I ensure I miss you, but is that mean I love you?
By cmy1004f
@cmy1004f (381)
China
October 3, 2012 11:44am CST
How long I haven't seen you? I think more than 20 years, since graduated from primary school. I still remember that day we met before go to middle school, you ask me to be compiled in which class, I told you I was assigned to class 4, then I asked the same question although I had heard you were assigned to class 5, we are next to class. You gave me answer and said it was time to back and said 'see you at new school', I looked as a promise at that time, you know? I thought we are too young, and there was long time we could see each other at school, at least 3 years. I have enought time think clear my feeling to you. But when new term began, Icame to the next class out of the window looked for a long time can not find you, after that I heard you returned hometown to study.
I know I was regret clearly, you had asked me whether I was like you, I just said that you were crazy and then went away. If I had enought courage tell you my true feeling at that time, maybe I will not so lost today. Till now I still dreaming about you sometime, I know it is redundant, now you most parbably become someone's husband, someone's father. But I still desire to see you one more time, even I still say nothing at that moment. Just for I miss you really.
But is that mean I love you?
7 responses
@adnileb (5276)
• Philippines
4 Oct 12
Sounds like a poem to me. 
So cute and sweet. I think that's love.
Well, if you're for him and he's for you, no matter how far the distance, love will always find a way. 
If you really want to see him, why not ask his parents? Or any relatives or friends that might know where he is right now. Don't lose hope. Missing a person so badly means you like him. And when you like him, there is a probability that you will also love him. But sometimes our heart couldn't accept and still on the verge of denial. But whatever it is that your heart desires, you should follow it. Whatever it is that will make you happy. 
So cute and sweet. I think that's love.
Well, if you're for him and he's for you, no matter how far the distance, love will always find a way.
If you really want to see him, why not ask his parents? Or any relatives or friends that might know where he is right now. Don't lose hope. Missing a person so badly means you like him. And when you like him, there is a probability that you will also love him. But sometimes our heart couldn't accept and still on the verge of denial. But whatever it is that your heart desires, you should follow it. Whatever it is that will make you happy. 1 person likes this
@cmy1004f (381)
• China
6 Oct 12
First, thank for you and I am very honored.
Perhaps it was love at that time, but now I can not ensure. I never sure what his feeling for me, if I am lucky, we should have chance to see each other.
I have to say, he just lived with his grandparents at that time, his parent should live in hometown. When communication is not perfect, few home fixed telephone, mobile phone and even fewer. Now I only can contact sereral classmate, pity that they have no news about him. I also do not want to inquire his news too clear.
So, I just wish lucky will come.
@ElicBxn (63594)
• United States
6 Oct 12
There probably is some love going on. At that age, it might not be the "real" thing, but certainly there is nothing wrong with caring for a person.
Does it mean you love him? Maybe, or maybe its more a memory you love. What you thought he was you love. If he had stayed and you had gotten close, maybe you would've found out how little you have in common - or how much.
Being in love with a "might've been" isn't a bad thing, so long as you don't let it keep you from moving forward.
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@katie0 (5203)
• Japan
4 Oct 12
We can grow used to someone and then miss them for that. But also if there's a missing, a real one, that one that doesn't go away with time we have feelings, could not be in a romantic way but we love many people along our lives, in so many different ways. I wouldn't say in different levels cause all that I love it's with much intensity, like if the person is my friend, family or whatever close I'd die for them.
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@cmy1004f (381)
• China
6 Oct 12
I really know it is time to forget but I can't stop. Maybe I don't need to force myself to do this, just let all the beautiful memory of him stay in my mind and not expect anything will happen about us in the future. To me, go on my usual living is enough, anyway everyone has own past can not be changed.
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
5 Oct 12
Considering the number of years that passed and still you feel something special for him, then it must be love. But dear, it has been a long time. And yes, maybe he is now a happily, married man.
If you did get a chance to see him again, what next?
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@asliah (11137)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
for me i think saying miss you or even to feel it is not saying that you already love that person,for me when i say i miss you meaning that i miss the way to speak with me or the bonding we could have with that person.but never meant you love him/her.
@xiaopinggai (483)
• China
5 Oct 12
Maybe that's love long years ago,but now it has been changed,you just feel regret and not reconcile to accept this reality.
Well,perhaps i was wrong,however,i had the same experience.I haven't seen him for six years,yet he still appeared in my dream.At that time,i had no courage to tell him my true feeling,then we missed.
So i always wondering,if i told him ,then whether everything will be different now or not.Will i be happy?
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
17 Oct 12
My mother-in-law told me last week that I shouldn't hesitate in doing what i want to do or i'll end up regretting it. It's better that you have tried than not tried at all and wonder for the rest of your life what could have happened if you did.
What you're feeling right now is an emptiness brought about by the 'what ifs' and 'if only.'
