Really Disappointed in Myself

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I am so disappointed in myself. Earlier this year, I was down to 153 lbs. I was on my weight to becoming very fit and healthy again. Once I started working at a supermarket Starbucks, I started gaining weight. One would think that since you are standing six hours, you would lose a lot of weight. Not so--especially if you have to taste drinks even though they are small portions. Small portions add up...and when I had to quit (I got screwed over unfairly and wasn't going to work for fools who act like idiots), I realized that I gained ten pounds. All that work and all that dedication...I feel like I've messed that up for myself. I am working out again, and I am getting back on track, but sometimes, I get really depressed. I get really down because I cannot believe that I allowed myself to gain the weight again when I was doing so well. I just feel like a complete loser right now thinking about it. Most days, I don't feel this way at all. I get my tail in gear and start again...feeling confident that I will get there. Yet, it's days like these day that I am very disappointed in myself...and disappointed at the decisions that I've made.