feeling awkward meeting your crush for the first time.

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have ever felt really awkward meeting your crush for the first time. this happened to me when i was studying in a test preparation class it's now 8 years hack this happened but i remember it like it was yesterday, there was this girl in the class who was really pretty, we used to sit in the same row, and i used to sneak a glance at her all throughout the day while i was at the training institute. i never had the guts back then to come out and talk to her, and i used to be so damn shy i sued to feel all awkward and light headed even when she would pass me in the hall, even her perfume used to smell like something out of heaven to me. one day she came in the class really very early, and i was also there, i always used to be the first person in the class, a few minutes later it started to rain and the class got cancelled, there were only 4 other kids who had arrived, and they all wandered off to the cafeteria, she just kept sitting there in her seat texting with her friends, and i was sitting in my corner. my brain was fighting me to go and talk to her , i got up and i tried going to her but i tripped and bumped my head pretty hard on one of the seat corners, the world went all woozy and the only thing i could hear was the sound of her laughter , and that really embarrassed me, but then she got up and helped be up , and she also put her hand against the bruise that was starting to blossom on my forehead, she sat me down got me a glass of water, and came and sat next to me. she kept asking me how i felt and how i was and i kept grunting and stammering not able to get any proper words out, i just felt so hot and shakey and everything, she way me forehead breaking out in a sweat, and again put her hand to my forehead, she asked me if i was feeling feverish, and i lied and said no, i couldn't tell her that it was because i was sitting next to her and that she was having that effect on me. just then i for a call form my dad on my cell, my ringtone back at that time was my immortal from evanescence, and as soon as it started to ring she started to sing along, i forgot my dad's call and started staring at her, she had her eyes closed and singing along in a very beautiful breathy whisper. and it totally melted my heart. she opened her eyes and looked at me staring at her, then poked me and told me to pick up the call, i talked to my dad and cut the call, and i don't know why but we got to talking about the call and started discussing likes and exchanging pleasantries. and amazingly i found out we had loads of things in common, and we laughed and really enjoyed each others company after that. she asked my why i never talked to anyone in class said that knock must have knocked some sense into me, i said i never meant to be rude, and in fact it shocked me that they all thought that i was rude, i always said no to hanging out because i was shy, and they all stopped asking thinking i was a rude person. well after that she introduced me to all her friends and we became a real bunch for the last few weeks, i fell more and more for her, but i never worked up the nerve to tell her how i felt about her. i never had the guts to do that. then one day classes ended and we went on out way, i talked to her on phone, we even met once or twice, and things looked like they were going forward, but then i lost my cell, and i was never able to get back that number i used. i still dream that i will bump into her, and she wont be married, and wont be dating, and we would still pick up where we left off. not sure that will happen but i can hope and pray.