I donot know why my three years relationship with a canadian man end like this?

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I met him in one Web by accident and we chated almost half a year with the yahoo messager.Later he came to China to meet me from Canada. I was so moved at that time and we decided to be together. We loved each other and i felt a lot of happiness i never had in my life.After he stayed in China one month and he came back Canada.We kept in touch with the phone several times a day.He told me his schedule everyday and talked to me in the skype.He promised to marry me after my university study finish.I told my family about him and my parents are agaist us,but i did not care and fight with my parents,because of him. Every year he came back China once and we were so happy to be with each other.We kept this relationship almost 3 years. Last year, we decided to marry and we bought the ring for each other. When he came back China,We checked what kind of document for marriage in China.Unfortunately, China goverment needs the unmarriage prove from his enbassy,but he did not bring it. we called his embassy in China here and they said cannot provide it and ask him to go back Canada to make it.So we did not marry successfully. All our sweet love changed, because of this baby. At that time, i was pregnant. When he knew i was pregnant,he got very mad and said i made this baby by purpose. Actually,i did not do any protection and hope to have a baby with him. I donot know why he did not want this baby. From that,we argued all the time and even donot talked each other for one month. He wanted me to go to hospital to do abortion, but i insist to have this baby. Then he had no choice and said he go back to Canada to make unmarriage prove to come back marry me. But the God played to us,his passport has alreay expired and we didnot know.Because of passport ,it causes a lot of problems. Then he said if he can make the visa to China successfully when he came back China. Then we can keep this baby,otherwise do abortion. I was waiting for this answer every second when he went back Canda. After one week he told me, the visa to China was rejected. He asked me and pushed to me to take out of this baby.At that time, the baby almost exisit in my belly 3 months and i was so happy to be a monther soon. But what he said make me sad and cried every day every moment. I said if you decide donot want this baby,and it means our relationship will finish. But he did not care and said this was my baby and if i insist to let the baby bored, i can not find him any more. I pleased him thousand times and just let this baby bored and all my life followed him. He kept silent and later did not answer my call and text,email. Suddenly my life was so insecure and hopeless.My family knew about this baby and his attitude, all or them drived to take out this baby. I was so so sad,crazy and suffered every monment.All the time,i told myslef he will not ingnore us. But he did not answer my call for one month and i was totally desperate. I wanted to keep this baby by myself, But it is very hard to keep baby by yourself very hard in China.At the end, i went to take this baby out. I regreted about this decision and is suffering every day. After i told he i will go to hospital to take out this baby, he replied me immediately and sent me money for abortion. I disappointed at this man and never believe he treated me like this. I used all my heart to love him and thought he loved me in the same way. i was totally wrong. After abortion, then he said he still love me and want to be with me and marry me. I donot trust him any more and i donot want to be with such a cold bloody man any more. My tears is full of my eyes now. I cannot write more. Sorry, my baby and Forgive me.