What do you do after your boyfriend breaks up with you?

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Well, it is official my boyfriend of almost nine years has just broken up with me. After enduring a very complicated relationship that has included a long-distance relationship for almost the past seven years, he says that he no longer loves me. We have texted back and forth putting the blame on each other. Finally, I just put it simply that we both messed up, so why does he want to end it rather than work together to fix the relationship. Then, the truth comes out that with his health that I would be better off without him that he will just weigh me down. Honestly, I have feared this for awhile; in addition, I have questioned so much what type of future we would have with his health continuing to decline. The worst part is that lately I have kept these nagging doubts to myself because it always ends up with him misinterpreting them, and us ending up in a huge fight. We have agreed to be friends. That is going to be tough. Then, again I still care about him. Perhaps, he still cares about me too. Hard to tell right now I just feel the stinging of the open wounds of how much his words and actions have hurt me lately. I am devastaed. I am drained from all the crying. Now, I am just sitting here wondering what do you do after someone that you loved has broken your heart? This is the first time that someone has broken up with me. I generally am the one that ends the relationship. Well, there was the guy that took almost a year to call me back, but then again I look at it as that I ended that one because I choose to stop playing those games. Please give me some advice on how to mend a broken heart.