Ranting on how people on social network can hurt your feelings..lol

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Hi there, I currently use an Instagram for Photo Sharing App to keep in touch with friends and like photos. Instagram as I heard is one of those photo sharing social networks. Anyway ever since I started instagram on phone app, i got so hyped up with it. Taking pictures and posting photos and following people. It took awhile to gain followers. Eventually I also have random followers. So far, I noticed that the trend is now Instagram rather than facebook to share things. But ever since I got like 160 followers, it went down. My number of followers fluctuate as I post photos or likes on certain peoples pages, I think. So far I had some few friends I know as well as my concern is the cousins I did follow. They did follow me at some point then so far like 7 cousins unfollowed me along with some friends that did follow me, they also did unfollow me. Sometimes I feel the photos I post or things I share may not be interesting even if it was decent photos. I also am jealous of certain cousins following each other cousins on the instagram. It seems I'm the one being unfollowed at or something. I also I'm trying to limit photo posting too much as well. I just hope to gain my unfollowers back and gain more followers back but I don't know. I don't know why I'm concern about followers, unfollowers, etc, online prescense of friends or cousins. I also hate that there's such as deny, block, delete, unfollow, reject even if they are your cousins or friends in IRL on the social networking world. I am and I still secretly get depressed about how cousins are unfollowing me on instagram as well as bit of people of I know from school or actual friends unfollowing me. But mostly I wanted to keep in touch with cousins and family. I am still happy I still get some followers...But I'm almost in the verge of planning to make another new instagram or cooling off from it. I already changed username and my photo and name. I changed my email address that is not associated with facebook on instagram. I am so upset about how cousins are unfollowing me on instagram or whatever. I also tried to follow a guy cousin of mine on instagram. However, he follows all my other cousins especially my other cousin who is also related to him but rarely met at family reunion. Hoever, he doesn't let me follow him but her and other cousins and he has rejected my request to follow him on instagram. I felt left out. Also I feel he doesn't like me even if I'm related to him. But sharing all this petty feelings of social network and why cousins are ignoring me and why they unfollow me, I won't be able to share that with them. They won't understand and may tell my brother. Cuz my brother did know once of my random rant post of instagram and why people are not following me blah blah blah even if I hid the post from him. He knew about it because some people told him about it. I also twas wondering if people post their instagram pics and connect through facebook to upload them, and I click like on the actual instagram and facebook, is that annoying? saying like if I see the same photo that was on instagram and also shown on the facebook, does it make sense for me to like twice? I know someone that did that but then i dunno. I hope someone understands my feelings. I just wanted to vent. I just don't know why I'm worried of about being likeable on social networks as well as outside of computer. I did try to fit in on family reunion but I also felt I wanted to feel fit in with all my cousins. Anyway oh well. It sucks I'm just a boring person that they perceive me as. And at same time I am trying my best to look for a job because I have nothing to offer. I just feel left out that they are working and I'm not and don't have a job yet. I feel other cousins with other cousins are more better off than sticking with me. I feel like I'm wasting my feelings over nonsense social networks and gaining popularity among cousins or something. Feel free to share and input. Thanks.