Is there light under the tunnel?

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I been wanting to leave this town since we got back here last November. Both of us are very depressed. We were seriously thinking about leaving but the landlord came by today and I gave him some of the rent money I owe him. I still owe him more. So I'm feeling especially sad tonight for we didn't have enough money anyhow to try to move and now we really don't. We would of had enough money for a cheap motel for 2 weeks, the bus tickets and only a little left for food and things. I sit here thinking I wish I hadn't of paid the landlord and that I wish we would of just left. It's a big worry to leave when you know you don't have enough money. And next month I didn't know if I'd have enough money to rent an apartment. I would be losing my housing assistance voucher. If we can stand it here another 3, possibly 4 months, we can have our housing voucher transferred. Every day is so boring. I'm tired allot so I sleep allot, then I get on the internet and sometimes my son and I go out for coffee/tea. And that's my entire existence. I hate this small city that has a very small one lane downtown. I lived here for about 30 years total. I only came back here to see my family who lives about an hour or so drive away. But things went wrong there and we've not seen any of them since last Thanksgiving. I can't plan things because I never know when I will feel well enough to make it to any kind of meetings or social events or church. My son has a little more of a social life then me but not much. Right now I just about can't stand things here anymore but what can I do?