I feel numb about everything now

I'm sure it's hard for him as well and I know he doesn't like being so far away from me even now while he's in Oklahoma and I'm in Florida. Pretty soon it'll be even farther because he'll be in Korea. Sometimes I kind of find it hard to feel bad for him because this was his choice to be in the army and he's also surrounded by guys all the time and they have fun together. I just think that in certain aspects it's a bit easier for him because he always has those guys around him and he also has his career that he can focus on.

While he's away I pretty much go to work and school. When I do have the time, I hang out with my really good friend whose fiance is also in the army. Together, we're able to talk about everything and we can totally relate because the both of us are going through the same situation. So now that he'll be gone a year I'm just going to find another job and just work hard and save up my money for when he gets back so we can hopefully live together.

Baby doll -courtknee-what r u doing while he's away? I hope ur not waiting by the phone like that girl in 'he's just not that into u' lol!! U should go window shopping or do something to get ur mind off things. Pretty soon my husband will be in galvastan for a job interview and I will be freaking out! I want him to get a job because I don't think working is for me. I like working from home! I don't like ppl breathing down my back :)

I never really thought about that PQ, and you're right. When he first decided to join I almost hated him for it and I was really upset. I eventually accepted his decision and got used to the idea. With time, things will probably get better and I'll adjust to him being in Korea. Everything just seems impossible right now and that things won't get better for a long time. I can't imagine not being with him and I think I just have to stick things out and pray this his time in the army goes by fast.

I'm sure you feel powerless and you've been dealt a bad deck of cards. This will change. You will find your joy and pride. I mean it Court. He's one of our heroes. I wish I could shake his hand for choosing to serve our great country.

Yes, you pretty much summed up how I feel in your first sentence. Things just seem so hopeless and now I find myself kind of giving up as well as giving up hope. I've accepted the fact that he'll be gone these next 3 years and that I'll be unhappy until the day he comes back. He really is doing a great thing, he amazes me sometimes because he treats is as no big deal and doesn't really think he's doing anything great or noble, it's just something he wanted to do. But at the same time I can't help but feel hurt that he's left me behind here, even though he says it's just a speed bump for us and the army was something he had to do in order for him to get out and become a police officer since he didn't do well in college. Nothing could have ever prepared me for anything like this, and it's one of the hardest things I've ever done. I just get sort of sad sometimes because my best friend/love is gone and will be out of the country soon, and another really good friend who I've known for 20 years just left to go live in Paris. I'm just left behind here while my friends leave. I am glad though that I have a really good friend whose fiance is also in the army. Her and I have become really close and together we go through the ups and downs of being in an army relationship.

I found out a week ago. At first I cried my eyes out but after a few days my sadness just turned to numbness about everything. I know for a fact I'll be crying again when it's time for him to leave again. I just can't ever get used to saying goodbye to him and I get upset every time I have to.

So far I haven't really noticed any changes in my bf since he's been in. If anything, he's changed for the better and that's about it. I'm the one who has changed for the worse and I've become sad and miserable since he's never here

Thanks, I'm really hoping things get better soon

Things are much better since I posted this discussion. Since I posted this, he came back to visit before he got deployed to Korea. We had a great time together while he was here. He won't be back again for another 6 or 7 months but he bought a phone over there and now he can talk and message me everyday and things are much better between us.

That seems about right. I've already gone through the sadness of finding out he has to leave and now I guess I just don't know how to react next until the next step happens. I'm sure the day he leaves will be really emotional and I'll be a wreck. Even when I saw him at graduation and then had to drop him back off and say goodbye I cried the rest of the day. Goodbyes will always be the hardest even though I know that he'll be back soon.