Coping with the loss of an animal, my best friend.

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When I was really young, I was never around animals often because I was allergic to something in their fur and it really bothered me. So the day my grandmother came home with a new puppy, a Chinese pug, named Scrappy, I couldn't be happier. After a while my allergies got easier to deal with. Shortly after we got Scrappy, we got a second Chinese pug and named him Corky. I loved them both dearly but, for some reason, Corky was my boy. Scrappy died 3 years ago. The phone rang yesterday, it was my grandmother. I no longer live at home, so she was calling to inform me some terrible news about Corky dog. Corky hasn't been 100% healthy and the last little while, it's gotten much worse. The vet informed us Corky now has diabetes, spots & sores on his body that won't seem to heal (even with medication), and on top of that, cancer. It's been really hard to process the thought of my baby boy going through that pain. Knowing if we keep him alive, he would continue to get worse, the pain would increase and he just wouldn't be able to live a happy healthy life anymore. I went to visit him today, and no matter how I think about it, it's just not getting easier knowing that when I left him today, it'd be the last time I get to see his cute wrinkly face panting at me the way he always has. He's being put down tomorrow morning. It's never easy dealing or coping with the loss of a pet/animal, they truly are family and special friends in our lives. It's such a hard thing to go through, deal with and talk about and getting to express myself on here is actually helping me ease my mind. I just find it so hard knowing my grandmother has to take him to the vet, have him put to sleep, and take him back home to be buried next to our first pug, Scrappy. I know it's the only option at this point where he won't be in any pain and that's the most important thing, I just wish there was something more to be done or said. At least him and his brother will be reunited. I miss him so much already, and it kills me knowing I won't be able to see him anymore. I'm just going to miss him more than words can explain. Does anyone else want to express any thoughts or feelings about past animals or pets that have been in similar situations? Is your pet your best friend? If you've lost an animal/pet, how did you deal with the situation and your feelings?