It's a long hard road out of hell
By nesquikka
@nesquikka (12)
Italy
August 20, 2012 5:16pm CST
About a year and a half ago I started to feel really bad, I would start crying for no reason, thinking I was going insane and eventually looking for a shrink once I realized I couldn't go on like that any longer. The first shrink managed to make me feel even worse so I went to see my doctor who eventually gave me the address of another shrink he said was a good one. I started theraphy with this woman and SLOWLY, very slowly things started to change. She diagnosticated me with a severe anxiety disorder and seeing as I wouldn't really collaborate during theraphy she made me see another doc who put me on sertraline. After a month of being on meds I realized I was feeling a little bit better, I don't wanna go into details because this kind of thoughts is still scaring me a little but I'll just say I had the worst intrusive thoughts ever. Now I'm starting to see the light, little by little, one step at a time. I'm doing the things that I enjoy doing, the things that make me happy without focusing on the future. I'm trying to live my life as it is NOW instead of focusing on what it's ever gonna be of it. I think I still have a long way to walk, but I'm happy I started theraphy because I'm being taught to replace negative thinking with positive thoughts. It's not always working, but I'm doing my best.
Have you ever experienced anxiety? did you eventually feel better?
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11 responses
@deazil (4730)
• United States
20 Aug 12
You are doing well. It's good that you're learning to focus on the positive things of today and not speculating on the negative of what might be in the future. I hope you continue on that road. No, I have never had an anxiety problem. But, without going into a lot of detail, I have experienced total, absolute despair at one time in my life. I have felt many other negative emotions but that was the worst thing I ever felt. Total blackness. No past, no future, only the now filled with despair. It's a feeling that, although gone for many years now, one never forgets. With despair comes loss of all hope for anything. Just feeling like your life is slowly going down a black hole and no one can help you. I can't really describe it as well as I would like. But I got over it. And i know that you'll get over your anxiety. You're doing well and the good thing is you know what you need to do to keep getting better. Good luck.
@dainy1313 (2370)
• Leon, Mexico
21 Aug 12
Deazil I know well that feeling of despair that even can wake you on midnight, and when you wake up in the morning the despair is still there. But what it is most important and a step to maturity is to work against despair. To win the battle against despair and loss of faith.
@1hopefulman (45120)
• Canada
21 Aug 12
I'm happy that things are improving for you. Anxiety is rarely a problem for me. I have had to battle depression all of life but most people are not even aware that I have that problem as I'm a good fighter.
I take no medications but try to eat nutritiously, get enough sleep, and regularly exercise. To me, these are amazing medicines. 
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@jugsjugs (12967)
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24 Nov 12
I know the feelings like what you have described and I will say that they can be very worrying.
I do feel that there are a lot of drs that feel that putting you straight on pills is not always the answer, as sometimes the pills that you put you on are either too strong, or the side effects can make matters worse than what they are.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
21 Aug 12
Anxiety is something that I've dealt with throughout my life. However, I've actually never been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder because of the fact that I'm just too hard-headed to go to the doctor. When I was in college I went through a really bad period in my life and it was during that time that I did talk to a therapist. It was nice to just have someone there that would listen to me as I worked through what was going on in my life.
Though I still have some bouts with anxiety, I do have to say that for the most part I do feel better these days.
@natliegleb (5175)
• India
24 Nov 12
for sure and if we are in the bad shape and even with good stress pills and so much of medication,it takes great effort to burst it out and also hard work at the best
@STOUTjodee (3573)
• United States
13 Sep 12
It's good that you sought out help. I've had some anxiety attacks that were so bad I thought I was having a stroke. I was put on some meds for it. I think in my case it was over stress. Stress can really mess up one's body. I also have dealt with depression. I saw a therapist one time and she told me life is like a road. When you're driving down a road, you may encounter a pot hole. You just can't stop because of the pot hole, you must slowly and carefully go through it. So when you have problems in your life, you must still go on and do so carefully. Also, keep yourself surrounded by positive things and find something you really enjoy doing and when you get stressed out, take time and do that. Enjoy life!
@chiyosan (30183)
• Philippines
21 Aug 12
I think i was in such a time before. Something has happened and it triggered my ultimate sadness, and every move, every words related to the issue i was suffering from has actually brought me tears. I was even in a state where even as i was walking home, i would suddenly just cry and i cannot stop my tears from falling. it was a time where i was really sad, thought that life is meaningless, etc. But slowly i got over the time.. i have never prayed so much in my life, i prayed, every day i prayed, i woke up praying still, and even as i fall asleep i was still praying. I am just not sure of what more i needed to do then. But i only had myself and my prayers and i voiced out everything to God... I had used this as a method of my recovery... and i am all better now. :D I think you are going through some devastating issues in your life, but remain strong... time will heal you, just hang in there, be strong... never lose hope and you will be better even before you know it.
@dainy1313 (2370)
• Leon, Mexico
21 Aug 12
Hello nesquikka of course I have suffer anxiety crisis, they are not new to me. My parents got divorced just a week before I got married. It has been very hard. I went to theraphy when they got divorced, and now 17 years later I´m returning to theraphy because I need to readjust somethings of my life. I have three kids now and we moved to a new town, and I need to focus on some new things.
Theraphy has been a great gift to me. I can really talk about things otherwise I´d just keep to myself. 
@Iriene88 (5343)
• Malaysia
21 Aug 12
Glad to know that you are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
It is good that you learn to live life 'now' and be positive in all
aspect of life. We should live life to the fullest, be happy and things
will take care of itself.
Positive thoughts will attract more positive happenings. Be strong, be
happy and always smile . Always remember, our love ones
always love us.
. Always remember, our love ones
always love us.
@riyauro (6421)
• India
21 Aug 12
Oh that was bad things happening to you, and I am glad you were strong enough to come out of it at an early stage. People die of such anxiety also. You are doing well of now and keep up the positive thinking. It is always better to work towards the better future and live in the NOW. Future will be good and don't worry about it. It is said that worry is a sin and I don't think we want to waste our today worrying about the future. All will be well and have faith.
Everyone has problems in life and I also have my share but I have taken all problems very lightly. To tell you the truth me and my husband are going through very tough time now. We are financially zero. We have taken loan a little to start little restaurant in our house. But I have left the rest to the Lord. He will take care of us because we are his children.
Thanks for sharing your life with us. have a wonderful day
@rizzaspeaks (391)
• Philippines
21 Aug 12
Good on you, you recovered. Just think of the positive things around you and you'll be better.
Yes, I've felt some anxiety at some dark moments of my life but then I survived. It was a choice to survive the bad memories. We should learn to value our own lives and never let others pull us down. We should also be grateful of all our experiences for they make us who we are now, stronger and smarter.
One thing that makes me feel better when I'm down is pouring my sentiments on writing. Don't forget to thank God too.
