I need to breath..

@eiram23 (421)
Philippines
October 7, 2012 5:50pm CST
Five days a week, my job requires me to work on a graveyard shift. This has been going on for quite long now. My sleeping pattern have been altered. My daily life have been so routinary. My lifestyle have been so sedentary and I noticed I've been sickly the past few months now. I want to get out of my work now. Probably find an easier job, something I can cope up easily and won't require me to work on a graveyard schedule. But I can't afford to lose my job at any time. I have a big responsibility to consider. And merely thinking of those responsibilities, it keeps me going. I can't afford to fail those people who are depending on me. I would be very selfish if I will turn my back on them. They are the source of my strentgh. They are the reason why I keep going and trying to cope up with the stress brought by the nature of my work. A simple appreciation from them lessens my stress. By merely seeing them happy, I feel okay. Maybe because I love them so much that my priority have been them before myself. Call it selflessness! And at the end of the day, even how stressful my day is, everytime I think of them, the fulfillment I feel is incomparable. I'm happy being an instrument of God's mercy in my own little ways. Maybe I might just need a break. Maybe it's time for me to reward myself right? I'm thinking of nature tripping. Probably, after that, I will be reenergized and be more eager to get back to work.
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@ajlasent (536)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
I can relate to the feeling of having an altered sleeping pattern. Honestly, min had been turned upside down. :( It's great to hear though that you have people to draw your strength on. At the end of the day, it helps a lot to have someone you know you can count on. And please do! Once in a while, it will help to just relax and give yourself time to breathe. :) I hope you're feeling better after letting out your thoughts here. :D
@ajlasent (536)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
That's great! teambuilding activities are a gret way to unwind while bonding with officemates. :) Also you get to go to places while having fun. :D I hope you have a great time then. I'd love to hear about your experience.. :D
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Im looking forward to it. I will definitely share what will happen. Im pretty sure it will be a lot of fun.;)
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@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
i sure will:).. actually we have some scheduled teambuildings this month which i am looking forward to. it would really be a great help. once in a while we have some activities like this and its really helping.
8 Oct 12
I hate to be the bearer of bad news. But the job market today sucks. So my advice is that there is nothing stopping you leaving this job for something easier and more suited to living a healthy lifestyle. In fact, if what matters to you is your family's happiness, I think you should go for it. However, do not just leave, start allocating some time each day to searching for a more suitable job, but don't even mention this to your current employer until you have a holiday. With regards to a holiday, yes nature is an excellent way to escape stress, but please do it in a way that respects the environment.
8 Oct 12
Sorry, I meant until you have an offer, not a holiday. :/
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
thank you so much for that piece of advice doctor. I am considering the idea actually. Its just that maybe I'll just give it a little time. There's one thing I need to consider right now about the job but definitely I won't end my career there. And oh, don't you worry, I am a nature lover so therwe should be no propblem when it comes to the environment:)
8 Oct 12
I'm glad you find it helpful, I know how hard it can be to find a job nowadays, it's never a good idea to throw one away. Glad to hear you care about the environment, I hope you enjoy your holiday.
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Oh, I guess you have to find time time for yourself. Reward yourself once in a while. I also feel that way. I want to give up my job and find another one but I can't afford to lose it. I'm the breadwinner of my family so I have to work continuously. I am praying that God will give me a better future. My family is also my inspiration. They give me strength each day. I hope my boss will be more considerate but I guess he's getting worse each day. May God bless us all and continue to guide us. Happymylotting.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Yeah my family has been my strenght as well for my daily survival:).Im just happy I have awondeful officemates. They are not just colleagues in work but they are more of a friend and family. Even our bosses, they see to it that we can approach them anytime. There is no gap between an emplyee or a boss. You can talk with them at the lobby, you can share with them your food at the pantry, they asked you how are you almost everyday. That's another thng that is hindering me from resigning but if in case i would im hoping to find superiors like them as well. working would be more of fun and satisfaction if you have great colleagues around,.
