her into confidence and talked to her about your problem and sorted it out.
But certainly yours was a true love.There is a famous Hindi saying,'If you truly love someone or something,it can't remain away from you for long.Ultimately you will get it.'So start living your life afresh and believe in God.
@The_Red_Death (273)
• Indonesia
29 Jul 12
you know what. i my next life i want a perfect girl, batter than anyone in this world.
@vidhyaprakash_2 (7116)
• India
29 Jul 12
Hi friend, sad to hear about this, don't worry surely she will understand your real love and you will meet her again in this birth. As you mentioned you missed her in this birth due to the fate, surely you will get her as your better half in your next birth. True and real love will live forever
@sajith804 (29)
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29 Jul 12
yes your ideas are really very truth.frist love like as a magic.oh...its a dream..only not a just one love is like a river.love has a big power.oh dear its a magical one.and also first love is a amazing.
@sarahruthbeth22 (43143)
• United States
29 Jul 12
I am so sorry. I wish I could tell her to come back to you so you could show her how much you have changed.
@edorms36 (275)
• United Arab Emirates
28 Jul 12
Hi! It's me again and I'm back to the circle of mylot friends. I have been out of touch for quite a while and I am just puzzled about this topic of yours, because as I remember, you and your girlfriend were planning to elope then and start a new life together because you got a problem with both of your families right? Is she the same girl that you are mentioning on this topic? I'm really sorry,but I just can't help but aasked, what went wrong? The last time I knew of about your plans is that you both are willing to take a risk and fight for your love even if it means to sacrifice the life that you both were born into. Anyway, whatever the reason maybe, I just want to let you know, that things happen to us for a reason, we may never know what it may be right now, but in time at God's perfect time, we will learn to realize it, just hold on to your faith and if what you both have for each other is really true, you will find each other again in time, but if you were not meant for each other, i know it is very hard and painful but slowly we have to learn to let go and move on... Praying for your peace and enlightenment my friend...