how to courage yourself and make yourself confidence?

I'm assuming you want to know how to gain confidence in yourself and encourage yourself? Sorry, I couldn't really understand what you were saying so I'm going with what I think. Correct me if I'm wrong.. I really don't know how to go about this but I'll do my best. Honestly, you need to just be yourself. Don't worry about what other people think of you and just be you. You have to be comfortable with who you are as a person. Encourage yourself by picking out a few good things about yourself and focus on those.. I don't know if you feel lonely because of this too but you can always find/join a group of people around your age where you all share similar curricular activities. For instance, if you like to write poetry or short stories, see if there is a group or an organization that centers itself around that and join, or at least go sit in on a few meetings and see how you like it. That's really all I can think of right now. But like I said, if I'm missing the point, feel free to respond or you can write me personally and I can try to help you a little more. Good luck to you!