@riyauro (6421)
• India
8 Oct 12
Hi eiram you have said it all. i agree with you and you have worked hard and it is time to reward yourself. it is important to take time out and re-energize yourself. you will feel better. just take a break and do not leave the job. Thanks for sharing and have a wonderful day ahead.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
i sure will.. i just found out we have scheduled teambuildings this month and im looking forward to it. That's one thing I am always looking forward to when i feel so sick with the stress the job is giving me:)
8 Oct 12
You deserve that vacation your planning! It's no joke to work on night shift 5 days a week. You really need to have a break. I'm sure your family wouldn't mind at all. And while you're at it, try to start looking for a day job. It will do a lot of good on your health.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
It's really not a big joke. It's even riskier. As much as i want to hunt for a day job right away, there are some conflicts but definitely i will not stay here for good. maybe a vacation for the meantime would help:)
• United States
8 Oct 12
Working the graveyard shift is stressful and very exhausting, until you get used to it. I love the graveyard shift. When I first started working security in 1999 they had me working from 4 to midnight. They asked me if I wanted to work 8 to 4, but I said no way, so they put me on second shift, later when a third shift position came open I asked for it and I was working 11 to 7. I loved it. I worked at night got home around 8 a.m. then I had all day to take care of things I needed to do, I'd go to bed about 4 p.m. sleep until about 9p.m. then get up and get ready to go back to work. I did that for 8 years. Sometimes I'd take on other shifts. Three days in a row I worked 15 hr shifts. I loved security, then when I went to work with the county I worked 12 hr shifts. I don't want a job unless I can work graveyard shift. Working nights leave my days open to do what I want. I've been out of work now for 4 years and I keep the same routine as when I was working. I go to bed about 2 or 3 a.m. get two or three hours sleep then I'm up again between 5 or 5:30 a.m. I've never really had a problem with night shift work, I like nights. I have talked with people a lot younger than myself that can't handle working nights. There is more stress involved and day sleep is not as good for you as night sleep. I guess it's what you get accustomed to. If you are having difficulty with graveyard shift, you may want to look into a different job, but make sure you have one lined up before you leave the present job. Stress kills. My doctor told me that I had better slow down and get rid of some of my stress. I had 2 mild heart attacks, one when I was 44 and one when I was 45 and it was stress related, but my stress wasn't just because of working nights.I was working security, but I can't elaborate further. I was under a lot of stress. I never took vacations or any time off. When vacation time came around I took my vacation pay and kept working. I didn't want any time off. I loved my work. I'd like to get back to work doing the same thing. Don't let your job or sense of duty to others make you sick to the point you can't function. If you're working like this to support a family, then they need you well, not sick. Your health is the number one thing, because you're no good to yourself or anyone else if you get sick. Take care of yourself.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
thanky you for the wonderful story:)i just can't imagine you doing it for 8 years now. your right we just need to get accustomed to it. working in a graveyard would be fine if only i can sleep for like 5-6 hrs straight a day. i just really cant afford to have only 4 hrs of sleep everyday with the kind of job i have. it requires enough rest so once you get back to work, your mind is fresh, you are not sleepy and you can interact with your callers the best way you can. I remember if im not having atlesst 5hrs sleep everyday sometimes in not in the mood to work well, its affecting my performance. Tha's just one thing i really can't withstand but of course im not giving up the job yet. and oh.. you better take care of yourself too stroke can be very fatal.:)
@rberon1985 (5359)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
I can feel you Ana. Don't worry you are not alone in that point. a lot members are experiencing the same thinng like you. I am also a bread winner of my family and i know how it feels like to be. I am also on the same field and I know how hard it is to work in a graveyard shift. I've been doing it for almost like 7 years now and I did not even increase my weight because of it.I felt burn out and there were times that I do not want to wake up before my shift and just one to sleep all night long but it popped up on my mind that i have to go to work not only for myself but also for the benefit of the people that needs me. Call center is the highest paid job in our coutry. we can have the morning shift but we will lose the night differential. for me its fine as long as we are more happy working than we just push ourselves since its required.for the meantime, be patient, just think think that 13th month is fastly approaching. that is why mylot is here and i am happy that i was able to introduce to you the site at least there is already a place where you can share your thought, opinions, frustrations and everything.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
absolutely. you know that.. but You know what im gaining weight here. maybe because all i can do is sleep. wake up.. go to work. go home.. sleep again.. very routinary, but thanks to mylot, things change from now on i swear.:)and i really owe you for that..and speaking of the 13th month.. hmm that's one of the few reasons why I am staying.:) kidding!. But actually your right if you love what you are doing even how hard it ios. hopw stressful it is, at the end of the day you still see yourself looking forward to go to work though at times you seem hesitant to do so. But thinking of those people depending on you. You just cant seem to stop. And it feels rewarding when you are able to be of help. That's the most important thing for me.
