Sometimes I Just Want To Scream

hi rberon you brought tears to my eyes. I am joining in our mylot prayer team for Tina and am hoping we all will send our prayers as there is power in all our many mylot lifted prayers. join us everyone please?

Thank you so much for this response, and that is why I appreciate all the wonderful people in here who continue to encourage me no matter what I might be going thru and thank you for the prayers of encouragement.

why? what made you cry in my response? is there something wrong? maybe you found it very touching?i am really looking forward for her immediate recovery. i hope she is really fine soon,

Thank you for the prayers. I believe that the prayers here of everyone, and of my personal close friends are what is really helping. I am showing a lot of good progress with the wound. Just ready for it to eventually heal.

I am glad that you feel that you are close to getting a peace of mind. Your friends will surely be giving you open arms whenever you need them. Take care!

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. With all I am going thru it is so hard to keep positive, but I do try and remember no matter what god is in control and one day this too shall pass.

Well, since I started this post, the wound did get a little smaller and most the time the skin is looking better so the doctor who works with people who are getting hyperbaric oxygen said the leg does look a lot better than it has. It is just going thru a lot of changes right now with the skin etc. So I am hoping this continues to be good sign.

Wow my friend. My thoughts and Prayers are with you. I know many times how when you think things are getting better, Wham something happens to set you back and make you think about life more. I will be Praying for you, and hoping the Best.

It sounds good! I hope you continue to see improvements as well. It's my turn to scream now, though. I haven't decided whether or not to make a discussion out of this but I was just released from the hospital yesterday after being taken there by ambulance 3 days before. It seems I now have 'benign paroxysmal positional vertigo'. I developed an extremely bad cold the Saturday before and laid down for a nap on Thursday. A few hours later, I woke up, still fine, and sat upright then the world began to end! The room was spinning violently, even with my eyes closed, so I laid back down but that didn't stop it. After a few minutes, I couldn't move my arms, legs, anything. So, the ambulance was called. They did an MRI while I was in the ER which at least did not show any strokes but did show a massive infection in my sinuses so this could partly be caused by infection in my middle or inner ears. I'm still very dizzy at times but I am able to walk with a walker or if there's someone I can hang on to. I'm on antibiotics and an anti-vertigo medication and basically just taking things one minute at a time. If it's not one thing it's another, huh? My husband is home from his ordeal at the hospital (after a double bypass this time) and seems to be recovering although he's still smoking and drinking, the idiot. It looks like I will have to reevaluate my entire life and make some major changes. What I have will never go away. It will get better, then come back again and continue doing that for the rest of my life, according to the doctors. So, I'm going to have to give up driving and a lot of other things. I HAD applied for a government job with the Government Printing Office in Washington, D.C. as a proofreader. They've opened up 15 jobs there paying a massive $35.73 per hour! I figured I could bear a little pain and stiffness for that kind of money but now I have to turn it down if they end up offering me the job. That really hurts! Such is life, huh? Again, I hope you continue to improve and can write a new discussion very soon telling us that your wound has finally healed completely.

Hi krause, hi bunny, I would like to help you. I pray daily, every day for people like you in need of support, I wish I had better words to comfort you both. I have a friend, my best girl friend since 24 years ago. Since I met her she is in wheelchair, and had similar wounds as you Krause. But I admire her so much because she has been very brave, her parents got divorced many years ago. But she got strenght and got married and had two kids by c section. And she moved abroad to a better country, and she has better chances now. But her body is always causing her pains. I would like to help you better. I just can say that each day, no matter what I pray for you and all those who need our Lord with them. Blessings krause & bunny... dainy

That is True... Screaming out at times is Good and can help sort some problems, but for the most part I have learned even with this situation to just wait it out more and Pray about it, and usually in time everything will be ok. There have been many people praying and I am starting to see some Good results, so continuing to hope for the Best from here.

Personally my friend, that is what I have been thinking as well. The one doctor does not really know enough to be much of encouragement and help. But the doctor who is in charge of the hyperbaric oxygen unit has really seen a difference and says this is working and helping so that is the main doctor who will communicate with my insurance the most. Just will be glad when and if this ever decides to heal and hoping it will all stay healed this time.

I thought of something really scary too... and that is trusting God that time will be granted for you to take time off to heal and that you will go through the proper channels to continue to get an income. I feel the only way to heal will be to get out of that environment for a significant amount of time.