My Dear Mom Passed Away
By CatsandDogs
@CatsandDogs (13963)
United States
September 9, 2012 11:30am CST
yesterday morning of liver cancer. She fought as hard as she could and just couldn't win the power cancer. My only consolation is that she's at peace and not suffering anymore and that she's with dad. I'll miss her something awful but I know I'll see her and dad again some day and then it'll be for all eternity. Dad passed away just 10 months ago. It's so surreal. I've been so numb since she's passed and haven't cried yet. Some say I'm an internal crier which is the worst kind. I guess so..... don't know. Just wish I could release my feelings but I just can't. Not yet.
Now something I want to say, as most of you already know, I've had a very rocky relationship with my mom for most of my life however, the last 4 years it's been so much different. It's been rocky still at times but with my brother's help, mom and I have been able to 'come back' to an understanding that I mean no harm only the best for my mom. All in all, we've had a great relationship and I'll miss her greatly now that she's gone. She called me her guardian angel and said she didn't know what she'd do without me several times since dad died. I've told her that I don't see any wings on my back or a halo above my head, I'm just a daughter helping her mom that she loves. She'd tell me that not all angels have wings or halos. I'll treasure that with all of my being! Because it meant the world to me for obvious reasons!
My point in telling you this is, if you're in a rocky relationship with your parents, please please don't lose hope! As long as there's breath in their bodies and yours, there's always a chance of a turn around! However, at the same time, you have to be careful that you don't get hurt too. Just keep an open mind and/or an open door for it to happen for it just might! It can't with a closed mind and/or closed door.
Rest In Peace Momma! I love you always! 
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@jillhill (37354)
• United States
9 Sep 12
YOu have my deepest sympathies! I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. My mother also had liver/colon cancer....and they are both resting now in a better place....I am so happy you found some resolution before she passed and now have good memories!
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@CatsandDogs (13963)
• United States
17 Sep 12
Thank you jillhill. I took care of both of my parents for 5 years before they passed. My dad passed last year in November and mom passed 8 days ago. I had to move in with mom to care for her and was with her for the majority of 5 weeks day in and day out. My brother and I were with both parents when they took their last breath however, my oldest brother missed them both. I'm still in a daze and I guess I will be for a good while now because it's so shocking to lose them both within a years time no matter how much I 'knew' it was going to happen for I had predicted it. Knowing that they're both at peace and with each other now does give me some consolation but deg gone I miss them!
I've taken their animals which is 2 dogs and 5 cats so now I have 6 dogs and 17 cats! YIKES! lol The good part is this, they're all fixed!!
@KrauseHome (36447)
• United States
8 Jan 13
Even though you started this discussion 4 months ago, I am sure it has not been easy. Especially thru the holiday season. My mom has been gone now just over 5 yrs. and the holidays and her birthday are still always the worst. Just remember she is now no longer hurting, and life continues to go on. My thoughts and Prayers are with you.
@Shellyann36 (11384)
• United States
10 Sep 12
So sorry for the loss of your Mom. I know you will miss her but it sounds as if she was in alot of pain. I know she is much happier now. I think your message is right on. It is so easy to be angry with our parents but we never can tell what might happen within a short amount of time.
@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
12 Sep 12
I hate to hear about your mom. It is a wonderful thing that you were able to eventually share a good relationship with her. I hope that everyone here reads your discussion and realizes that having a relationship is possible even though things may be rocky right now.
My thoughts are with you.
@missjahn (4574)
• Philippines
10 Sep 12
my greatest sympathy to you and to the bereaved family. it is quiet lonesome and for sure we will miss our love ones and friend who passed away in this world from the living people like us. but in your mom's situation, i agree with you that feeling of relieved takes in for her as her life being ended. at least, she can rest from her mortal life and sufferings.
@quanquanzhang (504)
• China
24 Sep 12
i am very sorry about it ,my mother was ill last year,i came from beijing for her,we have a good relationship,but i was afraid of it which my mother maybe left me which i can't accept,so i atay with her now,good point,she recovered well,thanks for god,i love her forever.
@Thoroughrob (11742)
• United States
9 Sep 12
I am so sorry Cats. She has fought for a very long time. You have been through a lot in that time, I am sure it will all catch up to you soon. I am so glad that I am close to my parents. Take care of yourself and am so glad you made peace with them and yourself. Take care of yourself.
@GardenGerty (160879)
• United States
9 Sep 12
I am so sorry for your loss cats, but glad your mom can rest in peace. I know the healing in your relationship helped on both sides. Yes, we should always hope, always believe, and always be willing to embrace change and healing. I am glad that you have had these better times with your mom.
@SomeCowgirl (32191)
• United States
9 Sep 12
I am sorry to hear of her passing, but she is in a much better place with no pain anymore. I understand the numb feeling and not sure what to do, I had the same with my mother. I did cry, and I am tearing up now for you.
Some people deal with passing differently, and usually different for each passing. It was different for me with my brother and my mom, then my uncle, my great grandmother's, I cried.
@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
9 Sep 12
I'M SO SORRY, MB BUT U ARE RIGHT at least she is not suffering anymore. I hate to see folks i love go through things like that. I'm soooo glad that your mom & u got close the last few yers.I know u will cherish that forever. Sadly to say i never got close to mine but that was her choice not mine. U did all u could for her & u will have stars in your crown for that. Wish i was close enough to give u a big ol' hug but will just have to send it to u this way. I know u are worn out. Try to get u some much needed rest.The next few days will be hard & i hope everything goes smoothly for u. Know i will be thinking about u. If u need to talk u know how to get in touch w/me. love & hugs.
@rollylolly (2843)
• India
9 Sep 12
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings dear friend . May she rest in peace and my heartiest condolences . You are right parents are so precious and we should make every attempt to patch up if there are differences . Life is too short to repent later .
@vanessa11 (296)
• Philippines
9 Sep 12
We would like to express our sincere condolences, even though we don't know each other. Thank you for telling us to realize that we must love the person (whether a family/love ones) and treasure them while they're with us.
You have such a strong personality.
I wish both of them peace.