@911Ricki (13588)
• Canada
8 Oct 12
I worked 8 years on midnights 7 days a week. I laugh at people who complain about it and barely work it. You work 5 days, which means you get 2 days off to recover. That is mroe than I got, I would work 3 -4 weeks straight, get 1 day off, and so on. People I use to work with complained all the time, about how they hate their job, nights, and how they felt. So if you don;t like it change jobs, you take that risk of not finding another job, or not making as much if you caant take that risk then suck it up. I use to work myself into the hospital,a nd that was my break I didnt complain to anyone about it because I knew I couldnt afford it. I got off nights, took that jump and lost over half my income (was making $3,000 a month now barely hitting $1,000), and now looking for another job for a year and nothing nor nearly as much income. Midnights make more, and bring in a chunk of money you will have stress and loss by going off them but if they are really that big of a deal you have to weigh the pros and cons or if your ready for the stress and humps of trying to make up the lost income.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Oh wow.. good for you you were able to make it. That's kinda hard, I mean our body needs rest. and continuous 7days a week work would really burn out our body.. Wow your just so amazing..
@Raine38 (12250)
• United States
8 Oct 12
I do understand your working drive. And that is truly admirable, not so many people that I know can make that ultinate sacrifice out of love. But you must also love yourself. If you think that keeping this health-hazard job will help you and them, it won't because when your body breaks down you won't be able to work at all. Try to look for a new job, perhaps? But don't quit your work until you have a sure job to replace it. And rewarding yourself is definitely in order.
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
That's right rain. I just can't stop right now and just jump into another career which im not even sure of. I might need to wait for a li'l while. The only thing I am thankful of right now are the people I work with. It's hard to find both friends and family in your co-worker and I'm thankful I can say I found that to my colleagues at work. That is another factor I am considering. I mean the job is stressful but working with them helped me a lot to cope up. Though at some point you really can't avoid your body to breaks down and whem it happens its really hard.
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Yeah, working on a graveyard shift is not "healthy" at all. But leaving your job at this time is definitely not a good idea. Why not take some multi-vitamins it will help you boost your energy, and do some exercise, 30 mins a day is enough to charge your tired mind and body. Rewarding yourself is the best. It's perfectly fine to do that, so you can relax,unwind and have a peace of mind. I believe there is no such thing like an easy job, but i also believe that everything should be balance. Good luck on your job and stay happy and healthy :D
@eiram23 (421)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
thanks steph:).. wow i wish i can really spend 30 min a day to have an exercise but once get out from work all my body wants is to sleep.. well good thing im walking a ceratin distance, it might not be enough but atleast:) and yes i should be takling vitamins. i use to take vit c however im acidic and my stomach justb hate it,, haven't bough a nonacidic vit c yet but i sure will. just last week i spend almost a thousand just for few pieces of antibiotics and its just ..wow:/.. i sure will try to balance things. Its so hard when you'll get sick. But thank you for that.